What's the story, morning glory?

your doing a great job stag. {{{hugz}}} for dancing with your pillow...Wondering what comes next!
 
Interesting thread, interesting stories :) I like this thread and have been thinking about writing something in it, but I feel like it'd take me forever to type out. So thanks to the people who have dedicated that time in here to share :)
 
I'm not what you'd call a regular...

I've only posted a handful of times in the last few years but I was relatively active soon after I first joined. I wrote a few stories and got them published here and then my life took a few turns. No drama, just life.

I've been with the same woman for over 15 years (married for 13). We played kinky bedroom games when we were first together but as we aged and put on weight, she became more self conscious and we quit. Then we had a baby. There were complications with the pregnancy and the baby had some health issues. I also went back to grad school and then back to work during that time. I finished grad school at night and I've been working on many other professional and personal certifications as well.

Fast forward to today. The "baby" is in school now. He's wonderfully happy and healthy and has already been identified as gifted. He is absolutely the light of our lives.

We tried to have more children and had two miscarriages instead. It was emotionally devastating for both of us. We've gone through periods of exceptional intimacy and closeness and we've had times when we drifted apart. Right now, we're in one of the 'drift apart' periods but this one is minor by comparison and we're both making an effort to reconnect.

I still get my fix of kink through self-satisfaction, the internet an an occasional play session with my wife. We both have recession-proof jobs, make good (not great) money and are very comfortable. I may soon go back to grad school (again) and I may change careers completely. No matter what happens, we'll be fine and I'll be lurking.
 
A recent development in my life is pretty interesting. Since a community gender bender education event, I have been talking to a very sweet and gorgeous sissy maid named "Kaye". I never thought I would be interested in a D/s situation with a sissy maid, but then again Kaye isn't like normal sissy maids.
While he loves his sissy nature and is very submissive, he also has a dominant side that is very attractive too. In his every day life he is very much a man's man, but when given the chance, he makes one of the sexiest women I have ever seen.
We had a wonderful weekend; I got the chance to paddle him for his birthday and arranged for him to be single tailed by a good friend of mine. It was interesting during our Thanksgiving dinner, though. With both of us having service oriented sides, we made for loads of entertainment when we couldn't decide who should serve whom.
It has been nice, so far, getting to know him and make bonds. Who knows where things will go or even how things will fit into my poly fold with UE and poppet. I'm just glad to have yet another new opportunity to learn more about me and what I want out of this life.
 
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Well I'm just starting my journey really.

After looking up all about it on the internet, I finally realised that this was a part of me that I'd either been denying or had just been waiting to be unleased, and I gathered up the courage to go to the local munch (with my friend for moral support lol). I'd been talking to the Man who organises the group on Yahoo for almost a month before we "met" and we had a play session after the munch which was fun (I still have the briuses just over a week later lol).

We met again on saturday and we discussed him taking me on to train!

It's all very exciting!
 
Ive been in and out of Lit over the years - have submitted quite a few stories based on my life - one day I hope they become published - after someone helps me edit and tidy them up

Ive had my say briefly but this updates everyone as to where I am what I feel and what I think in the present time.

My story? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah lets see

Firstly let me start with a brief background, so as to make the puzzle pieces fit

I was born with Spina Bifida, a mild version, I can walk etc But my control freak of a mother always believed good (read disabled) girls dont do 'that'. Puberty at 8 led me to explore with boys - they were the 'Doctors' I was the 'patient' and with so many surgeries as a child I had no fear nor personal space concepts. I also believed I taught myself to not feel physical pain.(Enjoying pain is a whole 'nother story).

Also,my childhood surgeries would have been an objectification within themselves, as Surgeons are not required to deal with the 'whole' of you just fix the 'part' that needs fixing/mending. Therefore creating a familair comfort zone of sorts when 'objectification' within BDSM was introduced. However for future reference I need to stay away from my 'it' self - my dissociated self as that creates a whole 'nother set of issues.

My father was schizophrenic and my step dad an alcoholic and my mother only ever displayed one emotion, that of anger. Her anger reared it's ugly head often, where I would be 'disciplined' or else she would act out toward my father and later my step father - so neurotic:p

I sometimes think I was the sanest in my family and that I raised myself hence being very maternal and responsible. (I thought subbing would allow me to let go temporarily of having to be responsible - I was wrong).

