Bunny's Stuffie Corner

So I got a job offer from the first place I interviewed with, which shocked me. But I turned it down, even though I desperately want something else, because it seemed to me with that, I would be jumping out of the frying pan and into the fire. (It was a psych ward for inmates, like prison inmates. I kept an open mind throughout the interview process, but I could tell by the things the interviewer said that it wasn't for me.)

And so the search continues. Current job still sucks. I'm having to force myself to go in today. I never feel my own mortality more than when I'm sitting in that call center by myself, watching the minutes slowly creep by. I feel like I'm wasting my time and my life.
 
It's Tuesday night, and I'm already dreading going back to work on Thursday afternoon. If someone else doesn't hire me soon, I'm gonna take my chances going back to doing phone sex and trying to sell my crafts.

Yeah, some of the people at the work have talked me into trying to sell again. Just gotta get enough stuff made that I'll have an actual inventory.

I'm so worried about my Daddy. I know he's useless as a Daddy to me, but I still care about him. He's struggling with chronic pain, and he's self-medicating with liquor, even though alcohol makes gout (which is one of his many problems) worse. He says the neuropathy in his legs is unbearable unless he's drinking, and it's the only way he can get any sleep.

Yes, I'm fully aware he's an alcoholic. He has been for a long time. But now, he's hit that point where he does very little but drink. He doesn't even want to see me. We text a little here and there, but that's it. He just wants to stew in his own misery and drink. And I know you can't make somebody care about themselves as much as you care about them, but I damn sure wish you could.

I miss him. I know he's full of flaws, and he's not been much of a Daddy for years at this point. But I guess I'm a sucker for a good train wreck or something. I don't know.
 
It's Tuesday night, and I'm already dreading going back to work on Thursday afternoon. If someone else doesn't hire me soon, I'm gonna take my chances going back to doing phone sex and trying to sell my crafts.

Yeah, some of the people at the work have talked me into trying to sell again. Just gotta get enough stuff made that I'll have an actual inventory.

I'm so worried about my Daddy. I know he's useless as a Daddy to me, but I still care about him. He's struggling with chronic pain, and he's self-medicating with liquor, even though alcohol makes gout (which is one of his many problems) worse. He says the neuropathy in his legs is unbearable unless he's drinking, and it's the only way he can get any sleep.

Yes, I'm fully aware he's an alcoholic. He has been for a long time. But now, he's hit that point where he does very little but drink. He doesn't even want to see me. We text a little here and there, but that's it. He just wants to stew in his own misery and drink. And I know you can't make somebody care about themselves as much as you care about them, but I damn sure wish you could.

I miss him. I know he's full of flaws, and he's not been much of a Daddy for years at this point. But I guess I'm a sucker for a good train wreck or something. I don't know.
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Well, it's time for the quarterly clean up of Bunny's apartment because I can't keep anything clean for any length of time. My mother is coming to help with it tomorrow, so I gotta get some done today, too, on top of writing blogs for my blog customers. I don't wanna do this.

I hate cleaning with a passion. My mother insists that the mess makes me depressed. And maybe it does, but I think it bothers her way more than it bothers me. But here we go again, overhauling the whole place once more.

Nothing new on either the work front or the Daddy front. Probably not going to have much time to apply for jobs this week, due to the cleaning. Sigh.
 
This may be a terrible idea, but I'm considering it, anyway.

I have a good friend I used to work with who went to a different PSO company about the time I started this godforsaken call center shit. She is doing $1000 weeks now. I, on the other hand, have to work overtime to make $400/week.

Yes, this job has insurance. For $1000/week, though, I could buy my own.

I'd honestly settle for $500/week. According to the manager at this place, you have to be extremely lazy not to make that much a week.

They're strict about schedules, though, so I'll have to be sure I can keep my mother away when I'm trying to work. Like, she can't be dragging me away for stupid bullshit just because I'm working at home again.

I know it's probably insane to even think about it. But at this point, it is the devil I know....

Oh, and I'd be able to craft for the shop I hope to rebuild soon between calls, too, which I can't do at call center hell.
 
I just put in an application where my friend works, left a voice sample, and scheduled an interview for Tuesday at 3 pm. We'll see what happens.
 
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