Ashamed of your work?

[jeninflorida]

I am ashamed, embarassed and yet totally in love with my erotica. Part of the reason I write it is because I'm ashamed of it.

I have an insane crush on a man much older than me. We aren't just work associates but we are friends - an important aspect of our relationship. I take his image and secure it in nearly all my writing... This infatuation with him is unusual (for me) and I have no idea his reaction if he found out...

I do not harbor idols regularly and I am a very self-dependent woman so any act of admiration from me is an exposure that I can never completely accept. At least not without some level of embarassment or ashamed emotion - but that doesn't mean it's bad or stops me from said exposure all together...

So, yeah, I am ashamed of nearly all my erotica.

However, my erotica is still loved it for what it is - it's my expression, my release, my completion, my truth, my infatuation, and my ashamed fantasies all unabridged.

If it's the whole caboodle I can't expect any less, after all...

And did you post any of your erotica here? I've never allowed myself to feel guilty about something, regardless of my parents, church, or society. we only have one dance in life, and i'm going to have some fun. i respect the people around me, and never try to hurt anyone....

we all have erotic thoughts....so why be ashamed of it? Dont you enjoy thinking about him? Is he married?

I would love to read your erotica! please send me an email

Jeninflorida2006@yahoo.com

 

[M-Y-Erotica]

Not ashamed

I suspect even some people who aren't particularly religious would think anybody who writes or writes erotica is some sort of freak or weird -- especially when it's erotica. I guess it takes a certain type of mind or way of thinking to accept this type of writing.
J.Q.

I'm not ashamed of anything I have written. I could be embarassed at times but not ashamed. It's kind of like accidentally being seen having sex with your spouse because someone walks in when they weren't expected. It can be embarassing, but you should not be ashamed of having sex with your spouse.

However, I still don't want anyone to know about my writings for practical reasons. Since there are people who just cannot handle the idea of writing about sex, I believe that if it was known certain choices in my life would disappear. I would no longer be able to do things I might like to do one day. Maybe this is just a fear and isn't true, but it is what I currently believe. Every single one of my stories is about two people falling in love through great sex. That shouldn't be anything too strange. It's what the mainstream dream of sex and love usually is. But that doesn't stop it being somewhat taboo to write about it publicly. Would I not be allowed to adopt because I wrote sex stories? Would I not be able to be president of a club because I wrote sex stories? Oh, the club members might respect me but they'd also have to think, "can M-Y be the public face of our organization?" Etc.

And so that's why I appreciate Literotica. It allows me to write, to talk to other people about their stories, and still, so far at least, not have to worry about the possible drawbacks from people who cannot handle it. The only time I don't like it is that I'm actually somewhat proud of a couple of the stories I have produced. I'd like to share that with people in real life as well as in online life. But for now it's just people here and my best friend who can read them. It's weird that one of my fantasies has been read by over one hundred thousand people, but not by almost anyone I know in real life. Maybe one day that will change.

 

[BellaStone]

...bumping uglies? Yeah...

And did you post any of your erotica here? I've never allowed myself to feel guilty about something, regardless of my parents, church, or society. we only have one dance in life, and i'm going to have some fun. i respect the people around me, and never try to hurt anyone....

we all have erotic thoughts....so why be ashamed of it? Dont you enjoy thinking about him? Is he married?

I would love to read your erotica! please send me an email

Jeninflorida2006@yahoo.com

Yes, I've posted a story at Literotica (Professor In Love: A Story) and a Part II is pending approval right now. You will know this character right off the bat as him. Heh.

He's not a married man as far as I know, and he harbors some animosity towards the ritual itself. He's old enough to be my father though and that's part of the real kicker - but he's also my professor and I am his advisee... though I don't really come when called like a normal gopher would.

Anyway, ultimately erotic thoughts can be even more fun if they are shameful. To me I groove on that ashamed, sometimes overwhelming feeling of - I just wrote that? How awful... how crude...

But I still wrote it, even though to me it might still be tactless, scary admitance to a devilish thing...

We all are cultural creatures so, while I might be an anthropologist who can see the bigger picture and remove myself from that before it becomes too much. And while I might not give a damn what anybody else says I allow myself to still be part of a culture. This means I fall to the whims of being human and the chains of feeling bad I wrote something so... lewd.

I am not perfect and I can't even begin to assume the position of total unallignment to the injust feelings of taboos. I enjoy it - even if my profession denies me that on a regular basis regarding other things. In fact, the very reason I exploit them [these feelings] is because I am not chained down by them - so why not endure it all? It gives me something to giggle over later and an experience to draw from - if not to just get my jollies.

It's a twisted way of looking at things. But I guess, in the end, if it makes me happy and doesn't hurt anyone it is neither here nor there.

