Minx The Sphinx's Boudoir

[monique_minx]

I creep from my bed, unable to sleep and decide to leave my latest work for my Master...I lay it on my desk with a pained expression and vanish through the dark curtains...

I just need you; my Master

Were I to dissolve into thousands of tears,
Will you be there to allay my fears?
Will you promise to always have faith in me?
Will you love like the sands of time have ceased?

I am but your broken servant,
And I am completely undeserving.
Now I see that I was afraid for good reason,
I know I am an unchanging season.

I’m terrified that I don’t have enough strength,
And I have held you at arm’s length.
I don’t want to hurt the one I love,
Yet you are one of which I can’t get enough.

I have spent hours crying,
Feeling like I should be dying.
On broken glass that I should crawl,
And still unworthy to have you at all.

Asking everyone if I am the worst,
And not believing any that I’m not cursed.
I cannot explain how I am feeling,
Only that you have left me reeling.

I feel sick to my stomach for what I have done,
I didn’t mean for you to feel like you were no one.
You are so much more than that to me,
Please, please my Master…come back to me?

I am your slave, your love, your helot still,
I am everything I was up until…
I am still for you, still only yours,
As to your pain…I hate to be the cause.

We are still worth fighting for,
You cut me deep when you called me a…
That’s not who I am but what I’m fighting against,
And it hurt me that you were so incensed.

If that’s all I am to you then walk away,
I’ll leave this fight for some other someday.
You’ve not lost this submissive,
But make no mistake; you were derisive.

I still submit freely, I still want your control,
But I’m not a toy, not a robot, not a doll.
I am human, I will mess up and it will hurt,
So then get angry or you will get burnt.

I am an emotional wreck because of you,
When you hurt I hurt, yes, I do!
It is too much to take and too often,
You need to yell more and not soften.

Quiet words do not reach me,
You cannot teach me.
My memory may be shot,
But my love, I am not.

Til you wounded me with that word,
And now I feel so much it’s absurd.
But I thought you wouldn’t abuse that power to make me sad,
I’d take it so much better if you would just get mad.

I can’t eat and I can’t sleep,
Trying to stop the tears I weep.
Trying to tire myself out,
Trying so hard not to doubt.

But I’m afraid of what will occur,
You’ll tell me what you would prefer.
And I fear we will clash,
I’ll lose you to a smash…

I wonder if you’re thinking of me now?
Do you know you still have my vow?
When you said you were shattered,
I suddenly realized how much I mattered.

I can’t help that my feelings are not as strong,
But I didn’t mean for this to go so damn wrong!
I am only yours my Master,
And yet this all became a disaster.

I spoke to my mother because I was so upset,
That’s the worst mistake I’ve made yet!
But I’m a human and I am a wreck,
But I think you can save me just yet…

Just give me time,
We are in our prime.
We don’t need to rush,
There is no fuss.

Just be for me, in the moment together,
Not for eternity, not forever.
I don’t need happily ever after,
I just need you; my Master…

 

[Fira]

I slip in, unnoticed. Seeing her laying there, her face stained with tears, curled up so helplessly. I know I was harsh on her, and things will need to be said that will feel like she's being hurt worse. My heart goes out to my sister, my friend.

I sit on the edge of the bed and watch her sleeping. Not wanting her to wake alone, I stretch out next to her, curling around her protectively, my arms encircling her and holding her close. I whisper softly, hoping she can hear it in her dreams yet not wake her.

"Sleep well, my Minxy. It will all work out tomorrow..."

 

[Ausus_girl13]

I slip into the boudoir and pad over to the bed, my bare feet silent on the floor. I cover up my girls, smiling at the embrace they share. Placing a kiss on each of their cheeks I move over to my chaise curling up with my laptop and keeping watch over my toy and my vixen. I will wait patiently for my consigliere to walk through the door, and I know that everything will be okay, then.

 

[monique_minx]

I awaken to find my Fira, my sister asleep beside me and lift my head sadly to see my Beauty, knowing that tomorrow is another day and he will not enter yet...however much I wish him to...

I sigh and pick up my pen, setting it next to some paper as I wait for my muse to return to me...if she ever does...

Having run out of tears to cry, nothing to do but to wait and think...just what I need, I groan sadly...

 

[monique_minx]

I go to my bed and crawl up next to my sister for her comforting embrace, worried about tomorrow and tired of crying. I pull the blanket back over us and stare up at the darkened ceiling of my boudoir, my mind is reciting quiet words that echo off the walls as I drift into slumber...

