A need, a longing, a hidden desire.

[Merelan]

I stiffen as his arms wrap around me, but do not dare to pull away.

“Kitten my dear sweet kitten you do not understand love. A session is when we make love when I am dominate and you are submissive. I told you to do something and you wanted to see what would happen if you did not.”
Trying to turn he holds me tight.

His scent wafts over me, his nakedness presses into me. I want to ry, to have him hold me. How childish I have been.

“ I want you more than any woman I have known yet I must also educate you in this world you seek. This is not some game where I use you then discard you. It is based on trust., You trust me not to harm you, to meet your needs. I trust you to do as you are instructed.”
He slowly turns me, a tear slides down his cheek. My hand lifts and almost touches it. it's crystalline perfection posed hanging, ready to fall. His words striking me deep.

“I will be here any time you want to be with me but you must learn that this is not a game we are playing but a very serious relationship…………… The decision to start a session is yours but once started it is your responsibility to obey me. you can also end a session any time you want. This one is ended because you do not trust me to do as I ask.”
Not a game, not a session. He really, truly wanted me still? I see it, sense it.

Another tear slides. I want to kiss them away. I have hurt him. Shaking my head, but he continues, his words like ice.

“But this time together must be at an end till you can trust me.”

Silently I pull on my clothes, his hands untwine them and help me. He pulls my hair back into a loose ponytail and kisses my nose. Somehow he is dressed and we leave. I try to speak, but his finger on my lips silences me.
I dwell on his words, my body siking into exhaustion.

In minutes we are at my home. He lets me out and unlocks my door. I function as an automaton. He briefly kisses me, touching my cheek and whispers something about tomorrow, but I hear and feel through a fog.

My motions are automatic now, I lock up, check the phone, nothing, as usual.
Then off to bed. Stripping down, but not pulling on the usual flannel. I lay naked, still smelling of sex, and him. My body calls to me. My hands wander freely. Touching and arousing. remembering his touch, his kiss, his eyes.

His eyes. Watching me even now.
I pause, stop, holding myself on the brink, then crash through and cry out. released from the silence imposed by my confusion.
Falling instantly into a deep, dream filled sleep.

The next day I go in, feeling. Every movement of the cotton on my skin. Tasting the coffee, as if for the first time. Hearing the birds in the early morning, as if never before have they sung.

The smell of the books entices me, arouses me more. I delay opening the research room, not wanting to remember, yet, only he is in my thoughts. My hands shake as my patrons talk and chatter. One had seen us. On and on she goes about his sexy smile, and surely it couldn't have been just business. I was too pretty and smart for just anyone.

I smile.

'It was business." Why lie? Because I wanted to keep this thing close, and precious. Secret and safe, as if it is a soap bubble that will burst.
I freshen my makeup and rebrush my hair. Wishing I had taken the time for a long shower.

Refilling my mug and settling into routine, my thoughts gathered tight to do my chores. But wnadering now and again. How and when shall I see him again? Will he call? Show up?
Is he watchign now.

Oh for pete's sake, get a grip. Knocking over my mug and spilling it down the table. It isn't as if you have never been fucked before.

But not like this, never like this. Not fucking, but being, being.. created? No. Made aware, so aware of my body and needs, and his.

No, never like this. Wiping it up with a towel.

 

[cgraven]

The night was long and lonely and all I could think about was Leisle. I worked half heartily through the morning then at noon I called the library.

“Miss Malling please, Charles Du Lac calling.”

There was a pause on the line then Leisle voice soft as a summer’s breeze was there.

“Kitten listen do not say any thing………If you trust me go to the women room and remove your panties and bar, place them in your purse. Then spend the day out in the library go to your for the next three days wearing just your blouse and skirt. Friday night come over to my place and be prepared to spend the week end.”


I hung up the phone and waited for Friday night to come would Leisle come?

