I desire your input, please...
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Sir_Winston54
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Re: "I desire your input, please..."
*Letting out a BIG sigh of relief*
*Wishing I had been online late last evening to respond to this when it came up on the board*
Immediately upon reading your initial post, and then again upon reading the post that included these statements
" 3. I do NOT crave the sadistic. Serving a sadist is what drove me from this lifestyle 10 years ago. But something in the BD or DS - calls to me and I must respond.
4. I am not physically attracted to him. He does not incite me to roll around in my bed touching myself because he is not here.
I have not made my decision. Something else that sat uneasily with me was him saying things like...."
My first - and final - reaction was to tell you in large red letters:
RUN, ESCLAVA, RUNNNNNNNN!
While that may seem at first glance to be a bit smart-ass {something I've been known to be on occasion, but it's okay - I'm a Dom
}, it is truly what I thought (and think) you should do... run as far and as fast as you can, directly away from him.
I am very, very relieved that you made this decision with the help and feedback of all those who chimed in.
*Letting out a BIG sigh of relief*
*Wishing I had been online late last evening to respond to this when it came up on the board*
Immediately upon reading your initial post, and then again upon reading the post that included these statements
" 3. I do NOT crave the sadistic. Serving a sadist is what drove me from this lifestyle 10 years ago. But something in the BD or DS - calls to me and I must respond.
4. I am not physically attracted to him. He does not incite me to roll around in my bed touching myself because he is not here.
I have not made my decision. Something else that sat uneasily with me was him saying things like...."
My first - and final - reaction was to tell you in large red letters:
RUN, ESCLAVA, RUNNNNNNNN!
While that may seem at first glance to be a bit smart-ass {something I've been known to be on occasion, but it's okay - I'm a Dom
}, it is truly what I thought (and think) you should do... run as far and as fast as you can, directly away from him.I am very, very relieved that you made this decision with the help and feedback of all those who chimed in.
kitty4ever
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I'm glad to hear of your decision, Esclava.
Esclava
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Re: Sometimes
I hope not to allow such a thing to happen, shy!
I phoned the prospective PYL at the appointed time and when he said, "You just tell me when you are unable to spend time with me. I don't want to interrupt your life." That pretty much told me that he was confident that I would be serving him.
There's nothing wrong with confidence, but one should KNOW - without a shadow of a doubt - what one has confidence in. He asked me if I had other questions. I used that as an opening to tell him that while I had no questions, I believe those things that fulfill his needs would not fulfill my needs. Those sensory acts that give him pleasure - would cause me to want to fight. I did not consider it a good match if what gives him pleasure is what drove me from this lifestyle before. It would not be fair to ask either of us to embark on such a path.
He was clearly disappointed. He said that it appears my decision was well thought out and he would like to take some time to mull it over, then call me with his response.
That's fine - I just don't know what response there is to give. I feel much better and I will continue to attend that munch - even if I see him there.
I will be fine. And as shy said, I know where to find you - ALL OF YOU - when I need you!
Esclava
P.S.: Betticus - While I don't believe I was testing you, I am honored at the depth of concern shown for me. 
shy slave said:it helps to write down your initial feelings and use people as a sounding board. There will be a PYL out there who does not assume so much and His needs dovetail to yours. Don't let this put you of for another ten years
I hope not to allow such a thing to happen, shy!
I phoned the prospective PYL at the appointed time and when he said, "You just tell me when you are unable to spend time with me. I don't want to interrupt your life." That pretty much told me that he was confident that I would be serving him.
There's nothing wrong with confidence, but one should KNOW - without a shadow of a doubt - what one has confidence in. He asked me if I had other questions. I used that as an opening to tell him that while I had no questions, I believe those things that fulfill his needs would not fulfill my needs. Those sensory acts that give him pleasure - would cause me to want to fight. I did not consider it a good match if what gives him pleasure is what drove me from this lifestyle before. It would not be fair to ask either of us to embark on such a path.
He was clearly disappointed. He said that it appears my decision was well thought out and he would like to take some time to mull it over, then call me with his response.
That's fine - I just don't know what response there is to give. I feel much better and I will continue to attend that munch - even if I see him there.
I will be fine. And as shy said, I know where to find you - ALL OF YOU - when I need you!
Esclava
P.S.: Betticus - While I don't believe I was testing you
, I am honored at the depth of concern shown for me. 
FungiUg
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Esclava, I think you made the right choice in backing away from this one. Just from your description, some downright warning flags were going off... and from later reading I see I wasn't the only one.
Remember, the best thing you can use to protect yourself... is your brain.
*hugs*
Remember, the best thing you can use to protect yourself... is your brain.
*hugs*
