I'm having a lesbian affair...with a married woman

[Dill_the_Dog]

Good morning my friends

Or afternoon or evening

I had a wonderful cleansing energizing day yesterday. The solitude and reflection were much needed as my emotions and desires have roiled inside me like a typhoon

I feel calm and centered after an early morning run on the quiet streets and a yoga session at home

My mind is calm and my body is alive and happy. I chose not to masturbate yesterday and it has energized me but my level of physical desire is very high

I'm glad for you. I love running in the early hours. A steady pace and a cool breeze just clears the mind

 

[LaotianLass]

I am intensely aware of my breasts right now, perhaps because they move a bit when I run, even under a sports bra.

of course I'm thinking about her, i miss her emotionally and yearn for her touch and her skin and her body on mine. The emotion is manageable, but the physical desire and the arousal of my breasts could throw my emotions out of balance again.

I texted her, just keeping it light and friendly, I don't want to surprise her or trigger her husband's suspicions. Havent heard back yet

 

[LaotianLass]

I'm glad for you. I love running in the early hours. A steady pace and a cool breeze just clears the mind

Oh yesss so true

 

[peekingone]

Good morning my friends

Or afternoon or evening

I had a wonderful cleansing energizing day yesterday. The solitude and reflection were much needed as my emotions and desires have roiled inside me like a typhoon

I feel calm and centered after an early morning run on the quiet streets and a yoga session at home

My mind is calm and my body is alive and happy. I chose not to masturbate yesterday and it has energized me but my level of physical desire is very high

Always good to have days like these. Exercise for sure helps.

 

[LaotianLass]

A (male) friend texted a couple days ago to wish me happy Thanksgiving. I might call him friend with benefits? We dated and had very good sex a few times but didn't really click.

Mindful that my lover told me to "get some dick", right before she went out of town with her husband...

...I replied to Rico's text and we're having dinner tonight

I was a little surprised at myself for immediately saying yes when he asked

 

[LaotianLass]

Like I said, I miss my lover terribly it feels like forever since I've seen her. And she won't be back until TUESDAY which feels like the end of time

I know myself a d my mind and my body, and i know my desires can become toxic within me. And I've been masturbating a lot and it's just not quite satisfying me

 

[peekingone]

A (male) friend texted a couple days ago to wish me happy Thanksgiving. I might call him friend with benefits? We dated and had very good sex a few times but didn't really click.

Mindful that my lover told me to "get some dick", right before she went out of town with her husband...

...I replied to Rico's text and we're having dinner tonight

I was a little surprised at myself for immediately saying yes when he asked

The thoughts you will have if you end up having sex with him

 

[LaotianLass]

I should say there is no question in my mind that i will sleep with Rico tonight.

No. I will FUCK Rico tonight.

 

[Dill_the_Dog]

I should say there is no question in my mind that i will sleep with Rico tonight.

No. I will FUCK Rico tonight.

Rico is a lucky, lucky man!

 

[LaotianLass]

The thoughts you will have if you end up having sex with him

Well I don't think there will be heavy guilt. She TOLD me I should have sex with a man, and of course she's off bouncing on her husband's cock.

I think she would be very hurt and I would feel very guilty about sleeping with a other woman.

 

[Ocean33]

Well I don't think there will be heavy guilt. She TOLD me I should have sex with a man, and of course she's off bouncing on her husband's cock.

I think she would be very hurt and I would feel very guilty about sleeping with a other woman.

Did she text back?

 

[Dill_the_Dog]

Well I don't think there will be heavy guilt. She TOLD me I should have sex with a man, and of course she's off bouncing on her husband's cock.

I think she would be very hurt and I would feel very guilty about sleeping with a other woman.

I think you're absolutely right there on both points

 

[LaotianLass]

She and I talked about straight vs lesbian sex, because she's new to this.

I told her that sexually, I experience men and women very differently.

Women are beauty and grace and delight and exquisite, finely crafted perfection. They arouse all of my senses, especially taste and scent.

Men are strength and power and energy and even rage. There is roughness and pain with men. There is a thrill of fear. Masculine energy is primitive and wild and unpredictable.