 

[Merelan]

I wasn't even listening when the phone rang, absorbed finally in some research for a student.
“Kitten listen do not say any thing………If you trust me go to the women room and remove your panties and bra, place them in your purse. Then spend the day out in the library go to your for the next three days wearing just your blouse and skirt. Friday night come over to my place and be prepared to spend the week end.”
Click.

Flushing beet red. How could he mean that? Did he? I finished the page I was doing and got up slowly, meandering my way to the ladies room. Once in I threw the lock and stood leaning against the wall. Had he been watching me?
I used the bathroom and washed my hands, having pulled off my panties. Stuffing them in my purse. I felt naked. The breeze as I walked stimulated me. My face was flushed. Looking down I realized I couldn't remove my bra, not without everyone seeing. My blouse was sheer. But he hadn't asked, his voice was a demand. One I wanted so much to please.
Why? Why was it important to me to follow his every word.

To see that look in his eyes. The one of pride in my strength to obey. Slowly I pulled it off. My nipples hardening in the chill of the ac. Anyone who looked could see, see I was nude underneath.
I stood watching as I breathed. They seemed alive. Softly I touched them through the blouse, almost moaning at the fire that streaked through me.
God, my pussy wet, and my nipples rubbing against the silk of the blouse. I needed to cum even now. What would it be like by the end of the day?
Without thinking my hand slipped down my skirt and touched my bareness, instantly I was fingering her and in seconds cumming. Falling against the sink as the waves overwhelmed me.. Barely able to stand as I watched my body shudder in orgasm.
Slowly coming back down and smelling myself in the air. The scent of sex heady and strong. Washing my hands, and my pussy I finshed, stuffing my bra in my purse. I would try to obey.
Once out in the library I answered a couple questions from the kds and then strode into my office. Yes, there. grabbing up my cardigan and wrapping it around me.
I would follow the letter of his words. Tomorrow dressing more appropriately for this task.
The rest of the day I felt eyes on me, though there were none. I seemed nude to the world, though no one knew.
The next and the next passed, without word from him. At night i would lay there and cum and cum, trying to ease this hunger. But nothing worked. Not even reading my favorite stories, or playing with the few toys I had gottent he nerve to buy over the years. Nothing could make me feel as whole and wild as he had.
Though it was hard, I obeyed, making sure the shirts and vest covered me. I went shopping Thrusday night for something new, and wild to wear. But ended up with simple dresses, and a sheer camisole night gown with a matching robe.
He did not seem the leather and chains kind, and neither was I.
Wearing ,my hair up in a twist I finally finished the day. nervous and confused, and not fully aware of what I was doing. It was almost closing time. Was I suppose to go to him? Or was he meeting me here?

 

[cgraven]

Friday afternoon rolled around as the week had agonizingly slipped away, my kitten had obeyed, I had watch her from afar, and was pleased. I dialed the library 5 minutes before closing.

“Leisle you have done well. Come to my house, leave your hair Up I like it the long line of your neck, quite pleasing. Where our sheer blouse, No sweater this time and pick up a bottle of your favorite wine before you come over.”

I pause and let my instructions sink in.

“Now tell me now you felt the last three days.”

 

[Merelan]

I knew it was him before I even reached for the phone.

“Leisle you have done well. Come to my house, leave your hair Up I like it the long line of your neck, quite pleasing. Where our sheer blouse, No sweater this time and pick up a bottle of your favorite wine before you come over.”
I blushed as I knew he had seen me, and known me. His few words meaning more then any others.



“Now tell me now you felt the last three days.”

Swallowing I tried to anser.

"Nude, yet, covered by you. Bare to the world, yet hidden in your desire and safety."

 

[cgraven]

“Leisle nude is a good thing, make your skirt very short, so the clerk see your lovely, long, shapely legs., your blouse sheer, to high light your firm proud breasts.”

I pause

“Will you dance for me.?”

 

[Merelan]

Dance for him? Here? no, later.

"Later, if you wish, dance with me?" Trying to keep the conversation light. My last patrons were waiting asI talked, and they could hear my side. I turned but tangled the cord in my arms.

