so things have been progressing since the last time I posted on this thread, and Sir has learned a lot...
Today we visited a place I had never been before. Punishment due to my lack of compliance with a simple request was to be expected on my part. However, today was different.
Sir brought the cane down on my flesh harder than ever before, and it broke me - I actually cried. I have never felt so humbled by anything before, and I was genuinely sorry about my error for the first time... before, we had just been playing, this time it was so real.
When we finished our intense scene, it was like I couldn't connect my brain with what I was feeling, and I couldn't look Sir in his eyes whilst he was close to me stroking my hair. I'm still struggling to explain to myself why the tears rolled so freely down my cheeks, but I do know I love him so much and I will do anything to make sure he is happy with me.
Just wanted to diarise this so I can remember the stages we go through - and look back and try to understand.
