Cookie

[cookiecat]

well that was rude of me.

what I should have said was... what about meringue boobies?

I kind of like the thought of chocolate kisses for nipples. But these are pretty.

Not a cookie, but they look yummy!

I just like the link said "vagina thumbprint cookies"

I shall choose to believe you meant to say "Deliciously lifelike"

Magically delicious!

 

[MyNameIsNO]

I should not be image searching "vagina thumbprint cookies" while at Big O Tires

 

[Azuldrgon]

Cookie,

 

[_Necrosomantic_]

I should not be image searching "vagina thumbprint cookies" while at Big O Tires

Big O?

... Seems legit to me
( I'll be here all week )

 

[Farawyn]

FYI - If you put "penis cum cake" into google you will see a lot of guys cumming on cakes.
*sigh*
Poor cakes

Cakes loves it.


I'm away. Getting a pedi in FL.

Love you cookie, and Mr. C, and the rest of you all, too.
*mushy*

 

[_Necrosomantic_]

This thread is too low again. We can't have that

Thinking about you Cookie, hope you and Mr. Cookie are doing alright.

Getting cold out, hot chocolate?

 

[Farawyn]

cookie is hanging in.
Mr. cookie is less confused.
She is in contact with NO and I daily.

 

[cookiecat]

Update today --

He's still in the hospital. He'll never come home. He'll be going to a nursing home next. The delusions aren't so strong but Mr. cookie is still confused. He thinks he's in a bathtub, not a bed. But mostly, he's lucid. Here with me. Realizing he's headed to a nursing home. Just shred my heart some more.

We haven't been apart in the last 3 years, except for a short stint in the hospital 2 years ago. Knowing I'm making the choice to send him to a nursing home pains me. I've visited four of them. I've never given much thought to where we shuttle our elderly. Which is where I'll be shuttling my husband.

I feel guilty. I feel relief. I feel guilty I'm relieved. The emotional see saw is just too much. In the past six weeks, I've heard he's going to die within days three times. This is unbearable. I can't even imagine how Mr. c must feel.

ALS is a fucking monster.

I want to thank you guys for the support. I go back and fort with throwing out all of the details -- I know I don't hold the prize for grief or emotional shit or caring for a sick loved one. I wish I could handle this with the quiet grace some of you have shown when you've shared your story with me.

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[cascadiabound]

Cookie...(((((hugs)))))
this is a hard path. An utterly unfair set of circumstances.
You are doing the very best you can with grace and love.
No one in the world could do better.
Sending you courage, prayers, love, peace, respite time as you need it.
Mr C knows you love him and always will.
Fuck ALS.

cb

 

[_Necrosomantic_]

That's the thing about pain, it's exclusive to no one, but your own is unique to you. Because it's yours. So you go right ahead and do what you need to, handle it how you're gonna handle it, and don't ever let anyone tell you how to feel about it. However raw you are about whatever decisions you've had to make as of late, don't you go beating yourself up over it. I know you will anyway, but anyone that interacts with you even on a casual level, knows that you are a good person and a loving wife that is trying her best to deal with the worst of situations. And one who still manages to make everyone around you smile in spite of your own struggles, that's a rare thing Cookie, and I only personally know of two people that can do it. You are one of them. So believe me when I say, that you are deserving of every bit of support and kind word spoken in here, regardless of how well/bad you view yourself and how you are dealing. You're fucking awesome, and we all know it.

Oh, and as far as grace goes... Yeah, you might have a bad day and yell or take it out on someone, but you can come back around and apologize for all of that stuff later. They will get over it, and I'll tell you right now, you are doing better than I ever did. So, if nothing else, you can always say," Hey, even if I'm not doing as well as I'd like, at least I'm not being a Necro."

Sparkly words of wisdom for you.

( I don't know what the fuck this means, but potatoes are deep. So I'm sure it's terribly profound and helpful.)

 

[Mrtenant]

Cookie,

I know it doesn't it feel like it and maybe it doesn't matter even if it does to hear about it from anyone, much less me, someone who is a virtual stranger, ....

I find your courage and endurance, inspiring as well as heartbreaking, as demonstrations of your love and connection with Mr.C.

And you take the time to share any of this here, or anywhere.

I hope it helps, that you find as much support as any of us can give. Sounds like you could certainly use it.

I pray and wish the very best for you and your family. I fear its all I can do, for what its worth. And maybe some glitter. Idk.

Hug and love for you all.

Mrtenant

 

[Farawyn]

Baby sloth in Jammies for you and MR. C, cookie, and all the support in the world.

 

[pete]

always here for you, dear cookie

 

[Collar_N_Cuffs]

Hugs, cookie

 

[LucyBee01]

I read your updates cookie and they are raw, tear jerking often. You also bring us fun and smiles. I wish there was more I could give you, but here is a big cosy hug

 

[gracie920101]

Doesn't matter what we think. Do what's best for you. Always.

I totally get the guilt thing but you have to remember you are doing what's best for Mr. Cookie and there is no way he would ever want you to keel over trying to take care of him by yourself. It's not a sign of weakness to receive help and no one would dare think that you couldn't handle it. OMG, girl, I've only seen your posts for about 3 months and your strength and resilience in dealing with this fucking condition is amazing !

We're cheering for you here in SoFlo!

J & g

 

[Collar_N_Cuffs]

 

[Shankara20]

 

[Azuldrgon]

cookie *hugs*

 

[cascadiabound]

Cookie

 

[Tallcajun]

Stopping by to send nice vibes to Mr C and Cookie.

 

[Collar_N_Cuffs]

^^^^ The best

 

[_Necrosomantic_]

Bit early, but fuck it.

They already lit 'em up, so it's okay

Hope you and Mr. C had a great holiday, Cookie. I went ahead and told Santa to squeeze his fat ass down your chimney early this year. Because, if anyone here deserves priority, it's youse guys... And shit

( In hindsight, I'm fairly certain that was just a terrified Salvation Army bell ringer with a beard, but I'm sure he'll pass the message along )