I have to admit the only time I find myself THAT angry and I am ready to allow myself to allow the wrath of my sadistic side free is when the person has wronged me, either in deed or in flaw of character.
I hate defect of character like in movies when a serial killer sees a flaw in someone and seeks to punish them for it.
Like I have a submissive who is the most selfish and insecure asshole you'd ever not want to meet. My sub is nosy and presumptuous and cocky...and it makes it that much easier to, either verbally or emotionally scalp him. I don't find any shame in punishing him, I wanna allow myself to slap him and humiliate him, just to try and toughen his snotty fat miserable ass up.
I find its a lot easier to be the emotional rapist he deserves. I question him as to why he behaves the immature and socially painful way he does. He needs someone to reprimand him and he is, without me a lonely, lonely man. I have to be able to tell him hes inappropriate.
I wanna physically hurt him a lot of the time, especially when he gets cocky and says something shitty and laughs.... I wanna push my thumbs through his eyes... but instead i just sit and smile... preparing my scathing lecture.
its amazing as a test of my self restraint and self control. I know I am more intellectual and able to express myself rather than hitting him.
I would... but he doesn't like the physical shit... so I don't use my hands to skewer him..
but I get him in the end.
every penny, every credit card, and every apology.... the apology itself may as well be dipped in gold...