 

[cgraven]

“No my dear not with me but for me. I long to see your hands sliding over your body, your fingers opening your blouse, one button at a time, then easing your skirt down over your hips.”

My voice is soft and sultry, a sensual whisper.

‘To see you naked on your knees at my feet.... Of yes Leisle…… Hurry Kitten…….Give the package store keeper just a glimpse of your beauty when you buy the wine….. I’ll be waiting for you Kitten”

 

[Merelan]

We said good bye and I closed up. Making sure everything was set for the weekend. I was taking it off, to spend with him, hopefully.
It was the first time ever I wasn't working and I felt odd leaving, but too excited to worry.

Once at the store I fidgeted with the wine on the shelves. What would he like?
No, he had told me to bring my favorite. There. Americana Crystal Lake. A smooth white that allowed the true flavour of the grape in. And a small bottle of port, for after dinner.
The guy behind the counter was the owner's son, barely old enogh to work here. I had seen him watching me, but tried to ignore it. It felt like his eyes could see I was without panties, and bra.
Then remembered what I had been told. To let him see a little. But, not him. I couldn't.
But leaned over a little when I paid, praying he wouldn't look. He did, right down the v of the blouse. Blushing as he turned away. His pants tight over his crotch. I had done that?
What if he knew where I was heading and to what? Licking my lips as he lightly touched my hand with the change. Then tossing my head and leaving. Wondering if he would think of me later, alone.
The drive was short, but it seemed like an eternity. Gathering up my bag, and the one from the shop. Along with the yellow rose I had been unable to resist. Then having to set them all down as I reached for the bell. Waiting, and waiting for him to answer.
Where was he?

 

[cgraven]

I let Leisle stand on the door step for five minutes each one an eternity for me. I answered the door finally with two wine glasses in hand and my lips brushed hers in greeting, my tongue gliding across her full lower lip. This was our only physical contact.

“Leisle you look lovely this evening Come in dear.”

I escorted Leisle to the living room my eyes watching the sway of her body and I grew excited just watching her.

“Give me the wine I shall chill it”

When I return my eyes meet hers , a tender smile creases my lips. As the room fills with soft sensual music.

“Leisle I believe your where going to dance for me Kitten?”

 

[Merelan]

There, as he answered finally. Starting to speak, but silenced but his lips. A low moan escapes as my lips part.
Chill the wine? Oh I am holding weine still. Exchanging the bottle for a glass he hands me.
Dance?
"Now?" Sipping the wine. A fine one. Far superiour to my silly bottle.

Longing to throw myself into his arms and be held. But he wants me to dance. There is no music.
Is there?
In my head a stream of something starts. Low and slow. Sipping the wine, then setting it down I sway. Moving past him and into the room. My eyes close slowly as i let it take control. My hands run up my body to my face, touching it, a finger to my lips to silence myself. Then with a tug I let my hair fall, shaking it around me. The curls all wild.
I find him and our eyes meet. One hand on the top button, already aroused my nipples stand out, and I know he sees.
"Slow and sensuous, or shall I bump and grind for thee?"

 

[cgraven]

I watch as Leisle hips start to sway, her feet moving to an ancient rhythm, she hears in her head. The low, sultry, music slowly fills the room. Leisle finger glides across her lips, her fingers toy with the top button of her blouse, her nipples diamond hard strain against the thin fabric of her blouse long for freedom. Her hair tumbling wild and free loosed from the confines of the proper Liberian quaff.

"Slow and sensuous, or shall I bump and grind for thee?"

“Kitten Slow and sensuous”

I watch as Leisle dances a smile spreading across my face. for she pleases me so.

 

[Merelan]

Slowly I let the beat of my heart move me. Unbuttoning one, then the next, slowly swaying and twisting to tease and please him. His smile, his eyes twinkling as they beheld me. Doing my best to entice him. Wanting him half as aroused as I was.
For my body was alive with the thought of his touch. Of his smile, his smile. My throat felt dry and licked my lips. Anticipating the things to come. I thought I knew what I was doing.

