Soliloquium: Reflections on my World.

[amchentai]

*Walks in and looks for some blankets and piles them next to the bed and pulls on over myself to get a nap in.*

 

[yeishia]

As I return from the gardens I see that in my absence I had received a visitor. Smiling softly I tucked the blankets carefully aroumd him careful not to disturb his sleep. "Sweet dreams I softly whisper," knowing that because of the stresses of his rw that he really needed this time to rest.

Tip toeing out of my small bedroom I closed the door softly behind me before making my way to the kitchen.

My day was done, I carefully poured myself a glass of Merlot and walked outside into the balmy evening where I curled up infront of the outdoor fire place to enjoy its rich flavor.

It was so peaceful here in soll sometimes I wish I could remain here forever...

 

[The_gladiator]

light footsteps carry me into the gardens. something about the peace call to me. But it is more than just peace, it is her. There is something about her, an illucive almost magical quality that draws me to her. I really cannot explain it. she is a dear friend but is rapidly becoming more. She is someone I have known for a long time, but had I truly known her until recently?I would like to think I tried, but bad timing and other circumstances had kept us apart. It wasn't until a few months ago that we had reconnected. We had since talked of that time, talked of the night I had received her Christmas gift. Something seemingly so simple, yet had touched me in ways she probably could only imagine. Christmas was always the time of the year that was most difficult for me. It was the time of my greatest happiness but also the time of one of my greatest sadnesses. Since that time she had become more to me. SOur friendship had deepened. Although we didn't always agree on everything, and still had times where we misunderstood one another, That I cared for her deeply was more than undeniable.

I felt drawn to her tonight, to the solace of her gardens, and maybe even the comfort of her arms or touch... I needed a friend right now, but more than that I needed her.

 

[amchentai]

*AFter some restless sleep I make my way to the kitchen and make some comfort food, some BLT salad, but knowing Yeishia doesn't eat meat I use Garlic Butter croutons instead of bacon. To have something crunchy in it a bit. I cook up the pasta and throw it in a large bowl before cutting up cherry tomatoes and dice a head of lettuce and mixing it with the tomatoes into the pasta. A bit of Mayo and some salt and pepper with just a hint of white vinegar and I tossed it in the ball and put it in the frig, only now remembering it has to chill. Shaking my head I clean up and head back and move my pile of blankets out of Yeishia's room so she can go to bed when needed. Plopping the blankets down I crawl back in to try to get some rest while the salad chills in the frig, hopefully done by the time I wake up.*

 

[The_gladiator]

I can feel his words seep into my very skin, skin which is very aware of the handsome elf standing so close. My eyes flutter closed as his arms slide around my tiny waist.

The smell of the cherry blossom is intoxicating, yet as my senses attune to him it fades into the back ground leaving only his...Warm male goodness, an almost indescribable smell that is his alone, an earthy combination of natures essence...he smells of rebirth.

Fanciful or not the impression remains casing my startled eyes to open and begin searching his; it is almost inevitable that mine slowly change from hazel until they are purest of greens, matching to perfection those I am steadfastly reading.

Satisfied, I stand on tip toe pressing closer, my lips once again tasting his...birdsong and beating hearts... I smile softly against the warm softness before slowly deepening the kiss.

My own arms reach up entwining in his silken hair and as I melt against him last hazy impression is that of...total oneness.

I move through the gardens seeking her. She does not appear to be in residence currently. I find myself at the edge of a pond, and sit on the root of one of the monolithic trees that surround it.

Deep green eyes gaze into the still placitude of the water. The reflection of sadness and tiredness shine back at me, mocking me with the vision of myself. Even as I center myself and try to bfnd the calm that I find just out of my reach I let my mind drift back in time. I had sought a perfect moment with Yeishia this evening, and I realized that I had had a perfect moment that I had abandoned some time ago. I regretted that my real world had broken that moment.

I closed my eyes and remembered. The smell of the cherry blossoms. I inhailed and could smell them again, the scent helping to fuel the memory. I could remember her then, the feel of her body pressed to me her lips pressed to mine. I swore I could feel her. Body to mine, her body mine for that moment.

