I look around the desolate room, annoyed that RL and timezones have conspired to make me miss all the fun again. My arms ache terribly now. I had hoped they would simply be numbed but not so, every move I make to ease the pain in my stretched feet causes fresh agony in my shoulders and upper arms... and vice-versa.
Of course you haven't offended me Sir. I murmur, looking back over the posts I've missed. RL can become demanding quite quickly for me however. I meant to send you a pm but I've discovered it this morning, languishing in notepad, unfinished. I'll have to remedy that.
I fidget again, mouth parched and bladder aching. Every few minutes I tell myself I can bear another few minutes more but I am beginning to lose faith in this mantra.
Slipping in quietly, cloak swirling about my bare feet. I see him...eyes closed and do not wish to disturb but I can't stop from staring at his playmate. She looks lovely, restrained and fighting to keep control. I shiver as I site near her, just watching.
Trouble is the spice of bondage, in my opinion. I fully expect a sub of mine to misbehave, and thus will have to punish her. Not because she is incapable of behaving, mind you, but because my subs are generally strong-willed, and enjoy testing their Master as much as I enjoy testing them. But there are, admittedly, certain rules which are never to be crossed.
I'm sure you know what types of rules those could be.
Yes...I do know them. Some I begged to have so breaking them would be bad.
But I don't like to test...I would rather just go to him and tell him what I need. It is better for me, that way I get my 'punishment' without the need to anger him.
I gave some thought to what you said about pushing limits, and I can only agree to a certain point. A sub isn't always the one to have their limits pushed. When a D finds it worthwhile to reward their sub with a particular kink, he or she can sometimes find their own limits being pushed. It is rare to find 2 sets of limits that match up perfectly. At least "soft limits". This should be approached with the same care as the opposite type, and requires just as much trust.
Another personal example is that for the longest time, I could not bring myself to strike a sub, even when they desired it, other than my hand to their ass. It took someone a while to convince me to even try it on them. It was a learning experience, and now I can enjoy it.
As a note, I'm not a wife-beater or anything because of it...
I can understand that. I've asked for punishments that my Master was reluctant to give. He realized that it was something I needed to get past what I had done wrong. I get your point now...thank you, Leopald, nor would I call you a wife beater as I enjoy the same type of play.
Dom/mes have just as much to learn from subs as subs do from them. Most seem to forget this fact alltogether. They choose a "My way or nothing" mentality, which can only bring a person so far. The D should always have the final say and shouldn't be led from the bottom, so to speak. But if they refuse to open their minds and hearts to their sub, the relationship quickly becomes a stale game of Simon Says with no real benefits.
Its one of the many things that playacting Ds fail to grasp. Same with silly whores who think they're submissive because they like being fucked hard. As soon as they don't get their way, they're out.
It's truly a blessing to find one who has the courage to let go and learn with me. I see a lot of playing from both sides and wonder if they realize just how much they are missing. To truly be a sub...to let yourself go...it's such an amazing experience.
Shifting a bit, I smile up at him
Sounds like you've had a few subs that just wanted to play act? I'm sorry if that's ... too personal
A few, yes. I've also seen my fair share of them come and go through social circles and the like. Some are easier to spot than others, but the end result is always the same.
To each his or her own. BDSM is not for everyone, but one should not dabble. It truly is an all or nothing experience.