So, how do I suicide?

[John_Smith123]

Don't suggest any place where assisted suicide is legal, because I have no money to travel. Just tell me how to do it myself.

In case you don't remember why I want to suicide, read this thread again:
https://forum.literotica.com/threads/what-would-you-do-if-you-were-me.1619039/

 

[Fiestykitten]

This isn't something to take lightly or make remarks on b/c of a porn site..... grow up....
Now, if you really feel that way b/c of other circumstances in your life please call a hotline and get help... you deserve to live

 

[PintlerMan]

Please don't go this way, people care about you, more than you realize. This hits me deep, I just lost a dear friend to this, I and many others cry everyday for her. I miss you Courtney, every day. Talk to a professional, seek help, people will listen and they do care about you.

 

[Oshkosh60]

Like nearly everyone else on this planet, i have lost friends and family members to suicide. In a previous professional life, I dealt with a lot of people who are where you are at now. And I myself nearly took my life when I was young.

Our circumstances can change dramatically. But we have to change ourselves in order for that to happen. No one else can 'fix' us, we have to find the courage to change things up a bit. And gradually things get better. Practice with family and move on to others. Sometimes volunteering helps to get us out of our own headspace. I have known dozens of people whose lives went down a different path, it can happen. I hope it happens for you.

 

[Terrylipstick]

Don't suggest any place where assisted suicide is legal, because I have no money to travel. Just tell me how to do it myself.

In case you don't remember why I want to suicide, read this thread again:
https://forum.literotica.com/threads/what-would-you-do-if-you-were-me.1619039/

Don’t do it. Don’t think about it. Please.

 

[Escierto]

It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

 

[Gator66]

Get a hobby. I read your link and that's my reply. It can be fucking anything. Origami (seriously everyone can afford paper), cooking, walking, listening to music. bouncing a ball off a wall. bouncing a ball of a wall with a racquet, traveling, exploring a new bus route. Truly just don't give a fuck and do any or all of the above and of course much more, and then eventually you'll find something that doesn't suck and that might be your hobby. And to anyone reading this, DON'T FUCKING COMMIT SUICIDE IT IS AWFUL FOR ALL SURVIVORS. AND IF YOU DO, FUCK YOU!

 

[MiaBabe23]

This isn't something to take lightly or make remarks on b/c of a porn site..... grow up....
Now, if you really feel that way b/c of other circumstances in your life please call a hotline and get help... you deserve to live

The second and very thoughtful comment there is weakened by telling him to ‘grow up’ - best not to make these kinds of comments, and stay kind

 

[MiaBabe23]

https://forum.literotica.com/threads/what-would-you-do-if-you-were-me.1619039/

What’s the experience closest to joy or pleasure you’ve had so far, here or irl?
I’ve been eating pb and j and rewatching favorite shows while feeling down lately

 

[SmokingFap]

This thread is from a person who only has 25 posts, and all of them are just complaining about his life and how he has no friends and he can't be the way he used to be on this site and how to commit suicide since at least August. He has admitted that this is the only attention he gets in his life. He has begged the mods to permanently ban him just to get more attention. I do not take his supposed suicidal ideation seriously. I personally would recommend not feeding into his craving for attention, and I certainly wouldn't get worked up about any of his posts.

I know I'll get hate for having this attitude, I'm just trying to spare people some time and emotional capital that is unwarranted. I have attempted suicide a couple times and know several other people who have, as well. If someone is serious about it, this is not how they behave. The OP is a troll.

 

[MiaBabe23]

This thread is from a person who only has 25 posts, and all of them are just complaining about his life and how he has no friends and he can't be the way he used to be on this site and how to commit suicide since at least August. He has admitted that this is the only attention he gets in his life. He has begged the mods to permanently ban him just to get more attention. I do not take his supposed suicidal ideation seriously. I personally would recommend not feeding into his craving for attention, and I certainly wouldn't get worked up about any of his posts.

I know I'll get hate for having this attitude, I'm just trying to spare people some time and emotional capital that is unwarranted. I have attempted suicide a couple times and know several other people who have, as well. If someone is serious about it, this is not how they behave. The OP is a troll.

I get what you’re saying, and hugs to you
But I also know everyone is different; and even if what you say is true, others may read it, so I’d rather give a kind, sincere word

 

[John_Smith123]

He has begged the mods to permanently ban him just to get more attention.