I cursed and opened my eyes, I was living a dream That moment had passed I could never regain it. But I believed in magic, if I could only get passed my own disbelief, I could at least enjoy the memory.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes again. "Yeishia." I whispered, just as I had whispered her name into that kiss. I could feel her against me again. I could smell the scent again, and this time I didn't let go of the memory. I held it close to me cradled it as if it were a baby bird, coaxed life into it like a flame struck from kindling. The moment grew and I kissed her back. My hands finding her long hair sliding through long honey locks. I could feel the silken texture under my fingers. It felt so real. I pressed my lips to the side of her neck and the scent of her was too real to be a dream. I let my tongue trace the supple skin and could taste the salt of her skin and that's when I knew this couldn't be a dream. The magic of Soll had brought me back to that moment, brought her back to my arms.

I opened my eyes to see if it was real and saw those hazel green eyes staring back at me and I let the tears fall, I needed her, needed the comfort, the passion the kindness those eyes promised.

Finally finally I spoke, "Is this real?" I finally asked.

 

[yeishia]

The Secret Garden...

Returning from the garden I noticed the Amc was now sleeping on my couch, smiling I opened the fridge to find the salad he had made...I would wait to share it with him when he awoke.

Restless I headed back into the gardens needing something I could not put a name to.

Numbly I walked until the stars could no longer be seen and I was surrounded by a canopy of ever thickening trees. Inky blackness prevailed it suited my ever darkening mood. The lady of the shadows, the name suited me, the shadows suited me. I somehow had chosen to live in them. I had consciously chosen to make the betwixt & between my home. That singularity in time had brought me comfort until now.

I walked as if blind my senses completely attuned to the nature around me until I could walk no more. Leaning briefly against the trunk of an old oak tree I slid down to the ground where I sat knees drawn up sore back pressed into its roughened bark. Eyes squeezed closed I allowed the pain of my heart to beed into the old tree hoping it would forgive the uninvited intrusion.

Of late I had stepped out of the shadows to find that I was overwhelmed by what was required of me to simply be. I was so uncertain. Had I found something special or was it merely my wishful thinking. I so wanted to explore the unexpected feelings I was having..***** rarely offered up second chances lit even less so.

My eyes flew open.

I could feel the pain it permeated the woods like a living entity surrounding me welcoming me to its bosom...his pain mingled with mine calling me to him. I stood and without thinking I flew through the woods back into the garden proper allowing naught but my heart to guide me...knowing only that I had to somehow find him. Some moments must be seized and this was one of them I knew this with utter certainty.

Dispute the lateness of the hour I could smell cherry blossoms as in my mind night turned into day and I was once more in the small grove we had shared not long ago. I was in his arms and this time he didn't disappear, he kissed me back his hands sliding through my long honey locks. It felt so real. He felt so real. The magic of Soll had brought me back to that moment, brought him back to my arms. I pressed my lips to the side of his neck as he nuzzled mine. I pressed closer willing us to be real not wanting to awaken to find this was but some cruel dream. The scent of him was too real to be a dream.

I shivered in response to the movements of his warm tongue sliding along my sensitive flesh, my eyes fluttering open to find his watching mine.

Green to green, both mirror images of want and need.

Finally finally he spoke, "Is this real?" he asked of me

"Yes," I whispered back my eyes full of wonder.

We needed time away from the maddening crowd to discover who we were to one another. I would take him to the place of my heart, where we could explore together undisturbed. Wrapping my arms around him I pulled him closer and softly spoke the magic words that would transport us to that most special place in time.

" Que. Sera Sera. "

My soft lips returned to his as we shimmered softly out of Soll entwined in one another's arms.

 

[yeishia]

.........ll

 

[yeishia]

,,,,,,,,,,,,,,wrong thread

 

[Veroe]

Hey Yeishia, I was wondering if you had been reading the new E-book by Tiffany Reisz: The Last Good Knight? They're being released in five parts all this week.

 

[yeishia]

Hey Yeishia, I was wondering if you had been reading the new E-book by Tiffany Reisz: The Last Good Knight? They're being released in five parts all this week.