Fast foward to age 30 I read an advertisement in a local newspaper re Erotic Spanking - I didnt know what it was about but it sounded 'naughty' - I sent away for the magazine, 'Paddles' and subsequently submitted a personal advert.

I was inundated with responses - one of whom became my Dom for 18 months (read Stranger of The Night) from our first meet (sight unseen) where I spent the night, as well as casual play meets with other Doms such as (read Lucy for Lunch).

My curiosity (read my c*nt) always got me in 'trouble'.

Age 32 I left home and moved in with a crossdresser who was NOT Dom, try as he may to 'abuse' me it wasnt in his nature. (Altho' he did take me to a seedy adult cinema once where 4 'dirty old men' buggered me as I 'assumed my position' - on all fours in the Mens toilets then they pissed all over me, as I sat in the stinking urinal. F*ck that was so exciting :D So he was into deviat sex just not BDSM as we know it.)

Around this time I became a hooker - more 'disconnected sex'.

He loved (and continues to love me) too much to hit me whereas both my most recent, now former Dom, an my mother were always saying they loved me hence would/could hit me - she would call it discipline and he would call it abuse but seriously 'a rose by any other name.....'

(See the pattern? The connection?)

My crossdressing lover and I to-ed and fro-ed for 7 years, 2 of which we lived together. But I couldnt make it work and we went on to remain best friends

Its ironic that my most emotionally satisfying longest lasting 'relationship' was one of virtually no sex (he preferred to watch me with his friends...) but pure LOVE - GO FIGURE

So 6 years ago at a gangbang he had arranged I met the ex (Read The Computer Guy). Ex is a married guy and intially I didnt see a problem - we were f*cking - no emotional attachment. He was a very extreme sadistic Dom, sometimes I even thought he leant toward psychopathy or sociopathy atleast but rather than 'flee'. My responsible, maternal, martyr side decided to support and befriend and love him - HELP HIM.

Always putting myself 1) In danger and 2)second to last in regards to caring - I think now having spoken to some online Doms, that the ex wasnt a 'true Dom'. For Example the choking game would conclude with HIS orgasm whereas, others have since expressed shock that 1) the session didnt revolve around MY orgasm and 2) a session revolving around the Ex's orgasm renders him to NOT be in control - dangerous !

The fact he had to jump for the wife really fucked with our D/s dynamics, when I could see the DOORMAT in HIS nature.

He becoming emotionally involved served to f*ck up what was an enjoyable and exciting D/s affair. I allowed myself to feel for him and believe him (big mistake). April '08 I ended it, by June I begun to see a therapist so as NOT to make this mistake again.

In 8 sessions I learnt heaps and continue to learn. I now understand what was with the out of body experiences during the 'abuse', my strongest desire to become 'nothing' now appears to have been my soul's desire speaking to me at a very deep level- which I wish to research and learn more about in time


The stress on my mental and physical health Im still struggling with, mostly manifested into insomnia and I initially thought my subbing days were behind me....

However I believe if I can recognise my mistakes of the past (ie not caring for self first and foremost) that I CAN enjoy being my true self again and allow me to reach my 'potential'.

Hence placing a Personal ad on here for starters - I think to give in to my past mistake and to stop still is to allow my ex to maintain control and liberties over me, neither of which he deserves

