Luna's Haven~closed save for invitees.

[Luna_Wolf72]

I listen and try to accept the truth of the words but right now it just feels like a big lie. I accept the comfort he offers but I know that I won't be here for too much longer. My heart is aching and I feel broken.

"I will try and think on that tomorrow. For tonight? I am just going to regress and cry...cuz nothing else feels right..."

 

[Last_Rider]

I listen and try to accept the truth of the words but right now it just feels like a big lie. I accept the comfort he offers but I know that I won't be here for too much longer. My heart is aching and I feel broken.

"I will try and think on that tomorrow. For tonight? I am just going to regress and cry...cuz nothing else feels right..."

"Crying is important, people tend to forget that. Know that we all care about you, and you are in many sets of prayers tonight."

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Hugs a Blessing and Rider....wiping tears away with one hand...

Thank you.

I am gonna go away for a while...and try to pull myself together.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Journal entry 8-17-2012

It's raining outside. A hard rain. Like someone has decided to cry for me since I no longer have any fluid left to make tears with. The day has been hella bad. And, as it draws toward evening, my assumption is that it will only get worse.

Yesterday was bad but today was oh so much worse. Trying to work with only 45 minutes sleep. Tears falling when I am not even aware of them. Questions without answers and worry upon worry. Is she okay? Is she safe? Does she have money? Will she call if she needs me? How will I survive with one of kids gone so far from home?

Are he and I strong enough to make it past this? I resent him. I do and it is not even his fault, not really. I am angry and bitter and terrified that I will lash out at the wrong person, at the wrong time. I am so lonely. In my head. In my heart. I am lost and struggling and scared.

So very, very scared.

I don't know what to do.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Placing this with all of my other gifts...a picture from a poppet...given in secret...

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Home again.

The rain had chased away the mustiness of my abode and though my heart is not light, it does feel...less hurt. I wander, silently, from room to room. Finger tips stroke things~a table, a picture, a vase filled with wildflowers, a window sill.

It's not that I need to reacquaint myself, not really. It's just that I am reminding myself that life goes on and hurts, anger, tears do ease. True, there are scars but what's life without pain.

We are all flesh and blood, and life without pain...would contain no growth, no lessons.

So I am home and content with myself.

Not happy, far from it, but better.

Finally, I settle down into the softness of my couch and open my lap top. I have words due and finally, I have something that isn't raging or confused. Finally, I have an inkling for ideas and my Muse is clamoring for me to use her.

Gray and Sunrise enter then...and settle companionably by my feet...

I feel their heat and I know that they are near...but I am lost...in the stories.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Home.

I had spent some time cleaning.

Dusting, doing dishes, scrubbing floors, cleaning out the fireplaces, removing old flowers and cleaning the vases before filling those same cut crystal pieces with fresh lilies and sprigs of lavender.

Now, now? I sat sipping tea and contemplating my owed piece for a certain patient male. His Fae is scarily good at prodding those places neither Danica (nor I) want prodded.

That means he deserves the best that I have to give.

I just have to think on it.

 

[marauder13]

Home.

I had spent some time cleaning.

Dusting, doing dishes, scrubbing floors, cleaning out the fireplaces, removing old flowers and cleaning the vases before filling those same cut crystal pieces with fresh lilies and sprigs of lavender.

Now, now? I sat sipping tea and contemplating my owed piece for a certain patient male. His Fae is scarily good at prodding those places neither Danica (nor I) want prodded.

That means he deserves the best that I have to give.

I just have to think on it.

A soft zephyr creeps into the haven, dancing on silent feet to a tune barely heard. She sweeps about in random turns, leaving behind the subtle fragrance of clover in her wake.

Finally, she reaches the hostess of place of peace, caressing the Hostess' cheek with the delicate touch conferred to her by the one that called her into being. She fills the Hostess' nose with not only clover, but pine, fresh powdered snow and the background of clean, pure air. The zephyr smiles, the winds carrying that sensation to the Hostess' skin before softly dancing away, leaving her once more in peace and tranquility, and with the gift of knowing that a friend has thought of her.

 

[Nina327]

No idea why the hard lines showed up...

I shall play with it later again and see.

ETA: fixed it.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

No idea why the hard lines showed up...

I shall play with it later again and see.

ETA: fixed it.

YAY!!!!!!!!!

*runs off to play switcheroo*

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Music and singing...low alto blending with the flawless strains of Mariah Carey's husky soprano...

You look in my eyes
And I get emotional inside
I know it's crazy
But you still can touch my heart
And after all this time
You'd think that I
I wouldn't feel the same
But time hasn't done nothing
And nothing's changed

[Chorus:]
I still believe
Someday you and me
We'll find ourselves in love again
I had a dream
Someday you and me
We'll find ourselves in love again

Each day of my life
I'm filled with all the joy I could find
You know that I
I'm not the desperate type
If there's one spark of hope
Left in my grasp
I'll hold it with both hands
It's worth the risk of burning
To have a second chance
No, no, no, no, no, no I need you baby
I still believe that we can be together
No, no, no
If we believe that true love never has to end
Then we must know that we will love again.
[Chorus]

[chorus]
i still believe (ooh baby i do)
someday you and me (just give me one more try)
We'll find ourselves in love again
I had a dream (i miss your love)
someday you and me..
We'll find ourselves in love again.​

The song, fits. It just fits...and the singer...sings it with all of the emotion she never expresses~ all the hurt and discordant, jangling nerves she hides. Because if one has hope...one has all that is needed...

and right now she has hope.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

AAAACCHOOOOOO!

It had been almost two weeks and the house showed it.

No wolf to greet her.
No cat...
No flying critter.

Just dust and deadness and quiet.

She was going to have to fix that.