I'm still sure I'll be banned sooner or later. I've joined countless forums in my life, and I always end up banned. Not a single exception. Even when I tried my best to be nice and follow the rules, I still ended up banned without knowing why. And since I'm never told why I'm banned, I can't improve my behavior, since I don't know what I do wrong.

 

[SmokingFap]

I'm still sure I'll be banned sooner or later. I've joined countless forums in my life, and I always end up banned. Not a single exception. Even when I tried my best to be nice and follow the rules, I still ended up banned without knowing why. And since I'm never told why I'm banned, I can't improve my behavior, since I don't know what I do wrong.

^^^^^^ This is exactly why I'm recommending people steer clear of you.

 

[John_Smith123]

Like nearly everyone else on this planet, i have lost friends and family members to suicide. In a previous professional life, I dealt with a lot of people who are where you are at now. And I myself nearly took my life when I was young.

Our circumstances can change dramatically. But we have to change ourselves in order for that to happen. No one else can 'fix' us, we have to find the courage to change things up a bit. And gradually things get better. Practice with family and move on to others. Sometimes volunteering helps to get us out of our own headspace. I have known dozens of people whose lives went down a different path, it can happen. I hope it happens for you.

I can't fix myself, because none of those who banned me told me what I do wrong, and I have no money for a professional.

 

[John_Smith123]

^^^^^^ This is exactly why I'm recommending people steer clear of you.

Humans are born, not made. It looks like whatever about me annoys others so much (and nobody ever tells me what it is) is something I was born with and can't change (since human character can't change), that's why nobody ever bothers telling me what it is. Or maybe it's something so obvious they feel it's not even worth telling me if I'm too stupid to figure it out myself. I guess I'll never know.

 

[SmokingFap]

Humans are born, not made. It looks like whatever about me annoys others so much (and nobody ever tells me what it is) is something I was born with and can't change (since human character can't change), that's why nobody ever bothers telling me what it is. Or maybe it's something so obvious they feel it's not even worth telling me if I'm too stupid to figure it out myself. I guess I'll never know.

I will tell you straight up. You are too desperate for sympathy and attention. That's all you ever post about. You don't ever offer anything interesting or of value. If you have any memories or interests or fantasies that you'd care to share, this is the place to do it. The General Board is the place to discuss topics that aren't necessarily related to sex. If you like cooking or biking or photography or anything in life, there's a thread to discuss it on. But if you just keep whining about how awful your life is and begging for attention and sympathy, why would anyone want to interact with you?

 

[JustKjell]

I think I'm not the only one to admit that taking my own life has crossed my mind. While it sounds like the 'solution' to all the heartships and problems, it's the start of it for people near you and in your life.
As somebody who deals with depression, anxiety and a bunch of other stuff, I know it's hard. You don't give two shits about other people. You just.don't.care. People who've never had actual depression understand that you can't just snap out of it. You just sink into it deeper and deeper.

I ended up seeing a therapist at one point who gave me some good coping techniques for when you get that way.

1. Change of scenery. Got somewhere else. Take a walk, go swim.
2. Change the environment. If you're in a warm place, go outside where it's cold. Or vise-versa.
3. Do something physical. Anything that matches your mood.
4. Listen to (loud) music.

And last but not least... Go see a therapist if you're not already seeing one. If you are seeing one and she's not helping you, pick a different one.

I'm at an age that people start dying around me. I'm in my 50's. When I was in my 20's I worked with a guy who was always super laid back, funny, witty and laughed a lot. He passed away in his mid 30's. Had a 4 year old girl and spent a year on oxygen deteriorating.
I think about him a lot. He knew he had a disease that would kill him early and he tried to make the most of his life while he still could.

How am I to cut mine short and square that with his life. Knowing he'll never see his kid grow up, become potentially a grandfather and enjoy whatever else there is in life?

PM me if you want to talk. It's hard for men as we're always supposed to be strong and manly.

 

[Lance_Castro]

I'm still sure I'll be banned sooner or later. I've joined countless forums in my life, and I always end up banned. Not a single exception. Even when I tried my best to be nice and follow the rules, I still ended up banned without knowing why. And since I'm never told why I'm banned, I can't improve my behavior, since I don't know what I do wrong.

Have you tried the Politics Forum?

They talk a lot about banning people over there.

Hope this helps.

 

[AlexBailey]

It’s better to go for the stars and miss than to aim for a pile of shit and hit.

Go find something that interests you, and if you find nothing, keep looking.