So that is my story.......so far - thank you for stopping by and reading

Lucy

http://www.literotica.com/stories/memberpage.php?uid=575911&page=submissions
 
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A bit of an update. My Hogosha and I are doing very well. Things are proving to be just what the doctor ordered and even though we have a few bumps and knocks here and there over all we are doing fabulous.
Our lesbian masochist, poppet has been having some issues with her family and on and off again girlfriend being able to accept us in her life. She is constantly torn between being true to herself- learning more about being a masochist and being the perfect daughter and girlfriend who is not a freak in their eyes. We are trying to be supportive and allow her to come to her own conclusions, however in doing so-by not fighting for her- I fear they are slowly convincing her we indeed are freaks and to drop out of our lives. It is painful to think of her leaving our fold. Things will never be the same without her with us. But moreover I am worried about her loved ones capping off her right to explore and grow as a person. I might not want to lose her, but more importantly I want her to be happy in everything she chooses.
My sissy maid is doing so well. We are growing and learning our places in each others' lives easily and comfortably. It is interesting for the two of us at times. Both being domestic servants, we often conflict on basic day to day things. However, I am learning to set boundaries and staying within our defined roles. The future is still cloudy and nothing is certain, but for now we are blissfully served and serving. I look forward to his next visit in two weeks. We will be going to the monthly play party together and I have a few interesting things in store for him. Lets hope he enjoys it as much as I know I will.

Does anyone else have any updates or stories they want to share?
 
I'm glad you bumped this thread, and its good to hear how your doing. I'm sorry to hear about the situation with poppet, its really too bad.


Nothing has changed very drastically with me. P and I are still together, doing our thang. We often find little conflicts in miscommunication or differences in our understanding of a situation, but everytime this happens and we are angry at each other or hurt, we end up learning just a little bit more about each other and everything gets just a little bit easier.

I'm going home for christamas break next week, and I brought up the possibility of playing with other people while I'm home. Talking through this issue has also been enlightening. At heart I'm pretty monogomous, so its been interesting just trying to figure out for myself how much I would even want to do with other people. We've been talking about it, and I'm looking forward to the conclusion when things will, again, be just a little bit easier.
 
Nothing to report from here.....I have been extermely busy with the work and training courses to have some play-time!

Hopefully in the New Year I will have something to report! ;)
 
interesting reading so i thought i would give it a bumpity bump !
 
So tonight I just turned my world upside down. I left my dominant. This has effectively dismantled our family unit. While he will still top poppet, we have decided he is not what I need in my life. I have now tried the detached unemotional approach to D/s, and I have found that it cannot work for me. I cannot serve without emotions or an emotional development. I require a strong emotional connection and willingness to 'be there' for me. Apathetic service just isn't me. We will remain friends, and that is good. I just hope at some point I find what it is I am looking for.
 
SweetGigi,

I'm so sorry things didn't work out. I know you've been searching hard. I hope what works for you falls into your lap soon.

*HUG*

:rose:
 
So tonight I just turned my world upside down. I left my dominant. This has effectively dismantled our family unit. While he will still top poppet, we have decided he is not what I need in my life. I have now tried the detached unemotional approach to D/s, and I have found that it cannot work for me. I cannot serve without emotions or an emotional development. I require a strong emotional connection and willingness to 'be there' for me. Apathetic service just isn't me. We will remain friends, and that is good. I just hope at some point I find what it is I am looking for.

I'm so sorry that this didn't work out for you, but hopefully this choice will lead you in the right direction and you'll find what you need. :rose:

I recently had a big change, too. Maybe I'll write about it tomorrow after some sleep.
 
My story?...Well each person has their own story, each as different to the other. Mine? The following is a simple précis, the basics I guess you’d say *smiles*

Well, it started many years ago with a lovely childhood and fantastic teenage years on the coast…Then, at 20 years of age I got married to C (on her 18th birthday)…Hey? Guess what?...Lol, it didn’t last!! (Well, only 3 years, anyway). I believe that, obviously upset, being young, strong minded and knowing everything, I got on with my life and had the fun that I should have had for the previous years…and what fun I had!! (but, that is a completely different story!!)…I learned a lot about myself, and other people in this period. The problem I had was that I was attracted to strong willed women, and being strong willed myself, there were a number of electrifying relationships, yet they tended to burn out due to too many similarities and, I guess you could say ‘dominance’ conflicts *smiles*.

The problem was, in my heart, I knew what I was looking for, but my head didn’t always communicate!! Anyway, it was then I met my second wife, S…again, a strong independent thinking woman. Now she had an important job in the city and was a writer of erotic fiction. At first this relationship worked beautifully. We both decided on a life changing move, and got out of the rat race…and had even more fun! We had an understanding, we were equals. We experimented in a lot of different things including the BDSM scene. Another life changing decision!!

