puddle_girl
Quilted Northern
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- Feb 27, 2024
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Black
I have been sucked down a black hole.
I can see that at the edge of it's top
Is a sliver of light.
But I care not to seek it.
Let it remain for as long
as it's energy can be fulfilled.
I have other rustling debris
to sort out within my hands now.
The turned
charred
half eaten
wasted
and rotted memories
that despite their newness,
decayed the moment they arrived.
I have to gather them,
and sort them accordingly for
my now broken source of light.
That thing.
Who all together was glowing radiant
with the wonder of the green fields and blossomed trees,
now cowers in the corner.
Her back to me.
Silent.
She curled her hands around her knees
and pressed her forehead down to stop the screams.
So, I am left,
to put together the lamp she broke,
and gather the books she threw,
thick,
heavy leather bound and worn,
to return them to the dusty shelves.
She tore them down.
She tore it all down
when her aged and tender parts
were cleaved.
I am fortunate enough to step to her side
and only smell her fear,
knowing it comes from her.
That wretched thing in the corner.
I can hear her sometimes, sobbing in spurts.
Sniffling and wiping the snot from her lips.
I'm the strong one here.
That's why I'm cleaning up her mess.
It was quite a mess,
but it was a necessary one.
I've scraped the shattered bits
into a pile and with my broom,
gathered them up to dump into
the blackened hole in the floor.
I know where she came from,
and I know what happened.
But she won't talk about it.
Only weep in between long silences.
So, I sigh and pull myself up
to tend to the mediocre,
the everyday,
pushing the pen,
wrapping the lunch,
feeding the mongrel dogs and
running the races for this and that.
I mark the calendar and keep the appointments.
All find that even around this place
I tend to keep it tidy, even for that one,
over there.
Who in her terrorized existence,
still wants for an ear.
But I cannot offer it,
as I am just too busy.
So back to the drudgery of my every day.
I still see that split above me.
And resign to the next task,
When suddenly
I feel the tug at my pantleg
and look down to the meet with horror
the vacant dead eyes of her.
She crawled to me in trickery and stealth,
and with that meeting of a state,
hers of an all-consuming hate and rage filled vacuum
and mine of paralyzed abject disgust,
I am sucked back to that room.
That night.
Where it happened.
"How long will I stay this time?" I ask.
She whispered, "until it's over."
I have been sucked down a black hole.
I can see that at the edge of it's top
Is a sliver of light.
But I care not to seek it.
Let it remain for as long
as it's energy can be fulfilled.
I have other rustling debris
to sort out within my hands now.
The turned
charred
half eaten
wasted
and rotted memories
that despite their newness,
decayed the moment they arrived.
I have to gather them,
and sort them accordingly for
my now broken source of light.
That thing.
Who all together was glowing radiant
with the wonder of the green fields and blossomed trees,
now cowers in the corner.
Her back to me.
Silent.
She curled her hands around her knees
and pressed her forehead down to stop the screams.
So, I am left,
to put together the lamp she broke,
and gather the books she threw,
thick,
heavy leather bound and worn,
to return them to the dusty shelves.
She tore them down.
She tore it all down
when her aged and tender parts
were cleaved.
I am fortunate enough to step to her side
and only smell her fear,
knowing it comes from her.
That wretched thing in the corner.
I can hear her sometimes, sobbing in spurts.
Sniffling and wiping the snot from her lips.
I'm the strong one here.
That's why I'm cleaning up her mess.
It was quite a mess,
but it was a necessary one.
I've scraped the shattered bits
into a pile and with my broom,
gathered them up to dump into
the blackened hole in the floor.
I know where she came from,
and I know what happened.
But she won't talk about it.
Only weep in between long silences.
So, I sigh and pull myself up
to tend to the mediocre,
the everyday,
pushing the pen,
wrapping the lunch,
feeding the mongrel dogs and
running the races for this and that.
I mark the calendar and keep the appointments.
All find that even around this place
I tend to keep it tidy, even for that one,
over there.
Who in her terrorized existence,
still wants for an ear.
But I cannot offer it,
as I am just too busy.
So back to the drudgery of my every day.
I still see that split above me.
And resign to the next task,
When suddenly
I feel the tug at my pantleg
and look down to the meet with horror
the vacant dead eyes of her.
She crawled to me in trickery and stealth,
and with that meeting of a state,
hers of an all-consuming hate and rage filled vacuum
and mine of paralyzed abject disgust,
I am sucked back to that room.
That night.
Where it happened.
"How long will I stay this time?" I ask.
She whispered, "until it's over."
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