Need to get this off my chest

[SPARTAN047]

I’m a long time member here on Lit, and I’ve trolled many boards liking some posts and replying to others. I’ve never started my own thread, but I needed some arena to fully express myself. As my profile says I’m a married bi male. I’ve been more open with her in the past six months about some of my desires, but not all of them. I was “seduced” by my best friend’s Dad after graduating High School 40 years ago, and I’ve loved to suck cock since then; however, 20 years in the Army severely limited my opportunities. I’ve frequented many ABS and porn theaters, experiencing the occasional blow and go (both giving and recievng), or at least a mutual hand job. After a period of about 24 months in a sexless marriage she finally started to warm back up to the idea of intimacy. About six months ago I gathered up my courage and admitted that I wanted to wear woman’s panties and shave my legs. I’ve also been introducing anal play in the bedroom. I’ve asked her to fuck me with an old vibrator of hers, and this evolved to buying 2 dildoes that she will fuck me with. I don’t have the courage to admit I want a real cock in my ass, or my ultimate fantasy where I’m in stockings, a bra, and on my knees with my ass up in the air, my head between her thighs tonguing her pussy and another man behind me slowly penetrating my ass.

I know open communication is essential to a successful marriage. The problem is that she has said that she doesn’t share or play well with others. I know I’ve been unfaithful, and I’m working through that guilt.

I would love to find someone safe that we could explore each other’s sexuality, but the chances of that are slim to none since she no longer works and the expectation is that I spend all my time away from the office with her.

Thanks for listening, sorry if this was long winded. If there are any comments I’ll reply as I get a chance. It’s actually easier to get on Lit at the office than at home.

It's very frustrating to go through and I get it. An open minded couple could help, and these desires won't just go away even if you don't tell your wife.

 

[Smileyouronnow]

I’m a long time member here on Lit, and I’ve trolled many boards liking some posts and replying to others. I’ve never started my own thread, but I needed some arena to fully express myself. As my profile says I’m a married bi male. I’ve been more open with her in the past six months about some of my desires, but not all of them. I was “seduced” by my best friend’s Dad after graduating High School 40 years ago, and I’ve loved to suck cock since then; however, 20 years in the Army severely limited my opportunities. I’ve frequented many ABS and porn theaters, experiencing the occasional blow and go (both giving and recievng), or at least a mutual hand job. After a period of about 24 months in a sexless marriage she finally started to warm back up to the idea of intimacy. About six months ago I gathered up my courage and admitted that I wanted to wear woman’s panties and shave my legs. I’ve also been introducing anal play in the bedroom. I’ve asked her to fuck me with an old vibrator of hers, and this evolved to buying 2 dildoes that she will fuck me with. I don’t have the courage to admit I want a real cock in my ass, or my ultimate fantasy where I’m in stockings, a bra, and on my knees with my ass up in the air, my head between her thighs tonguing her pussy and another man behind me slowly penetrating my ass.

I know open communication is essential to a successful marriage. The problem is that she has said that she doesn’t share or play well with others. I know I’ve been unfaithful, and I’m working through that guilt.

I would love to find someone safe that we could explore each other’s sexuality, but the chances of that are slim to none since she no longer works and the expectation is that I spend all my time away from the office with her.

Thanks for listening, sorry if this was long winded. If there are any comments I’ll reply as I get a chance. It’s actually easier to get on Lit at the office than at home.

Hello blacksatinknight! I totally understand! We have very similar desires.!
I'm going to suggest that you go clubbing at alternative clubs and make sure she has plenty to drink so that she's buzzed and drops her inhibitions.
Women tend to enjoy hanging out with bi or gay guys when partying. Eventually she'll find some bi or gay guys that she thinks are really cute and she will flirt with them and you'll get invited to an after hours party.

That will be the door you want to open with her with her leading the way with her new found buddies. Because they like guy, you will also be on their conquest list.

Because she will be their buddy, they will approach her about getting you involved in a sexual way with all of them.

How does that sound?

 

[BlackSatinKnight]

Hello blacksatinknight! I totally understand! We have very similar desires.!
I'm going to suggest that you go clubbing at alternative clubs and make sure she has plenty to drink so that she's buzzed and drops her inhibitions.
Women tend to enjoy hanging out with bi or gay guys when partying. Eventually she'll find some bi or gay guys that she thinks are really cute and she will flirt with them and you'll get invited to an after hours party.

That will be the door you want to open with her with her leading the way with her new found buddies. Because they like guy, you will also be on their conquest list.

Because she will be their buddy, they will approach her about getting you involved in a sexual way with all of them.

How does that sound?

Sounds interesting. I’ll have to give it some thought.

 

[wetsawdust]

Hey OP, hope it's going well.

The booze comment sounds good in theory, but given that she readily admits to 'not playing well with others', that could cause an unintended blowup. Alcohol rarely helps with heavy shit.
Some subtle dirty talk introducing the idea via fantasy may get a better reaction. The club idea does sound fun though.

 

[BlackSatinKnight]

Freshly shaven from the waist down, and a double of bourbon on board. To bad I won’t get any relief tonight.

 

[Smileyouronnow]

Freshly shaven from the waist down, and a double of bourbon on board. To bad I won’t get any relief tonight.

Hi again Blacksatinknight. It's been a while since we chatted. I just read that you are freshly shaven from the waist down. I love the smooth hairless skin. The married buddy that I had an ongoing fling with years ago was like that too!
I loved oral giving and recieving like that with him. Wish you and I were in the same town. It seems that we both have similar ideas, desires and situation with our spouses.

If you remember, I am also a married Hispanic bi-ish guy who misses playing with a nice married guy. I live in Cedar Park and work in Austin.
Hope your situation with finding a buddy is going better!
Mike

 

[Curious_2]

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