Someone just asked to explain myself and what i mean so here goes.
Two years ago I was renting some porno and received a disc of shemale porn by accident. Curiosity set in and I played it. I was surprised at how excited I got watching it and even more surprised at how hard my cock was. Needless to say I was hooked and couldn't stop myself from watching more and more. I never did enjoy gay porn as much as shemale, but I do love watching anything cock.
So there it is. My secret fantasy for past two years. My wife doesn't know, along with everyone else in my life. I just want to chat with like minded people and maybe role play or anything else. Friends are always a good conclusion. Thanks.
I understand your situation, I was there for most of my life finally got to fulfill my desire to suck a guy at 64, loved it. If you would like to talk let me know.