raven2
"Quoth the Raven...."
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FurryFury said:You have a point. I believe he left me in the end, because I had gotten too strong for him to tear down enough ,to excite him any further. I was forged of strong stuff from childhood that perfectly positioned me to be his emotional punching bag. It took me a long while to figure all this out, why I accepted and loved a rapist and why he left, in my mind I was doing everything I could to please him and ease conflict. It never occurred to me he wanted or needed that conflict. *c* I actually thought I would die without him but that feeling lasted only a couple of hours after he left and then I felt freed though I wanted him dead. Now I am pleased that he left me pregnant like he did. I would never have left him. With him I often felt suicidal the first two married years. My life is so much better now.
Fury
Hi Fury,
It is nice to see that you have progressed so far. I am truly greatful because you have such a fertile mind (and body, I bet ) and if you were still with him, you wouldn't be with us.
Now, going back to the mixed nuts comments of yesterday, playing with fire may be somethng I really like. You know, new sensations . And big chewy pretzels are my favorite type, especially if you slather them with mustard.