I had not, *'hugs you * I really need this...thank you so very much * runs off to search. Xoxoxoox

 

[Veroe]

I had not, *'hugs you * I really need this...thank you so very much * runs off to search. Xoxoxoox

You're welcome. Tell me what you think about it when you read it, ok?

 

[amchentai]

*Cleans up the blankets and does a load of wash to clean them, as it goes from cold to dead summer heat in a single day. With a sigh I head out back to sit out where it's a bit cooler as the breeze is better then the air here in real life.*

 

[yeishia]

You're welcome. Tell me what you think about it when you read it, ok?

Got them...hockey game or tiffany reisz ummmm? ???????


know we are going into overtime...

 

[amchentai]

Got them...hockey game or tiffany reisz ummmm? ???????


know we are going into overtime...

*Over hears Hockey and Over time. And can't help but stick my head in to see what it is all about.*

Hmm?
You like Hockey Yeishia?

 

[The_gladiator]

Returning from the garden I noticed the Amc was now sleeping on my couch, smiling I opened the fridge to find the salad he had made...I would wait to share it with him when he awoke.

Restless I headed back into the gardens needing something I could not put a name to.

Numbly I walked until the stars could no longer be seen and I was surrounded by a canopy of ever thickening trees. Inky blackness prevailed it suited my ever darkening mood. The lady of the shadows, the name suited me, the shadows suited me. I somehow had chosen to live in them. I had consciously chosen to make the betwixt & between my home. That singularity in time had brought me comfort until now.

I walked as if blind my senses completely attuned to the nature around me until I could walk no more. Leaning briefly against the trunk of an old oak tree I slid down to the ground where I sat knees drawn up sore back pressed into its roughened bark. Eyes squeezed closed I allowed the pain of my heart to beed into the old tree hoping it would forgive the uninvited intrusion.

Of late I had stepped out of the shadows to find that I was overwhelmed by what was required of me to simply be. I was so uncertain. Had I found something special or was it merely my wishful thinking. I so wanted to explore the unexpected feelings I was having..***** rarely offered up second chances lit even less so.

My eyes flew open.

I could feel the pain it permeated the woods like a living entity surrounding me welcoming me to its bosom...his pain mingled with mine calling me to him. I stood and without thinking I flew through the woods back into the garden proper allowing naught but my heart to guide me...knowing only that I had to somehow find him. Some moments must be seized and this was one of them I knew this with utter certainty.

Dispute the lateness of the hour I could smell cherry blossoms as in my mind night turned into day and I was once more in the small grove we had shared not long ago. I was in his arms and this time he didn't disappear, he kissed me back his hands sliding through my long honey locks. It felt so real. He felt so real. The magic of Soll had brought me back to that moment, brought him back to my arms. I pressed my lips to the side of his neck as he nuzzled mine. I pressed closer willing us to be real not wanting to awaken to find this was but some cruel dream. The scent of him was too real to be a dream.

I shivered in response to the movements of his warm tongue sliding along my sensitive flesh, my eyes fluttering open to find his watching mine.

Green to green, both mirror images of want and need.

Finally finally he spoke, "Is this real?" he asked of me

"Yes," I whispered back my eyes full of wonder.

We needed time away from the maddening crowd to discover who we were to one another. I would take him to the place of my heart, where we could explore together undisturbed. Wrapping my arms around him I pulled him closer and softly spoke the magic words that would transport us to that most special place in time.

" Que. Sera Sera. "

My soft lips returned to his as we shimmered softly out of Soll entwined in one another's arms.

I didn't know where she was taking us, but I was wiling to go with her. We both knew we needed time to explore one another. I hoped what lay ahead was all I was hoping for.

Her lips felt like heaven against mine as she kissed me, so much emotion in each heartbeat even as the magic carried us away.

 

[Veroe]

Got them...hockey game or tiffany reisz ummmm? ???????


know we are going into overtime...

There's a certain masturbation scene in Part 3 I thought we could try to copy in LPR...maybe during the picnic and dancing in the thunderstorm scene we talked about?