But did I? He was so much more wiser and knowing then I. For once I felt a child, a safe and protected one though. For here in his gaze, and hopefully in his arms, I was safe and cherished. I hoped not entirely safe though.
I slowly finished the blouse letting it fall open, only, my breasts holding it where it was. Could I please him? Make him happy?
Yes, for I saw his arousal. His pants tight as it showed. My breath coming quicker, my body making love to him from here. My eyes meeting his. Lips forming my plea.

Please.

 

[cgraven]

I see Leisle hands move her body swaying, supple sensual and oh so desirable. Her blouse hangs open her ridge nipples holding it in place her desire plainly visible upon her face as the tip of her tongue glides across her parched lips her eyes pleading with mine. the unspoken plea.

”Please”

Slowly I rise and walk to Leisle for her need is great, and I know she is frighten, eager to please and be pleased. The back of my hand caresses her cheek, then strokes her hair, I take her open blouse and slip it from her shoulders. Leisle is now naked to the waist and my lips bend to worship one nipple then the other. My arms cross behind her back and I press her Lyons to my groin, my hard on pressed to her belly.


I kiss, nibble, suckle, and even gently bite those taunt buds till Leisle breath comes in short pants.


“Kitten Make love to me with your mouth.”

This request had ended the last meeting as she had hesitated, our whole future rode on her decision now but I gave not hint to the import of this moment.

 

[Merelan]

My head falls back as he holds me, suckling. My fingers in his curls, pulling him closer. Crying out in frustration as he pulls away. His arms wrapping about me, holding me to his hardness, then pushing me away again.
“Kitten Make love to me with your mouth.”

Yes. Instantly dropping to my knees and reaching for his pants. This was where he sent me home, where I had teased and lingered, not obeying. but I wanted it, more then anything.
Groaning as I struggled with the belt, button, the zipper sticking. Fate was giving me no help. Yearning to rip them off to see him bare, feel his silken shaft at my lips.
Finally, and pulling downwards, releasing him. First one leg, then the other carefully folding them and setting them aside. Just his boxers. But his hard one tenting the front. Trying not to laugh, not in ridicule but pure ecstasy. Sure I wore a stupid grin. Nuzzling him through the fabric. Inhaling his scent. Pausing long enough to catch my breath, and try to still my heart. Looking up and meeting his eyes, and getting lost in their depths. My hands tugging as I pulled him free, pushing the cloth aside so I might have him.

At last! My heart rejoicing for in my hands was his treasure, beauty. My eyes closing as I relished the smoothness, the masculine scent, licking tiny licks as I teased myself with bits of his flavour. Engulfing the head and sucking, meeting his eyes again.

 

[cgraven]

Kitten’s head falls back a soft moan escapes her lips. Yes It is Kitten now Leisle the strong, capable woman banished for the time being and my Kitten here for what she truly needs and wants.

At my words she instantly drops to her knees. There is no hesitation my hand strokes her hair. There is a pleased smile upon my face as she franticly struggles strip my trousers from me. At last it is done, among a hale of frustrated groans and fumbling fingers.

Kitten’s breath is warm and moist as she nuzzles me through the thin cotton of my boxers and with each breath I grow harder with my desire for her. She looks up our eyes meet and mine smile my approval at her obedience and delightful efforts to obey, my hand caresses her cheek.

Kitten’s soft dainty hand holds me, the tip of my cock a breath from her lips pre cum shining on the velvet helmet.

Her soft pink tongue dart out in the first tentative moves, I moan my pleasure at the contact, her soft lips slowly engulf my cock and I am in heaven as I enter the warm sensual confines of here sweet mouth. Again our eyes meet..

Kitten You please me, you are ther best kitten in the entire world.”

My words praise her, her beauty, her obeisance. I speak of how she excites me merely by walking into a room. Then I am lost in the sweet glory of Leisle mouth.

