adrina
Heretic
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Wow, thank you for sharing your story! That was beautifully written and profound. I can relate to growing up in that type of atmosphere, you learn to protect yourself however you can.
I hope that by sharing your story, you can put all of those "demons" to rest and let the light shine through. That took a lot of courage to post that and I'm sure a lot of others can relate to a lot of what you posted.
Letting it go is a wonderful thing... You just did that.
L.O.L = Language of Love
Thank you.
Growing up in an atmosphere of hostility, aggression and violence messed with me for many many years. I remember a time in my teenage years when I felt shell shocked. They would probably call it PTSD now. I remember that I couldn't deal with or express any deep emotion. I cried over just about everything. Any time I would try to speak about feelings I would clam up because I couldn't form the words let alone get them out. I was in hysterics a lot. It was a strange time. And although I can speak and verbalize emotions and feelings now, I have to admit I am still more comfortable in the written word.
In getting this out of me... putting it out there... it has been very therapeutic. I feel less burdened by it. I don't know if I have entirely let go of it, but it has lost some of its grip on me.