Got my first shot of T on Friday :)

[Stella_Omega]

This fortnight's shot-- 200 ml. That's twice what I have been taking. It's the full dose.

I've been having some breakthrough bleeding, steady spotting. It can happenwhen your T levels are not quite high enough... i was worried that the doctor would think I was making shit up as an excuse to up my dose (when really I would only have to say "hey, I want to up my dose" but this was his suggestion. We bring my levels high, then back them down... if I want to back them down...

What do you think? I'm thinking the odds are pretty even if I do or don't!

 

[Stella_Omega]

My second full-dose shot, and wow that changes happen fast!

My face has begun to look more masculine, and I have a peachfuzz moustache
I spent so much time hunting for button-down shirts that fit my slender neck-- suddenly I can't button the collar button on any of them :/
My clit has probably tripled in size -- it had shrunk actually, in five years post menopause-- and nags me like a nagging nagger

 

[naughtyinsilk]

My second full-dose shot, and wow that changes happen fast!

My face has begun to look more masculine, and I have a peachfuzz moustache
I spent so much time hunting for button-down shirts that fit my slender neck-- suddenly I can't button the collar button on any of them :/
My clit has probably tripled in size -- it had shrunk actually, in five years post menopause-- and nags me like a nagging nagger

Sounds like your really happy, so pleased for you, as for clothes, ebay them and buy more, you will soon get to a point where you will no longer need to get a larger size .
Good luck for the future

 

[Z924M]

hip - hip - hooooraaaaayyyyyy!

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you go stella!!! you know how X and i feel for you!!! i am soooo pleased you are starting to see results. and the clit... how marvelous =)

t is the answer...

congrats!!!


z

 

[Stella_Omega]

Thank you guys

 

[Stella_Omega]

Oookayyyy... So, I get my third shot at 200ml in a few days. After four weeks total at this dosage, my face has changed so much I sometimes don't recognise myself. I'm seeing heavier peachfuzz on my upper lip and tiny hairs on my chin that I swear were not there a week ago. And my voice might be dropping further.

My trans lady friend, who admittedly has a semi-political interest in me transitioning, claims that I smell like a man, and stand and gesture like a man. I'm not sure about the gestures, I can't imagine that's hormone driven. She's told me I can't wear my favorite ratty Tshirts that used to be butch and charming because now I look like a ratty-dressed and possibly dangerous male.

And she kept telling me last night how cutely subby I have gotten-- I kept having to tell her to let go of my belt loop or my tie. It's like she's reading my normal demeanor as a femmie man or something. Sheesh.I fically told her that I expect a LOT of sex in return for my submission, so unless she's willing to put out twice a day at minimum... she should let go of my person.

But when I went towards the restaurant restrooms, the waiter stopped me at the door of the ladies-- pointed me at the gents. I haven't even though about being made for male by strangers!

 

[Z924M]

stella

nice =)

 

[LucyH]

Sounds like a fun adventure, Stella. Do you wish you'd done it sooner, or is now the best possible time you could have picked?

 

[Stella_Omega]

Sounds like a fun adventure, Stella. Do you wish you'd done it sooner, or is now the best possible time you could have picked?

I would have done it forty years ago, but I didn't know it was possible. If I'm going to grow a dick, I'd like to have the chance to be the cock of the walk for a decade or so.

I only found out that there was a satisfactory medical solution in the nineties, and I was well-enmeshed in the family I'd created-- And I couldn't turn my back on my kids at that point. It's a dilemma that had no right choices.

 

[Stella_Omega]

a day later, wow that sounds angry... yeah, I am a bit angry. I cannot imagine anyone being happy about having been forced to put off their identity through their most productive years. Life is complicated!

I know that I might be detransitioning about now, if I had been able to transition then.

 

[Stella_Omega]

one year since I've posted to this thread, wow!

Let's see; I have a lot of hair on my legs and arms, my armpit hair is thicker, I have a soft downy moustache and at least 30 chin hairs! LOL I'm growing a treasure trail, and I have hair around my asshole... that's new.

My thighs disappeared-- so did my butt. A friend of mine presented me with a pair of suspenders out of his own closet-- said "flat-ass guys like us need these."

I can't sing anymore. I sound like this; http://youtu.be/Dgz88voETRM
My larynx feels strangled.

My clit is huge compared to what it used to be! I could make it bigger with DHT but that shit's pricy and I haven't bothered yet.

The biggest difference is in my brain. I've said it before, but I just feel much more balanced. I'm living is what the Chinese call 'Interesting Times' and they are much more navigable now than they ever had been before.

I'm less talky than I used to be. More inclined to click away than to engage in futile arguments. I'm not sure if I am happy about that part, really.

If anyone has questions, I will be glad to answer them-- no subject is taboo, you all know me...

 

[haurni]

I've said it before, but I just feel much more balanced.

Congrats, Stella! I think this one line says it all.

 

[Stella_Omega]

A couple of things; More than once I've reached down to yanno, make sure my junk is still there like guys doo.. and discovered that I'm sporting a wee little hardon that I hadn't noticed.
hehe

And this morning my father turned to me and said "You need to start wearing a watch."

"Men wear watches," he told me, "and they know where they are going."

Then we left the house, completely forgetting to bring along the map I had printed out... And got to our destination a half-hour early anyway.

 

[BuckyDuckman]

Stella, as I hope you know, I have a shitload of respect for you. I just wanted to weigh in and say "thank you" for adding to this thread of yours. I'm finding it fascinating to peek into the concept of masculinity as you continue to discover yours. You're a dude I'd love to have a beer with sometime.

 

[Stella_Omega]

Stella, as I hope you know, I have a shitload of respect for you. I just wanted to weigh in and say "thank you" for adding to this thread of yours. I'm finding it fascinating to peek into the concept of masculinity as you continue to discover yours. You're a dude I'd love to have a beer with sometime.

That would be some hella beer!
naw you know what I have even less concept of masculinity now than I did in the days when I could only dream of making it a reality.

Men wear watches. Who knew?

 

[stickygirl]

Watches are sexy, Stella. Christmas is coming

 

[mikey2much]

Stella how I admire your adventure

What a strange trip you are on. To be able to compare feeling from both a male and a female perspective, that just blows my mind. I guess after all this time most of the changes have already happened, or are you expecting more?

I have been a fan of yours for years and always check your threads. I will echo what bucky said above me. I too have a shitload of respect for you.

good luck.

 

[Stella_Omega]

Thank you, Mike

I expect changes to continue for several more years. Body hair just keeps on coming in, for instance. And then I get to enjoy male-pattern baldness developing LOL

 

[Stella_Omega]

So here's a funny thing; as my junk has grown it's developed definite 'zones' areas that feel differently than other areas. Unfortunately, the best-feeling section is on the underside, and seems as if it's mostly held down by the hood. So now I really want the operation called meta/release --so i can get at that itch to scratch it LOL

 

[haurni]

All men scratch down there.