The lodge.

[Rayne_Clowd]

*head rests on her shoulder - breathing deeply*

Im trying to be okay, just wanting happiness for my friends, all of this will be okay if only I knew he was okay....

*holds trixa and runs a hand up and down her back soothingly, pressing a soft kiss to her forehead and holding her*

" I know darlin, I do. I hope he will be okay as well and he will be in my thoughts too. But I also know he would not want you tying yourself up in knots worrying about him. Although one of the biggest brats we know ezra is completely selfless in a lot of ways and he would just want you happy" *kisses her cheek*

"all we can do is send all our positive energy and love to him and hope that we one day get a message, but until then lets send him happiness and imagine the best for him ok" smiles softly and hugs her tight again. "I am here if you need me darlin ok"

 

[Trixabell]

Sweetie... you know him better than most. Ezra is one of the most intelligent and talented men all three of us know...

:: waves at Rayne ::

The strongest people I know are submissive and he will be okay sugah...

*holds trixa and runs a hand up and down her back soothingly, pressing a soft kiss to her forehead and holding her*

" I know darlin, I do. I hope he will be okay as well and he will be in my thoughts too. But I also know he would not want you tying yourself up in knots worrying about him. Although one of the biggest brats we know ezra is completely selfless in a lot of ways and he would just want you happy" *kisses her cheek*

"all we can do is send all our positive energy and love to him and hope that we one day get a message, but until then lets send him happiness and imagine the best for him ok" smiles softly and hugs her tight again. "I am here if you need me darlin ok"

Thank you both so much. I honestly really do appreciate your support, it means so much to me.

 

[Rayne_Clowd]

Thank you both so much. I honestly really do appreciate your support, it means so much to me.

Nothing you havent done for me in the past honey, I just wish there was more I could do. Some magic words to make the pain easier to bare. I'am here if you need to talk ok *hugs you close and kisses the top of your head again*

 

[yeishia]

I make my way along the long trail up to the lodge and quietly push open the creaking door standing just inside the threshold I pause gazing around my mind traveling to a time long past...

I smile softly wondering if he will ever be able to find that special man that I had once loved as a friend. He had lost his way and even now all I wanted was his happiness both here and in his real world.

If I could share with him even a small portion of love and happiness I had found with my Dark Angel I truly would.

Smiling softly the only advice I have for him is that the truth and only that would finally set him free...truth takes great courage.

Cleaning off a space on the small table I leave him my small gift. It is a small book in which is inscribed but a single poem.

I kiss the white rose gently and place it atop the book.

Everything has its time.



For everything there is a season,
and a time for every matter under heaven:

a time to be born,
and a time to die;

a time to plant,
and a time to pluck up what is planted;

a time to kill,
and a time to heal;

a time to break down,
and a time to build up;

a time to weep,
and a time to laugh;

a time to mourn,
and a time to dance;

a time to throw away stones,
and a time to gather stones together;

a time to embrace,
and a time to refrain from embracing;

a time to seek,
and a time to lose;

a time to keep,
and a time to throw away;

a time to tear,
and a time to sew;

a time to keep silence,
and a time to speak;

a time to love,
and a time to hate;

a time for war,
and a time for peace.

[Ecclesiastes 3:1-18; ]

a time to share forgiveness...


As I turn to leave I sincerely hope that he will begin again; clean slate, new av, new siggy, new stories... new honesty.


"Be true to the special man that resides deep within you, find him, love him, embrace him; believe in his worth once again my once upon a time never to be forgotten Rose"



I make my way down off his mountain knowing that I shall not return to his Lodge, I am not of his world...I have my own delightful one.​

 

[yeishia]

I had not thought I would return to this lodge again and yet here I was climbing once again into what has once seemed like the gateway to the heavens themselves . I had missed the quietly sincerity of this place, I missed the man who back then had forged it from his very heart.

Pushing open the creaking door I gazed around allowing the memories to wash over me at will. Wiping away a single tear I set to work dusting cleaning and setting the simple room to rights.

The book and rose I had left on my last visit sat undisturbed in the middle of the table.

I smiled sadly...

Sometimes there is no going back,sometimes if one is lucky enough a second chance is offered. I wished that for him with all of my heart.

I placed a white candle in the window hoping that one day it would guide him home again.

 

[FeralNightshade]

It was these hands that built this place.
but not this man.
I feel the battered and scarred remains of my heart and wonder,
How many of the injury's where self inflicted?
At this moment I could just as easily rebuild and feed the fire of hope here, as I could rage at the universe and burn the place to the ground, refuting hope as a waste of time.
so I leave, the time to decide has not yet arrived.