Please don't. It is awful for the survivors and there's so much beauty in the world. Please call a hotline, a friend, sell the gun at a pawn shop and take the money and do something fun. Sending you love and prayers. I've heard it expressed that suicide is a long-term solution to a short-term problem. I've had my dark times too, I'm grateful to have gotten through them.I've had a lot of bad news in the last week or so. I ended up crying in my car after work for a few hours with a gun in my lap. Really considering not being alive for much longer. I'm kinda, just done and over with everything. I'm tired.