ChloeOfCascadia
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I am 42 now, over a couple decades ago, I was dissatisfied with the appearance and result of male puberty, so, I liked to shave it all off and wear frilly lacy sheer lingerie and look at myself in the mirror.
It was the only time I felt sexy and confident in myself.
But, I was only attracted to women, and this was over 20 years ago, and I wasn't given a very thorough understanding that there are women out there who might be interested in a female presenting person with a penis, I thought they were either lesbians that only wanted other (cisgender) women, or, they wanted male presenting men.
Well, it took decades of dysphoria and dissatisfaction with presenting male and not feeling sexy to realize, I only felt I was sexy when I was female presenting and cross dressing. Or that's when I felt at my most sexy.
So my egg cracked during some online roleplaying sessions and now, I want to be the princess that my lady love desires, and also, the living dildo / vibrator she pleasures herself with. But mostly fingers and tongues and sexual acts more associated with lesbian sex, that is where I find comfort.
I can have a very thrilling evening of romance and sexual adventure without even touching myself or anyone with my penis. That's fine! It all becomes very very erotic foreplay for me.
It was the only time I felt sexy and confident in myself.
But, I was only attracted to women, and this was over 20 years ago, and I wasn't given a very thorough understanding that there are women out there who might be interested in a female presenting person with a penis, I thought they were either lesbians that only wanted other (cisgender) women, or, they wanted male presenting men.
Well, it took decades of dysphoria and dissatisfaction with presenting male and not feeling sexy to realize, I only felt I was sexy when I was female presenting and cross dressing. Or that's when I felt at my most sexy.
So my egg cracked during some online roleplaying sessions and now, I want to be the princess that my lady love desires, and also, the living dildo / vibrator she pleasures herself with. But mostly fingers and tongues and sexual acts more associated with lesbian sex, that is where I find comfort.
I can have a very thrilling evening of romance and sexual adventure without even touching myself or anyone with my penis. That's fine! It all becomes very very erotic foreplay for me.
