🧠 What Are Your Intrusive Thoughts Trying to Convince You of Today??

[Nicefella]

Can you find a way to enjoy the fruits of your labour today?

Don’t wait. Seriously, don’t. Be secure, but don’t smother your joy. You deserve to taste life now.

Meanwhile, my own intrusive thoughts are whispering, “Yes, Eva, buy more panties.”

Because I deserve them. And so do you - whatever your version of “panties” may be. Go get them

I’ve always had a hard time rewarding myself in general. I’d work harder than anyone in my family and would spoil myself the least. One year, I earned more than I ever had (or more than anyone at the time I knew) and I still didn’t buy myself the watch I really wanted. Instead, the little boy in me who saw his parents struggle to pay bills bought himself a discount watch that looked something like the one I really really wanted. Unlike my cousin who cashed his first check from the part time job he had and bought himself the cologne we bought wanted. I envied him. And people like him who could spoil themselves.

Until I went to Europe for work about 15 years ago and found Saville Row and bought $10,000 in suits. I felt immediately guilty after, and those suits usually just sit in my closet. I still struggle with spoiling myself but I’m not afraid to do it any more.

Suits, Ties and watches = my version of your panties

 

[morelikeasong]

It’s not going to get better

 

[Nicefella]

It’s not going to get better

Yes it will - just when you least expect it, the light around the corner will emerge and you will be surrounded by bright clean positivity. Even if it is for too little a time, it will get better.

 

[Ssbbw4u1974]

It’s not going to get better

I once asked in a certain type of meeting,
"When is it going to get better?"

"Life doesn't get better; it gets different".
They said.

 

[dkak001]

Can you find a way to enjoy the fruits of your labour today?

Don’t wait. Seriously, don’t. Be secure, but don’t smother your joy. You deserve to taste life now.

Meanwhile, my own intrusive thoughts are whispering, “Yes, Eva, buy more panties.”

Because I deserve them. And so do you - whatever your version of “panties” may be. Go get them

So I do have 'my panties'. The challenge is that if I do enjoy them, I get sick. And if I walk away from everything I feel better too. Yet walking away would be harmful to many.

I know that's cryptic. Alas, it's the best I can share publicly right now.

It's the proverbial rock and hard place.

 

[EvaLane]

I know that's cryptic.

It’s the way I prefer it, never apologize.

Do you think once you stop working towards the proverbial “end”, you’ll be able to indulge without the weight and struggle?

Or would walking away, once and for all, regardless of who it affected, be your choice?

You don’t have to answer. But that’s why I like reading between the lines, I get to examine my own thoughts.

 

[Apisto42]

“Yes, Eva, buy more panties. Model them for lit.”

I fully endorse this intrusive thought.

 

[Mrmphilll2]

To get naked at some point today

 

[PrettyLilPussy19]

It’s not going to get better

Entropy ensures nothing will stay the same (i learned that in school)
Sending big hugs for any situation

 

[Apisto42]

Entropy ensures nothing will stay the same (i learned that in school)
Sending big hugs for any situation

For some reason my brain smooshed “big hugs” into “bugs” and I was like “why is PLP sending ‘bugs’”?

 

[PrettyLilPussy19]

For some reason my brain smooshed “big hugs” into “bugs” and I was like “why is PLP sending ‘bugs’”?

I would never! big booby squishy HUGS

 

[Chillygirl]

I know I should just end things. Delete his contact. But my stupid abandonment issues are telling me to stay just in case, try harder, prove I’m worth the time and effort.

 

[SalaciousMonkey22]

It’s not going to get better

You gotta stop putting symptoms into WebMD girl.

 

[Apisto42]

I know I should just end things. Delete his contact. But my stupid abandonment issues are telling me to stay just in case, try harder, prove I’m worth the time and effort.

Believe yourself.

 

[DannieB]

I will get out in the rain. I will, I will!

 

[AtramentousRex]

I will get out in the rain. I will, I will!

I think this a pretty cool idea. It's too cold for that here though. Dance in the rain for me??

 

[QwertyMaster]

Just go online and window shop for more dice. This time you won't break down and buy another set. Or three.

 

[DannieB]

I think this a pretty cool idea. It's too cold for that here though. Dance in the rain for me??

A little twirl while I splash through muddy puddles

 

[AtramentousRex]

A little twirl while I splash through muddy puddles

Thank you for sharing your intrusive thoughts!

 

[dkak001]

Do you think once you stop working towards the proverbial “end”, you’ll be able to indulge without the weight and struggle?

Or would walking away, once and for all, regardless of who it affected, be your choice?

Sadly, I fear the struggle will always be there.

I do not want to walk away. And that is agony, and perhaps irony of it all. It might be a matter of staying and suffering and not being able to enjoy it, or leaving it all and therefore not being able to enjoy it.

 

[Cruel_summer]

Take a nap, it won’t completely fuck up your sleep schedule

 

[CuriousRick]

Take a nap, it won’t completely fuck up your sleep schedule

I have this same internal conversation every Sunday! lol

 

[QwertyMaster]

Take a nap, it won’t completely fuck up your sleep schedule

Just rest your eyes for a few minutes. You definitely won't fall asleep.

 

[Cruel_summer]

Just rest your eyes for a few minutes. You definitely won't fall asleep.

Uh huhhh

 

[barefootgirl69]

I know I should just end things. Delete his contact. But my stupid abandonment issues are telling me to stay just in case, try harder, prove I’m worth the time and effort.

Delete it. He's not worth the energy or the trigger that makes you think you need to try harder. If he needs to or wants to, he still has ways of finding you.

You're worth so much more than this, and if you have to  prove it to someone, he's not worth having a chair at your table.