All that glitters

when I'm tired or overwhelmed I space out.

When I space out I look through people without really seeing them, and don't really moderate where I'm looking.

when that happens, I lock onto the most visually stimulating thing in my field of vision; most of the time that's either a television screen, or someone's breasts, and usually don't even realize it for a minute or more, as I'm not really processing what I'm staring at. It's creepy and embarrassing.

One co-worker realized I had a tendency to look through her when she talked to me whenever I was tired... then realized my eyes were focused. I didn't even realize I was staring at her pores, nor was I particularly proficient at preventing this once we both recognized it.

I've got that lack of focus thing going on and it's much worse since the husband got sick. Reading a book is impossible. Having a one on one conversation is mind numbing. I forget what I'm saying mid-sentence. I'm awesome at things like glitter threads. :eek:

I can't say the visual stimulation is too much. I like the distraction of just sitting and looking - whether it's glitter or art or porn. It fills up my crazy chaotic brain.

I got the official diagnoses of ADD 2 years ago and adderral does help cut through the clutter in my head.

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