The Poet, in a Moment of Self-Doubt,
Questions His Rhapsodic Talents,
Only to Be Reassured of His Genius
I sometimes wonder, rather idly,
If I be poet or poor fake,
Ignoring answers stating snidely, Your poems make my belly ache.
For readers err in their opinion
When poesy's not their dominion
Nor I mere vassal to their taste
(Of sycophancy, not so chaste).
But yet I strive for lyric preening,
My feather'd phrases plumped and pruned
As bird of paradise festooned
With imagery dyed deep with meaning.
I think as poet, I'm quite good—
One solid-sounding block of wood.
Or not
Things to say
Sound like blather
Thoughts
Refuse to gel
Feelings
Masquerade as
Important ideas
Sounds are
Cacophonous
Ideas fade
To blurs
Focus is
Not an option
No matter my want
Wish in one hand
Shit in the other
See which fills first.
That’s what you said
In our chat
In your kitchen
In your house
Anal-retentive decoration
A place for everything
And everything in its place
You brought it up
I didn’t ask you
I thought to
And didn’t
You thought, too
Apparently
And then announced
“I’m emotionally unavailable”
A new concept to me
then
Yet a long time condition
Now named
For years
I thought you meant yourself
But no.
You were right about me . . . .
when the planes fall from the sky
you will know how much I love you
when the earth is but dust and ash
you will understand how much I care
when the flood has drowned us all
you will know I regret it all
and I will lie about it every time you ask
I lie to you every day
I lie even when I tell the truth
I put it all so far away I can't even find it myself anymore
when the birds fall dead from the sky
I will already be long gone
you won't miss me
you might not even notice
because I push you so far you will leave before I do
Your best chance for your seed to implant is
The hot quent of my aunt from Atlantis
When she gets in the groove
You can feel the Earth move --
Chanters rant, but we know the risk scant is!
Since when again
Did grown men,
Clad in Death's hue,
Snarling, snapping
Like eager dogs of war
Warrant our excuses?
Their prey, again: Men, common, poor,
Humble men
Whose dark sin
Is hoping, working, and Mothers, fears trebled;
For Children, mate,
And lastly self.
And then most coarsely
The eyes of the Innocents,
Pulled from schools
Churches, Grandmas.
Understanding naught
Save fear, and
Daddy's gone.
The dogs of Hate
Surround, contain,
Hate and fool-fed fear
Fuel abuses
As they simply
"Follow orders."
Have we lost lessons
From Nuremberg?
Do Dachau, Auschitz,
And the frozen camps
Of Siberia
No longer urge,
Weep and warn?
Who gave hate
The bullhorn again?
Will we avert eyes,
Harden hearts
Excuse evil?
Will we feign the same
Naive blindness
To the trains,
To the pains,
The pleas?
May our hearts
Be melted,
Minds mended,
Resolute rightness
Returned,
Lest the High Court
Of tomorrow's
Hindsight
Condemn us for our
Complacency.
A world of color opened up
This week
As I crossed Sourland Mountain to work
Dim tones
Barely emergent
On the branches
Tiny, almost indiscernible dots
Of pigment
Where pointillism, Impressionism and stippling
All intersext
The spring is a series
Of tiny points
The woods now speckled with soft hues
Pollen thrusting outward
Emerging neon green
That color of leaves pushing
The deep red of oaks and maples
Tiny colored tines of fruit trees
Ivory apple flowers
Pears of purple
Cherry pink flowers…
All emerging
Pressing out
Birthing and being borne
I feel that energy
And I too am stimulated
Engorged…
That technicolor world
Of leaves
That cycle of ends on ends
Everything awake
And intent
One giant vibration
The world waking up and
Getting off
This phase of the cycle
Waking
Life emerging
And coming out
And everything before
After
And in be-fucking-tween
The Poet, Too Tired to Come Up with a Title,
Offers This Gratuitously Self-Important Phrase Instead
I've been quite indisposed. Like plain sick.
So my poetry hasn't much kick.
Thus, this weak little thing
That (half coughing) I sing—
A quite sad, limerickian shtick.
I wonder if you'll miss me when I'm gone.
Our life together hasn't been the best,
but back when times were good, our love was strong.
We've been together oh so very long
our separation gets me quite depressed.
I wonder if you'll miss me when I'm gone
or if it wouldn't matter. You've moved on,
I guess, in ways I haven't yet addressed.
I'm stuck where times were good and love was strong.
It leaves me in denial—sad, withdrawn,
and thinking all the time like one obsessed, I wonder if she'll miss me when I'm gone
or if, in future, you'll suppress a yawn
when asked if you remember my caress
back when times were good and love was strong.
I can't believe how things all went so wrong.
I really thought our life together blessed
back then when times were good and our love strong.
I wonder if you'll miss me when I'm gone.