Nothing too dramatic at first…a bit of light bondage, looking into different aspects of the scene. Finding some friends with similar interests, going to munches and clubs. But, then it happened again. The ‘understanding’ became stretched, little by little. In private it wasn’t too bad, yet, S wanted me to take the ‘switch’ role in public. At first I complied, but was not totally happy…and became increasingly unhappy with her expectations. She became totally Domme. Yet, I saw myself completely Dom…Well, you can guess the rest. Strangely, it was an amicable split as we recognised the equal qualities of each other, and the fact that it couldn’t work…

So, I was single again. I had a few relationships, not really satisfactory as I couldn’t find what I was looking for…I was wary of immersing myself back into the scene as, although I knew quite a number of people in it, it was not the right time to get actively engaged into this kind of relationship. Then it happened…Only a few months ago…I met my soul mate…and eventually found total happiness!........

__OWNED__ came into my life, quite unexpectedly…I wasn’t looking for anyone at the time, simply biding my time, yet, there she was delivered right to my door…I was and am ecstatic!! She is everything I was seeking, strong in the right places, beautiful, sometimes cheeky and feisty, but always supremely sensual. If I could combine all the best parts of all the women I have ever met then __OWNED__ is it. I have discovered over the years, different types of D’s relationships, some are based on pain, some humiliation, some indifference, some pure power control and some a combination of all the above. Our relationship is a certain amalgam, yet also based on respect, support, trust and more importantly Love. I don’t have a crystal ball (unfortunately), nevertheless, I know that she is the one, my supremely sexy and sometimes submissive girl (She does need more punishments yet!!). I do hope everyone reaches the state of happiness I have now achieved…I am a content Condatis *smiles*
 
So tonight I just turned my world upside down. I left my dominant. This has effectively dismantled our family unit. While he will still top poppet, we have decided he is not what I need in my life. I have now tried the detached unemotional approach to D/s, and I have found that it cannot work for me. I cannot serve without emotions or an emotional development. I require a strong emotional connection and willingness to 'be there' for me. Apathetic service just isn't me. We will remain friends, and that is good. I just hope at some point I find what it is I am looking for.

*hugs* Just saw this post.

I can't see a serious relationship of this sort with someone with whom I do not have a deep connection. Wouldn't work for me either. I'm glad to hear that you are moving to find what is right for you. You'll get there, darlin.
 
What a great story. I'm glad you and your girl are so happy!

:rose:

My story?...Well each person has their own story, each as different to the other. Mine? The following is a simple précis, the basics I guess you’d say *smiles*

Well, it started many years ago with a lovely childhood and fantastic teenage years on the coast…Then, at 20 years of age I got married to C (on her 18th birthday)…Hey? Guess what?...Lol, it didn’t last!! (Well, only 3 years, anyway). I believe that, obviously upset, being young, strong minded and knowing everything, I got on with my life and had the fun that I should have had for the previous years…and what fun I had!! (but, that is a completely different story!!)…I learned a lot about myself, and other people in this period. The problem I had was that I was attracted to strong willed women, and being strong willed myself, there were a number of electrifying relationships, yet they tended to burn out due to too many similarities and, I guess you could say ‘dominance’ conflicts *smiles*.

The problem was, in my heart, I knew what I was looking for, but my head didn’t always communicate!! Anyway, it was then I met my second wife, S…again, a strong independent thinking woman. Now she had an important job in the city and was a writer of erotic fiction. At first this relationship worked beautifully. We both decided on a life changing move, and got out of the rat race…and had even more fun! We had an understanding, we were equals. We experimented in a lot of different things including the BDSM scene. Another life changing decision!!

Nothing too dramatic at first…a bit of light bondage, looking into different aspects of the scene. Finding some friends with similar interests, going to munches and clubs. But, then it happened again. The ‘understanding’ became stretched, little by little. In private it wasn’t too bad, yet, S wanted me to take the ‘switch’ role in public. At first I complied, but was not totally happy…and became increasingly unhappy with her expectations. She became totally Domme. Yet, I saw myself completely Dom…Well, you can guess the rest. Strangely, it was an amicable split as we recognised the equal qualities of each other, and the fact that it couldn’t work…

So, I was single again. I had a few relationships, not really satisfactory as I couldn’t find what I was looking for…I was wary of immersing myself back into the scene as, although I knew quite a number of people in it, it was not the right time to get actively engaged into this kind of relationship. Then it happened…Only a few months ago…I met my soul mate…and eventually found total happiness!........