 

[marauder13]

AAAACCHOOOOOO!

It had been almost two weeks and the house showed it.

No wolf to greet her.
No cat...
No flying critter.

Just dust and deadness and quiet.

She was going to have to fix that.

Wanders in with a spring in my step, heading straight over to the wolf and giving her a big warm hug

Thank you for that marvelous Danica post. Well worth every second of the wait. I am looking forward to sitting down and replying to it.

I form a ring with my thumb and middle finger, saying a few words under my breath, and the dust slowly rises from every surface and flows towards the circle, only to vanish completely.

Just a little gift from an admirer.

With a warm smile, I turn, and slowly depart Luna's haven as the real world calls.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

A small smile as a patient male pays a visit and lays my fears, about Danica's post, to rest. A bigger smile as he quickly enfolds me in a warm hug and and disperses the dust that had gathered in my absence.

I wave goodbye as he fades away and turn my attentions back to email story I am crafting for a friend.

 

[DarkWarrioress]

So, what could she leave a She Wolf who was only allowing herself to splurge on Saturdays? Left on her porch was a basket of freshly collected and washed strawberries and a small plate of cookies.

Tucked under the cookies, a small note.

Thank you, Luna for your kindness and thoughtfulness. A bit of of news came my way today that was a bit of a shock about a family member. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Cait~

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Returning home I find a gift from a Lady. The smile that touches my lips is only slightly smaller than the one in my heart. With a happy sigh, I pick up both gifts and carry them inside.

My house is still clean but far too quiet. I need music.

NO you need to quit taking off without a word.

Oh shit. Gray's mad.

Tis true, Luna Wolfling. We three are parts of you. Yet you seem to take off without a by your leave and never think to check on us. Not fair.

Nor appropriate.

Aw, hell the gang's all here...and look at that, they've come to bitch at me...again.

"I am sorry. It's not that I don't think on you...I just get so wrapped up in myself that I no longer remember to be polite. I will try not to let it happen again. okay?"

Silence....and then two large furred bodies attack me...while my eagle flutters just outside the door.

"Okay. Okay...let's go walk about..."

 

[Erlind]

She's back again. I always feel strange missing her, no many how many times I examine it and realize I shouldn't.

I come out of the woods to find her haven and investigate. She's definitely been here, but isn't now. Nearby? I take a path behind the cabin into a part of the woods I haven't really explored before. I don't have a lot of time tonight, but I hope to find her for a little bit at least.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

I had retreated from Foxy's place and returned to my own home. Gray and Sunrise were waiting, just to inform me that~

You just missed him.

Your friend, Erlind.

Headed behind the Haven...on that path you never followed.

With a wide smile and a happy laugh, I run off. Him. I had really missed him. Fuck I worried about him when he couldn't be in touch, due to his real world circumstances. So to know that he is here...somewhere...

THERE!!

Moving quickly, I pounce him from behind, jumping to wrap my arms and legs round his body.

"Were you trying to escape??"

 

[Erlind]

"You make it sound like I'd have some kind of choice," I joke. I turn my head best I can to look at her and smile. I had heard her coming, but didn't have the time to do anything about it.

"How have you been, Luna?"

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

I release my grip on his back and slip away so that I can move to his side and snuggle up under his left arm, Rising up...up...up on tip toe, I press a delicate kiss to the curve of his jaw.

"I am doing well, sweetness. Has been entirely too long. Knowing you, I am sure you can't stay for long but I am very glad to see you!! How are you?"

I turn us round and about so that we are headed back toward the cabin. Knowing him, he probably won't get as far as my porch before reality whirls him away. Even so, I want his scent on my property, so I can savor him once he's gone again.

 

[Erlind]

Warm lips on my skin and a touch I miss. She guides and I walk back towards her home.

"Not bad. Work keeps me busier than I'd like, but that be helped. Trying to keep all of my threads going and failing occasionally, but I'm getting close enough."

We make our back to her back porch and I sit down on the edge. She's still wrapped around me and I would have it no other way.

"I do have work in the morning, but I'm really not in a sleeping mood."

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

A happy smile as he talks to me. I like the way he speaks. Softly, confidently. I know that he has been busting his ass. Hell, he's been doing that since we started our thread together so long ago.

"Well, don't you worry bout Andrey and Misty...long as you want to write him, she will be waiting. I was getting by on one post a month from you for a while, remember??"

Once we reach the back porch, I allow him to pick a spot and flop onto it before I cuddle up against his side, looking like a small pup under his arm.

"I am off tomorrow...thank goodness. My body is hating me from all the hours I have been putting in..."

A soft sigh as I lean into him, tighter, aligning us...hip to hip. Savoring the sheer masculine heat of him.

"If you know you have an early day, you really SHOULD be trying to catch 40 winks...otherwise you will be miserable...."

 

[Erlind]

I wrap a strong arm around her glad to have her so close.

"Oh yeah, sleep will make me less miserable." I shake my head after the blatant sarcasm.

"Sorry. Job isn't terrible, but what I like best about it is the little free time I do have."

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Relaxes, feeling his arm tucking me tight, keeping me near.

The pleasure of it, of his presence, makes me smile.

"I know. Even so, An Erlind with no sleep will be a very unhappy man come tomorrow morning..."


One small hand rests lightly upon his thigh, nails tracing odd little designs.

"By the way, Misty didn't shock Andrey with the going home thing did she...it felt...right..."

 

[Erlind]

"Perhaps surprised, but I think it let him tap into something that was already there and that he already wanted. Having her become so enthralled by him during the dance and the kiss gave him the opportunity to take control that hadn't felt natural to take before."

Fingers play at her hair and sometimes the edge of her top as I talk. When I finish and lean in and kiss her forehead, mostly because its what I can reach.