Committing suicide is like smashing your TV and burning down the house because you don’t like what’s on channel five at the moment. Get up and change the channel or go for a walk outside.

 

[JustKjell]

I've been informed not to waste my time so I won't anymore. Still, my suggestions and recommendations stand.

 

[Rapier55]

You will not get any answers on here that will satisfy you - this is the wrong place totally.

If you are serious about your feelings then “and if you really want to” then talk to someone - even the UK based
Samaritans. They will not try to talk you out of anything but will listen to you and hope to help ‘you’ find your own way forward, whatever that may be,

Sometimes what someone wants is actually right for them, the problem is others think they need to talk them
out of doing what ‘they themselves’ wouldn’t do. This is why I know you will not listen to them!!!

All the best whatever you choose is right for you.

 

[John_Smith123]

I will tell you straight up. You are too desperate for sympathy and attention. That's all you ever post about. You don't ever offer anything interesting or of value. If you have any memories or interests or fantasies that you'd care to share, this is the place to do it. The General Board is the place to discuss topics that aren't necessarily related to sex. If you like cooking or biking or photography or anything in life, there's a thread to discuss it on. But if you just keep whining about how awful your life is and begging for attention and sympathy, why would anyone want to interact with you?

But when I was banned from my previous forums in the past, I didn't do that. I tried to actively participate in discussions and was polite and followed the rules. On the last one I was (before this), I even discussed with the mods about what I was allowed to do, and they seemed reasonable people, and they assured me there would be no problem if I followed the rules. And I still ended up banned, after my first 10-20 posts, without being told why and without them responding to my appeals. That last incident made me realize that I was just born unlikeable.

That being said, when I started posting here, I didn't expect I'd have problems even in a porn forum. But when someone complained that I ask questions without ever writing any stories, my memories of what had happened in the previous forum awoke, and I knew the countdown to my ban had started here as well. And I was right: I was banned in the end, though I brought it to myself by getting angry and insulting everyone, I knew it was destined to happen anyway. I thought getting banned from here too and getting it over with would make me feel liberated, but it didn't.

So I came back and apologized, though it turned out nobody remembers who I was. But I still don't feel liberated, my memories of what happened in the previous forum (where I did everything right, I watched every step, and still got banned for no apparent reason) still haunt me, and I cannot shake off the fear that the same thing will happen here too. Every time I log in, I expect to see the ban message. I just can't get rid off my certainty that I will be banned here too someday.

I wish things were as when I first joined this forum, when I asked questions without worrying. But that's an era long-since gone. When an era ends, it never comes back. And the era I could have fun here is gone, whether I like it or not.

Just like the fact that I was born unlikeable and there is nothing I can do about it remains a fact, whether I like it or not.

 

[John_Smith123]

I think I'm not the only one to admit that taking my own life has crossed my mind. While it sounds like the 'solution' to all the heartships and problems, it's the start of it for people near you and in your life.
As somebody who deals with depression, anxiety and a bunch of other stuff, I know it's hard. You don't give two shits about other people. You just.don't.care. People who've never had actual depression understand that you can't just snap out of it. You just sink into it deeper and deeper.

I ended up seeing a therapist at one point who gave me some good coping techniques for when you get that way.

1. Change of scenery. Got somewhere else. Take a walk, go swim.
2. Change the environment. If you're in a warm place, go outside where it's cold. Or vise-versa.
3. Do something physical. Anything that matches your mood.
4. Listen to (loud) music.

And last but not least... Go see a therapist if you're not already seeing one. If you are seeing one and she's not helping you, pick a different one.

I'm at an age that people start dying around me. I'm in my 50's. When I was in my 20's I worked with a guy who was always super laid back, funny, witty and laughed a lot. He passed away in his mid 30's. Had a 4 year old girl and spent a year on oxygen deteriorating.
I think about him a lot. He knew he had a disease that would kill him early and he tried to make the most of his life while he still could.

How am I to cut mine short and square that with his life. Knowing he'll never see his kid grow up, become potentially a grandfather and enjoy whatever else there is in life?

PM me if you want to talk. It's hard for men as we're always supposed to be strong and manly.

For the last time, I have no money for a therapist.

 

[live4thebj]

This thread needs to be locked. This has all the odds of going down hill fast.

 

[John_Smith123]

This thread needs to be locked. This has all the odds of going down hill fast.

Your brain needs to be locked.