I missed Mrs. Reisz writing that smart alecky dialogue for Nora.

Favorite line so far from her is: "Damn conscience, always cock-blocking me."LOL

 

[yeishia]

*Over hears Hockey and Over time. And can't help but stick my head in to see what it is all about.*

Hmm?
You like Hockey Yeishia?

*pouts* nooo.....

We lost *'giggles*

Thank you for the salad when you left I snuck in and eat it all.

There's a certain masturbation scene in Part 3 I thought we could try to copy in LPR...maybe during the picnic and dancing in the thunderstorm scene we talked about?

I missed Mrs. Reisz writing that smart alecky dialogue for Nora.

Favorite line so far from her is: "Damn conscience, always cock-blocking me."LOL

I think that is a wonderful idea for a picnic scene Veroe. I shall get my act into gear and write a post for you this weekend so we ca move it forwards.

There is nothing like a Tiffany read to get the juices flowing again.

I just finished reading and of course preordering The Saint. When I read where she was going with it I thought opps!

She inspired my Priest thread as you already know and I am or was taking my Story in a similar direction whilst making her of legal Lit age of course lol.

I need to rethink it. I am also thinking of making it a solo piece as I cannot find anyone able to write for him.

Mind you I am not seriously doing anything except jotting down ideas atm. I will not start a new piece until I am all caught up on those I owe a post in already.

*blushes *

Namely ours ...

 

[Veroe]

I think that is a wonderful idea for a picnic scene Veroe. I shall get my act into gear and write a post for you this weekend so we ca move it forwards.

There is nothing like a Tiffany read to get the juices flowing again.

I just finished reading and of course preordering The Saint. When I read where she was going with it I thought opps!

She inspired my Priest thread as you already know and I am or was taking my Story in a similar direction whilst making her of legal Lit age of course lol.

I need to rethink it. I am also thinking of making it a solo piece as I cannot find anyone able to write for him.

Mind you I am not seriously doing anything except jotting down ideas atm. I will not start a new piece until I am all caught up on those I owe a post in already.

*blushes *

Namely ours ...

I'm kinda of two minds about the Saint....I'm interested in reading her and Soren but am more interested in reading what happens after The Mistress, apparently I may have to wait for that a while longer.

Still I loved the Last Good Knight...Lance was just my type of guy, but we both knew it wasn't going to end out happily. Since he wasn't there during the siren or The Angel or The Prince or The Mistress. It made me really sad when they said goodbye.

Anyway I think the solo piece your planning may be a good idea, because a character that you'd want to follow soren would be a very difficult character to keep on track, at least for me. I understand dominance and the use of pain for instruction or correction, but sadism...or that level of sadism like Soren's level...the character escapes me on his reasoning.

Soren would be a tough character to play.

 

[yeishia]

I'm kinda of two minds about the Saint....I'm interested in reading her and Soren but am more interested in reading what happens after The Mistress, apparently I may have to wait for that a while longer.

Still I loved the Last Good Knight...Lance was just my type of guy, but we both knew it wasn't going to end out happily. Since he wasn't there during the siren or The Angel or The Prince or The Mistress. It made me really sad when they said goodbye.

Anyway I think the solo piece your planning may be a good idea, because a character that you'd want to follow soren would be a very difficult character to keep on track, at least for me. I understand dominance and the use of pain for instruction or correction, but sadism...or that level of sadism like Soren's level...the character escapes me on his reasoning.

Soren would be a tough character to play.

I loved the Last Knight also and adored Lance he made me wish.....

I see cole in LPR becoming a similar type of male what do you think?

After The Mistress...shivers ..yes I do hope she writes that.

I was actually crying in their final scene when she collared him and he became hers till morning. It was so beautifully written. Sad poignant,

I understand what you are saying about a Soren type character. The same could be said of my Jenny , especially me writing her as you can imagine.

I really wanted to explore the dynamic between them. Getting inside her head would be very difficult for me trying to understand the beauty of the marks he leaves on her even where for me personally there would be only fear.


I felt this story would stretch me as a writer, I even thought it would necessitate a change in my writing style perhaps.