 

[Merelan]

My heart sings as he speaks. Thrilled, excited beyond words that I please him.

Wanting to take him all and show him how expert i am, but his hand slows me, makes me follow his rhythym. Slowly I get it, easy, take it easy. Enjoy the feel of him sliding in and out. My throat opening, my tongue swirling. Catching stray precum drops, their sweetness almost intoxicating. Moaning as I move my hips with the motions of my head. As if he is fucking all of me through my mouth.

 

[cgraven]

My kitten throat opens to me, her tongue swirling, catching the tip of my cock, teasing the tip with her velvet tongue, moaning, as she moves her hips with the motions of her head. Leisle's whole body is engulfed in making love to me her mouth, the welcoming portal. My hands caress her silken mane, my pleasure expressed in a guttural, primeval, groans as I grow ever larger in her welcoming, loving mouth, and throat that so excites me.

With every suckling motion I come ever closer to spewing my love deep within her throat. Finally I can no longer resist her loving ministrations and I thrust forward, as her head bobs down swallowing me one last time as my seed explodes deep with in her throat.

I scream my pleasure and my love for “Kitten” as I cum violently, filling her mouth and throat.

 

[Merelan]

His hands tighten and hs thrusts are harder. Barely abe to breathe I try to keep up. Inwardly rejoicing as he cums. My thmouth then throat filled. Swallowing as fast as I can, trying to take it all.
I know I must look a sight, tears in my eyes, cum on my lips. My hair a mess from his fngers. Yet when I look up and meet his eyes, he too has tears. And the look in them is not rejection but one of loving.
Slowly I lick him clean, though soon he pushes me away. Whispering he is too sensitive. Nuzzling his hand i let him relax, willing myself to slow down also.
For we have all weekend.

 

[cgraven]

We lay there together both coming down from a sexual high. Leisle “My Kitten” naked to the waist, half dressed half free of the life that binds and constricts her fiery nature. I talk of the little things she does and how they please me how I love her hair up, her long delicate neck naked to my touch. The swell of her firm breast, how the way she moves excite me.

I whisper all the things I plan to do to her over the weekend, and I watch her reaction at her body being made love to in ways that till this moment never even accrued to her. I see her blush and know how shy she really is.

“Now Kitten tell me what you wish to experience next, but before you do I believe that you still need to finish your dance, then you may sit at my feet and tell me of your desiers.”

I slowly stand, extending a hand to help Kitten to her feet, then again I take my seat and watch as she stand before me.

 

[Merelan]

I was distracted as I tried to dance. The song gone from my head.
Tell him? Tell him what?
My fantasies, my desires? The dark secrets I had kept hidden. No, I was not ready to share. Not with a stranger.
But then I met his eyes, those devil eyes. And I knew, no matter what he wanted I would do it, try my best. For to see them looking at me with such a shine, a pride even. No one had ever looked at me like that. He was not a stranger, for years, my lifetime, he had haunted me. Those eyes demanding only the best. Making me work harder at my studies, be more the Me I wanted. To seek only the best in art, friends, and lovers. And now they had come to claim me.
Frightened at my thoughts, I should walk away right now. Pausing in my dance. Feeling suddenly empty and hallow. Dead inside.

No, it mattered very much. I was nude, somehow having stripped the rest of the clothing from me. I saw it at my feet, but did not remember dropping it.
I knelt then. Silent, reaching up for his hands. Needing his strength.

Words were my living, my livelyhood. But right now, there were none to express my feelings. Yet, he demanded it. Again he was making me grow.
"I wish for nothing but you. To please and serve you. To see you smile, and know I did that. To be able to reach out, and know you are mine." Looking up, brushing the curls back from my face. His hands tightned, but he stayed silent.
Swallowing hard.