My Master loves me...
My Master trusts me...
My Master believes in me...
My Master will never abandon me...never...

A tear slips from beneath my closed eye...

 

[Bsquad]

I slip into the boudoir, silent as a specture, dressed in black, but in my fingers I bear a rose, and a note. I slip to her bed and sit down upon the edge, my fingers reaching out and brushing the tear from her cheek as I see her lying there, the look of pain there, and knowing that it should not be...but it must be known to her.

I stroke the red rose across her face and I lean down, my lips whispering into her ear.

"Your Master loves you. Your Master trusts you. Your Master believes in you. Your Master will never abandon you." I whisper into her ear. I slowly rise, I cannot linger, not yet. We have made the first step to moving past all of this, but three more still remain, and I take my leave, the note and the rose resting before her eyes. The heavy roll of parchment bearing a simple messge as the Rose rests upon it.

Your Master is always in your heart, and always in your memory.

I vanish into the real world. I cannot linger here yet.

 

[monique_minx]

I awaken from something similar to a very strange dream and my brow crinkles at the sight of the rose atop the parchment. I slowly move my hand forward to pick it up as though I expect it to come to life and prick me. I hold it to my nose and smell deeply of the flower's scent before I take the roll of parchment up in curiosity.

I unfurl it slowly, it's so big and yet it only has one small scrawled line on it, I gasp and a smile spreads over my lips for a moment. No, stop wait...it's not all good yet...one step at a time...still...I am unbelievably happy about that one step!

I take the parchment and set it down in my desk drawer, vowing to find a frame for it...just to remember this moment...I settle back on my bed, resting against the headboard and trying to quell my anxieties about tomorrow a little. It's not bugging me so much as driving me insane with curiosity!

 

[monique_minx]

I enter my boudoir with a tiny bit more bounce in my step although my thoughts are still a swirling mess of worry and concern. I settle on a couch and put my feet up with pen and paper in hand as I look over posts owed with a frown at the first one...I mutter quietly to myself

Escaping Animal State...gah Deevo...way to leave me something hard!

I grin slightly as I consider

Now what will Sienna say...

I muse and then finally the sound of my pen scratching away can be heard throughout my boudoir

 

[monique_minx]

I enter my boudoir with an elated smile on my lips, survived everything this past week and I couldn't feel better rewarded...I am Helot again! I settle down on my bed wearing...

 

[Bsquad]

I enter the boudoir. I'm causually dressed, in black slacks that are lose, a white buttoned shirt that is hanging on me, buttoned halfway. My black sandals slap along the ground as I enter this room, smiling at my Helot as she settles onto her bed in her red dress. I stand there, quiet, and watch her with my gray eyes, the anger in them is gone, replaced with love and caring. I have my black roo skin fedora on and I walk across the room towards the bed.

"Hello my Helot." I say with a smile and I look at her, the warmth on my features unmistakeable.

 

[monique_minx]

I look up from my day dreams at the sound of my nickname and smile brightly at my Master, moving from the bed to him immediately. I wrap my arms around him and look up at him, my lashes fluttering

Hello my Master...I am unbelievably happy to be your Helot again...

 

[Bsquad]

I smile as my Helot moves to me and hugs me tightly, looking into my eyes. I hold the embrace with her, and I hear her words, making me sigh with contentment. I hold her close to my body and rest my chin on her head in her crimson locks. I nuzzle her forhead lightly and give her a kiss. I pull back slghtly and look into her brown eyes.

"You re-earned your title my Helot. But you never lost my love. You know that you needed to be punished, and you took it, public and private. And I know that you shall never forget your rules, and the memory of that will never fade." I smile and tilt your chin up and I kiss you lightly.

 

[monique_minx]

I am thrilled to be in his arms, to have him look upon me with a pleased expression and even feel that we have survived something wonderful in all of this. It was painful but I still feel that it was...required...for us both. I close my eyes as he kisses me, the image of him locked inside my mind as I do and how entirely amazed I am at his strength. He is more than I could have hoped for in a Master...my eyes flutter open as the kiss breaks and I whisper softly

All I am is yours Master...

 

[Firmhanded_Daddy]

Enters the Boudoir and pauses at the door with a smile. Knocking lightly at the door, then counting to five before pushing the door open.

Gets a good look around the area, having never really been here for any real length of time. Shaking his head with a soft chuckle.

Takes the basket he had in his hands, full of massage oils, candles, some strips of silk cloth. Also a note addressed to Bsquad.