I'm ashamed of the things I've wrote - they are, after all, naughty and lewd.

And as I blush and grin in this concoction of emotion, it is the best spell Erotica can cast for me: The shadow of cultural group thought and the overwhelming, overpowering zeal of the human mind to enjoy it all - the good, the bad and even the bumping uglies.

 

[AchtungNight]

Well said, everyone here. I am proud to be a member of this club, even if in most cases I don't care to belong to clubs that have people like me as members. I hope to read and enjoy all your work soon.

Bedtime Storyteller: I see I'm not the only erotica writer out there who's had problems with religion in the past. I offer you this advice told to me by a Franciscan: "If there is room in the stable for stinky sheep, stupid donkeys, boorish oxen, ugly ill-tempered camels, lonely crazy shepherds, young unwed mothers, cuckolded husbands, and strange wise men from afar, there is surely room in there for you."

 

[Bedtime Storyteller]

Well said, everyone here. I am proud to be a member of this club, even if in most cases I don't care to belong to clubs that have people like me as members. I hope to read and enjoy all your work soon.

Bedtime Storyteller: I see I'm not the only erotica writer out there who's had problems with religion in the past. I offer you this advice told to me by a Franciscan: "If there is room in the stable for stinky sheep, stupid donkeys, boorish oxen, ugly ill-tempered camels, lonely crazy shepherds, young unwed mothers, cuckolded husbands, and strange wise men from afar, there is surely room in there for you."

Thanks, AN. I appreciate the kind words. Unfortunately, I am sure there are many who are in the same boat as us. I'm always up for discussion about it if you like!

And that's a very nice quote, and one I will certainly keep in mind. I figure God made us capable of feeling pleasure for a reason. And if there are those who choose to limit the methods they discover pleasure, well, phooey on them.

 

[Darla_Darling]

Obviously, if anyone here were that terribly ashamed of their work, they would not be posting it on a website to be read by thousands of others.

On the other hand, to a certain degree I feel compelled to write my dirty little smut stories and share them with others in the same way that I imagine an exhibitionist feels compelled to expose him/herself to strangers. I wish sometimes that I was not turned on by the things that I am, because I think that perhaps I am unhealthy.

Furthermore, I know that my stories are mediocre and poorly written, and yet I know that some people out there will like them, so perhaps I am addicted to the praise. I am addicted to the feeling of power I get when someone sends me an email to say that they wacked off reading something that I had written. I suppose that turns me on a little bit. Sometimes, I even find it exciting when someone attacks my writing because they hated it so much that it provoked a massively negative response in them.

I try to keep my identity completely secret from anyone who might know me in real life. Perhaps another reason I do this is that it is the only part of myself that is truly secret, truly hidden.

 

[_JP_]

Yes, every one before the last one…until the next one.

Kidding!

I look at my work as a mouse would view a maze. There are a bunch of paths but only one is correct. You can’t help but hit a few dead ends…course, a little cheese at the end helps. ;-)

 

[J-Nite]

"Nothing To Lose"

Any stories your ashamed of?

I've written quite a few, some I could just shrug off if somewhere I knew closely read them, others I look back on and cringe. In the absence of a way to withdraw them, are there any stories your ashamed of in the harsh light of day? that you regret writing maybe?

Yeah, my story "Nothing To Lose" needed a lot of work. When I wrote it I was trying too hard to get all of the details right that it became too much. In the end, it became such a huge build up with not a big ending. I am now working to finish this series the way it was meant to be written: well.

 

[mrbaddaddy]

Ashamed of my work?

Oh, hell yes.

 

[rydia57]

I'm not ashamed of my work, just embarrassed of the acts in some of them... that anyone in my family or that knew would know that I think that way sometimes. Well gad, some of them are people that think just saying the word "flexible" always has something to do with a sexual act. Go figure...

 

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[Guest]

Ashamed? Yes but not for obvious reasons.

Some of my older stuff is embarrassing to me. Only because I read back and think of better ways to phrase some things or more descriptive terms.

I have actually had to stop myself from incessant rewrites because of this.

Not ashamed of content. I sent my mother my first story. She prayed for me and said she wished I wrote children's books.

 

[shyblacktoy]

Almost a year ago, someone I knew through church and our kids' school accidentally discovered that I write erotica. She felt it necessary to print it out and take it to our church and share it with everyone she could find, including the Pastor. Because I refused to meet with him about what I consider nothing more than a hobby, I was promptly excommunicated by certified letter. (And no, I'm not Catholic - this was Missouri-Synod Lutheran.) The irony is that the person who exposed me is unmarried with two children out of wedlock living with her boyfriend, and this is no secret.

That's outrageous! What kind of mean-spirited person does something so petty? I'm sorry you got excommunicated It's good to know it hasn't put you off writing forever though.