"I wish.." swallowing again, and again. "I wish to be your, your woman. Not slave. For they do not think, only obey. And you need a woman to wear that you can show off and be proud of. I am her. I am the one, for you made me such. All my life I have striven to be the best I could be, never settling at anything. Searching for something I thought I would never find. You." Again I looked up and saw he too had tears in his eyes.
"I desire pleasure, to be made love to, fucked, tormented. Bound and bent to your will. To be forced to experience things I do not have the strength to do alone. Then to know, in my deepest heart, that I please you,. and pleasure you too. To be bound to you hand and heart.. I .. I..." But could not continue for I was weeping silently now. And buried my head in his lap. His hands in my hair. Had I frightened him off with my intensity. But he had asked, and I could only answer in truth.
But had I lost him?

 

[cgraven]

Leisle’s movements are graceful as she finishes her dance her, skirt pooled around her feet yet she is some how distracted her face at first quizzical. Her words come slowly, haltingly as she struggles to find the words

"I wish for nothing but you…………………….. the emotions of years of pent up long now trying to break through the nervous swallowing , the toying with a stray curl at her forehead

I Wish………………….. I wish to be your, your woman, not slave, for they do not think, only obey, and you need a woman to wear, that you can show off and be proud of. I am her. I am the one, for you made me such. All my life I have striven to be the best I could be, never settling at anything. Searching for something I thought I would never find, You”


Leisle looks up into my eyes from her position kneeling at my feet, her eyes shimmering with tears. Those tears where mirrored in my own sad eyes.

"I desire pleasure, to be made love to, fucked, and tormented. Bound and bent to your will. To be forced to experience things I do not have the strength to do alone. Then to know, in my deepest heart, that I please you,. and pleasure you too. To be bound to you hand and heart.. I .. I..."

Her head is now buried in my lap and her tears flow freely. My hand is soft on her hair resting , then gentle stroking the bound silken tresses.

How do I answer her how do I make her understand that I have searched for her all my life. Yes there had been others and they had come and gone their needs met, yet none satisfied or fulfilled me as Leisle does. In the end there is but one thing I can say….

“Dear Kitten I have searched for you all my life””

 

[Merelan]

Instant calm fills me, his hand petting me, his words engraved in my heart.

“Dear Kitten I have searched for you all my life””

Nuzzling his hand, licking at hs fingers. Feeling more and more the Kitten he has named me. Pushing my way between his legs so that I rub against him. My body enflamed again with his touch.
Wanting to laugh to cry to shout my feelings. But instead...

"Even if Kitten is not always the good little kitten you deserve." Suddenly feeling teasing and coy. If she likes to touch you" lettling my hands run down his body, fingernails lightly scraping.

"Taste you." Licking at his nose, his ears.

 

[cgraven]

My kitten is so happy now her joy contagious. She nuzzles my hand her pink little tongue licking my fingers and slowly she adopts the demeanor of a playful kitten. The innocent play, almost childlike its joy and simplicity show a happier more relaxed Leisle than I have ever seen all the expectations, demands of her day to day life put on the shelf for a bit now she can be the free spirit she so longs to be.

I smile down at My Kitten as she nuzzles her way between my legs rubs her body against me, I tussle her hair laugh at her antics.

"Even if Kitten is not always the good little kitten you deserve…………… If she likes to touch you.”

Her hand run across my thighs her nails lightly scrapes my skin rekindling the fires of my passion for her.

"Taste you."


Leisle draws her body sensually, seductively up mine to lick at my nose and ears.

“Yes even then Kitten, even when I must be stern with my kitten I will always love her.”

My hands cup her face my lips seek hers in a deep soul felt kiss my manhood rubs and nudges along her belly poking ant the base of her firm breasts. I stand drawing Leisle up with me catch her behind the knees and lift her into my arms. Holding her close to me.

“Kitten tell me what you want?”

 

[Merelan]

Tell me whatbyou want?
Is it not obvious?

'I hunger, crave. You. make love to me. I need to be filled and taken, claimed, marked with your scent.' All the while rubbing against him, letting him feel the heat of my body, and what he has done to me.