"Hello there you two, I'm not sticking around long. I just wanted to congratulate you both in person, and let you know I'm thrilled you have finally made your pledge to each other in it's fullness."

 

[Bsquad]

I smile as I feel her pressing against me, as her eyes close and she leans so fully into the kiss. As they open once more and I hear her whisper, I nod in response, approving of her words. I lower my head and I kiss her neck softly, then licking her skin softly and nipping at her earlobe.

"I know my Helot. And you have your Masters love, and trust, and faith, and I shall never leave you...because I know you wish me as your master." I whisper the words into her ear before I lean back to look into her eyes.

"Becasue I knw that you want me, and becasue what we have was fought for and earned, something of worth, something of value...that stems not from simple desire...not from something fleeting..." I whisper the words and I smile more.

"It's becasue we know each other, becasue we trust each other...and becaseu we love each other." I say quietly, looking into my Helot's brown eyes.

I look and smile at FD, nodding at his congratulations.

"In a manner of speaking, we finally both understand what we mean to one another now. Without doubt."

 

[monique_minx]

I shiver beneath the delicate touch of my Master and moan softly as he licks at my earlobe. Nodding and smiling in agreement with his words and blushing at the way he can say things so perfectly. I look up and smile brightly at J as he enters and incline my head

Thank you...though it will be more official when Master...decides it is time...

I speak so calmly but inside, I cannot wait for that time!

You're welcome to stay J...my room is open to everyone but especially my friends...

I smile warmly, knowing he has done a lot for me in the past few days

 

[Firmhanded_Daddy]

Smiles at Bsquad and nods his head.

"Sometimes it takes a little pain to realize what's at stake. Not that it's the most desirable way to get things done, but it does work. I'm glad that through all this you both have a more broad perspective on each other."

Glances at Monique and smiles.

"It's all good honey. I know I'm welcome, but I'll have to get going soon anyway, so I just wanted to let you both know I am very proud for you, and that if either if ya need anything, my door is always open!"

 

[Bsquad]

I smile and nod at FD.

"Yes, pain is a test, but we passed and we're alright now..." I say the words softly and kiss my Helot's neck lightly.

"...better than alright." I say in a soft growl into her ear. I pull back slightly and look at FD with a nod.

"Well, it was rough, but we had a lot of help with all of it from a lot of people that mean a great deal to us." I say easily, smiling.

 

[monique_minx]

I smile brightly as he kisses my neck and shiver at the growl in my ear knowing what he means. I nod and smile at J

Thank you my darling, that means a lot to me...to us both I think and okay...I do wish you'd drop by more often though hun!

I lean into my Master's embrace and a shudder rushes through me at his proximity to my scantily clad form

We have a lot of people to thank I think Master...

 

[Firmhanded_Daddy]

Smiles at Bsquad with a nod of his head.

"Loved friends are a great resource. It is a good sign that both of you had so many people willing to help you through your trials. Pain that is overcome only translates into strength. Your bond is just that much stronger now!"

Nods and Minx.

"I'll try to come haunt this place a little more often from time to time. Things have just been crazy lately with school. I think it will all level out soon though!"

 

[Bsquad]

I smile and nod at FD's words.

"Yes, very true. I'm always welcome to the help of true friends, especially those who know the whole story between minx and me...and understand just how hard things were between us. But...we fought, becasue we both knew that we were worth it." I say with a smile and take my Helot's hand lightly in my touch.

"Well, perhaps the two of us should bid the boudoir adeu for now. There are things that we need to attend to." I say with a chuckle and a bow of my head to FD as I lead my Helot to the exit passage and back into reality.

 

[monique_minx]

I nod and smile brightly, squeaking happily as my Master and I exit, I blow FD a kiss...knowing he already knows what is so important for us right now. Perhaps I shall return later but tis time to put my Master to bed and tend to lunch! We vanish together into the RW

 

[Firmhanded_Daddy]

Nods with a smile toward Bsquad.

"Indeed. I am on my way out myself. Enjoy each other! I'm off like a prom dress."

Grins and heads out the door, waving at them both.

 

[monique_minx]

I enter my boudoir feeling a little unusual, seeing my friends concerned for me in the chamber makes me feel loved but also worried that they see it as such a bad thing, I'm thankful to my Beauty for her kind words though. I know she knows everything Master and I have been through and that makes her one of the best observers yet. I smile softly and settle on my couch with pen and paper in hand as I look over posts owed, wearing...

 

[VampiricTouch]

She steals quietly into the Boudoir... It's been a long time since she's visited the lounges.

Heya M&M! I hope all is well