I have a need to write this ...

Maybe I am going daft.

P.S.

Veroe could you look out on your travels for a small intimate dance studio. I have been dying to add one to soll but for the life of me I cannot find a photo..thanks. Xo

 

[Veroe]

I loved the Last Knight also and adored Lance he made me wish.....

I see cole in LPR becoming a similar type of male what do you think?

After The Mistress...shivers ..yes I do hope she writes that.

I was actually crying in their final scene when she collared him and he became hers till morning. It was so beautifully written. Sad poignant,

I understand what you are saying about a Soren type character. The same could be said of my Jenny , especially me writing her as you can imagine.

I really wanted to explore the dynamic between them. Getting inside her head would be very difficult for me trying to understand the beauty of the marks he leaves on her even where for me personally there would be only fear.


I felt this story would stretch me as a writer, I even thought it would necessitate a change in my writing style perhaps.

I have a need to write this ...

Maybe I am going daft.

P.S.

Veroe could you look out on your travels for a small intimate dance studio. I have been dying to add one to soll but for the life of me I cannot find a photo..thanks. Xo

I completely agree with you on Cole becoming more like Lance as we progress, that's what I meant by my type of guy. If I could insert a character into Tiffany Reisz's brain Lance would've been it.

I'd argue the ending of TLK was more poignant than the Mistress when Wesley left.

I understand the feeling of needing to write something, and wish you the best of luck in your endeavors.

I found this one of a dance studio.

 

[Mav Unlimited]

This is for you

 

[yeishia]

I completely agree with you on Cole becoming more like Lance as we progress, that's what I meant by my type of guy. If I could insert a character into Tiffany Reisz's brain Lance would've been it.

I'd argue the ending of TLK was more poignant than the Mistress when Wesley left.

I understand the feeling of needing to write something, and wish you the best of luck in your endeavors.

I found this one of a dance studio.

*smiles* i shall think Lance then ...

The studio is Gorgeous now if it only had a ballet bar and mirrors, i suppose I could add them verbally. i will wait and see what else you come up with before I make a final choice.

Thank you Veroe * hugs him*

Thank you Mav tis beautiful .


Taking the oil painting I carefully place it on the wall in my small bedroom before heading to my kit hen to make myself a green smoothie.

Smiling I sit with my feet curled up under me as I sip the nutrient packed drink my mind moving my post for Veroe ..all it need is a quick edit .

 

[amchentai]

*pouts* nooo.....

We lost *'giggles*

Thank you for the salad when you left I snuck in and eat it all.

Aww ok, anyway, I'm glad you liked it!

*Hugs*

Miss talking to you Yeishia!

 

[yeishia]

Aww ok, anyway, I'm glad you liked it!

*Hugs*

Miss talking to you Yeishia!

* giggles*'If you had waited I would have shared it with you.

You are welcome here to chat any time. I wanted this to be a hang out lounge in the beginning it just did not work out that way. People drop off stuff but never stay.

*'whispers* Tis my fault ..as you can see in the Inn i am not very good at the chat/flirt thingy

My IM has been very glitchy of late ..it keeps locking me out saying my password is not valid..YIM wont turn into landscape mode either..

Added to that, and yes I am whining my back is not improving I head off to physio tomorrow. i type lying on my tummy in bed as a rule and that is no longer possible

* hugs you for listening *

 

[amchentai]

* giggles*'If you had waited I would have shared it with you.

You are welcome here to chat any time. I wanted this to be a hang out lounge in the beginning it just did not work out that way. People drop off stuff but never stay.

*'whispers* Tis my fault ..as you can see in the Inn i am not very good at the chat/flirt thingy

My IM has been very glitchy of late ..it keeps locking me out saying my password is not valid..YIM wont turn into landscape mode either..

Added to that, and yes I am whining my back is not improving I head off to physio tomorrow. i type lying on my tummy in bed as a rule and that is no longer possible

* hugs you for listening *

*Returns Hug*

No worries, Though it often says your on Skype and YIM, since I log into them often.
So just letting you know that for some reason it is listing you online.