__OWNED__ came into my life, quite unexpectedly…I wasn’t looking for anyone at the time, simply biding my time, yet, there she was delivered right to my door…I was and am ecstatic!! She is everything I was seeking, strong in the right places, beautiful, sometimes cheeky and feisty, but always supremely sensual. If I could combine all the best parts of all the women I have ever met then __OWNED__ is it. I have discovered over the years, different types of D’s relationships, some are based on pain, some humiliation, some indifference, some pure power control and some a combination of all the above. Our relationship is a certain amalgam, yet also based on respect, support, trust and more importantly Love. I don’t have a crystal ball (unfortunately), nevertheless, I know that she is the one, my supremely sexy and sometimes submissive girl (She does need more punishments yet!!). I do hope everyone reaches the state of happiness I have now achieved…I am a content Condatis *smiles*
 
My story?...Well each person has their own story, each as different to the other. Mine? The following is a simple précis, the basics I guess you’d say *smiles*

Well, it started many years ago with a lovely childhood and fantastic teenage years on the coast…Then, at 20 years of age I got married to C (on her 18th birthday)…Hey? Guess what?...Lol, it didn’t last!! (Well, only 3 years, anyway). I believe that, obviously upset, being young, strong minded and knowing everything, I got on with my life and had the fun that I should have had for the previous years…and what fun I had!! (but, that is a completely different story!!)…I learned a lot about myself, and other people in this period. The problem I had was that I was attracted to strong willed women, and being strong willed myself, there were a number of electrifying relationships, yet they tended to burn out due to too many similarities and, I guess you could say ‘dominance’ conflicts *smiles*.

The problem was, in my heart, I knew what I was looking for, but my head didn’t always communicate!! Anyway, it was then I met my second wife, S…again, a strong independent thinking woman. Now she had an important job in the city and was a writer of erotic fiction. At first this relationship worked beautifully. We both decided on a life changing move, and got out of the rat race…and had even more fun! We had an understanding, we were equals. We experimented in a lot of different things including the BDSM scene. Another life changing decision!!

Nothing too dramatic at first…a bit of light bondage, looking into different aspects of the scene. Finding some friends with similar interests, going to munches and clubs. But, then it happened again. The ‘understanding’ became stretched, little by little. In private it wasn’t too bad, yet, S wanted me to take the ‘switch’ role in public. At first I complied, but was not totally happy…and became increasingly unhappy with her expectations. She became totally Domme. Yet, I saw myself completely Dom…Well, you can guess the rest. Strangely, it was an amicable split as we recognised the equal qualities of each other, and the fact that it couldn’t work…

So, I was single again. I had a few relationships, not really satisfactory as I couldn’t find what I was looking for…I was wary of immersing myself back into the scene as, although I knew quite a number of people in it, it was not the right time to get actively engaged into this kind of relationship. Then it happened…Only a few months ago…I met my soul mate…and eventually found total happiness!........

__OWNED__ came into my life, quite unexpectedly…I wasn’t looking for anyone at the time, simply biding my time, yet, there she was delivered right to my door…I was and am ecstatic!! She is everything I was seeking, strong in the right places, beautiful, sometimes cheeky and feisty, but always supremely sensual. If I could combine all the best parts of all the women I have ever met then __OWNED__ is it. I have discovered over the years, different types of D’s relationships, some are based on pain, some humiliation, some indifference, some pure power control and some a combination of all the above. Our relationship is a certain amalgam, yet also based on respect, support, trust and more importantly Love. I don’t have a crystal ball (unfortunately), nevertheless, I know that she is the one, my supremely sexy and sometimes submissive girl (She does need more punishments yet!!). I do hope everyone reaches the state of happiness I have now achieved…I am a content Condatis *smiles*

You walked in when my world was falling down around me. Offered me friendship and smiles. I never would have thought that I would fall deeply in love with you. You are everything a woman could ask for, you are my everything.

I Love you.
:kiss:
 
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