 

[LaotianLass]

Did she text back?

Not yet.

 

[Ocean33]

Not yet.

She will

 

[LaotianLass]

She and I talked about straight vs lesbian sex, because she's new to this.

I told her that sexually, I experience men and women very differently.

Women are beauty and grace and delight and exquisite, finely crafted perfection. They arouse all of my senses, especially taste and scent.

Men are strength and power and energy and even rage. There is roughness and pain with men. There is a thrill of fear. Masculine energy is primitive and wild and unpredictable.

i saw my father hit my mother once, and she left him soon after that. I had an abusive hetero relationship once.

Maybe it's a sickness in me. I don't want that kind of relationship ever again. But...like a moth to flame, I feel the pull of that dangerous dark side of masculinity and I am very aroused when sex is rough and a little bit out of control.

 

[Dill_the_Dog]

i saw my father hit my mother once, and she left him soon after that. I had an abusive hetero relationship once.

Maybe it's a sickness in me. I don't want that kind of relationship ever again. But...like a moth to flame, I feel the pull of that dangerous dark side of masculinity and I am very aroused when sex is rough and a little bit out of control.

It's funny. My parents had a poor relationship. My dad could be volatile, (probably from PTSD through his experiences in HK in WW2), although I never saw him hit my mum he certainly wallopped us kids.
Because of that, I keep my temper very tightly chained and have a lot of difficulty being honest and open with my feelings.

 

[LaotianLass]

It's funny. My parents had a poor relationship. My dad could be volatile, (probably from PTSD through his experiences in HK in WW2), although I never saw him hit my mum he certainly wallopped us kids.
Because of that, I keep my temper very tightly chained and have a lot of difficulty being honest and open with my feelings.

Thank you for sharing that Dill

 

[LaotianLass]

She texted me back. She was happy to hear from me. I had meant to not contact her at all till she got back but I think checking in was healthy.

Told her I have a (male) date tonight and she seemed happy. I think she felt a little stressed and guilty about running off on a sexy holiday getaway and me being home alone for nearly a week.

 

[Dill_the_Dog]

She texted me back. She was happy to hear from me. I had meant to not contact her at all till she got back but I think checking in was healthy.

Told her I have a (male) date tonight and she seemed happy. I think she felt a little stressed and guilty about running off on a sexy holiday getaway and me being home alone for nearly a week.

I am so, SO happy for you!
I can feel your smile from here!

 

[NOBGE]

I should say there is no question in my mind that i will sleep with Rico tonight.

No. I will FUCK Rico tonight.

Lucky Rico

 

[LaotianLass]

It's funny. My parents had a poor relationship. My dad could be volatile, (probably from PTSD through his experiences in HK in WW2), although I never saw him hit my mum he certainly wallopped us kids.
Because of that, I keep my temper very tightly chained and have a lot of difficulty being honest and open with my feelings.

"Difficulty being open and honest with feelings" is so many men. Soooo many.

It's part of why Rico and i didn't click as a couple. He is extremely macho, or maybe I should call it toxic masculinity? Maybe that's too harsh. But he never really opened up to me and, without even realizing it, he saw women as something less than men.

He's a bad boy and a seducer and he can't see how much pain he's in.

 

[LaotianLass]

I am so, SO happy for you!
I can feel your smile from here!

 

[Dill_the_Dog]

"Difficulty being open and honest with feelings" is so many men. Soooo many.

It's part of why Rico and i didn't click as a couple. He is extremely macho, or maybe I should call it toxic masculinity? Maybe that's too harsh. But he never really opened up to me and, without even realizing it, he saw women as something less than men.

He's a bad boy and a seducer and he can't see how much pain he's in.

I'm the opposite. Frequently been told I'm far too "nice" to date!

 

[LaotianLass]

Well I have a few hours before meeting Rico.

I feel so much like masturbating now, my body is just sparkling with energy and passion

But I'll try not to. I always try to hold in all my sexual energy before a date because I want to be passionate and sexual for my partner. And a little naughty lol.