Are most bi married men in the closet?

Married to an amazing woman for almost 30 years. Great sex life. Love women, always have and will.

Out of nowhere about 6 years ago I found myself getting aroused at gay and bi MMF porn. She didn’t know. At the same time, she began to do a lot of anal play with me. My curiosity is rampant these days, but she doesn’t know. She may have suspicions, but hasn’t said anything. I wanted to tell her, but I’m afraid she’ll either have a nervous breakdown or leave me or kick me out.

I have a decent amount of friends (heterosexual) around me, a fairly prominent public career, and a wife and kids. I get shit scared thinking about what would happen if they knew, how they’d treat me differently, how they would look at me.

In the last six months, with apps such as Sniffies, I have moved close to my first encounter with another male, to satisfy the curiosity within me. Every time I get close, a wave of guilt and fear take over, and I delete the app and my profile, and do my best to tell myself that I’m heterosexual. No clue why I feel like I do.

I don’t want a relationship with another man, I don’t find anything about them attractive whatsoever. That being said, I’m curious about how a cock feels in my hand as I get it hard. How it would be to suck one. And, for how much I like anal play, how one would feel in my ass.

I even tried to slip in a casual conversation with my wife where I make up a story that I had a bisexual dream just to see her reaction. She kind of laughs it off, not really saying anything but not passing it on as okay.

Maybe one day, maybe not. I just keep having the people in my life go through my mind as a guilty wave of emotion whenever I get close to moving into a first experience.

Still in the closet, and not looking like I’m getting out anytime soon.
 
Married to an amazing woman for almost 30 years. Great sex life. Love women, always have and will.

Out of nowhere about 6 years ago I found myself getting aroused at gay and bi MMF porn. She didn’t know. At the same time, she began to do a lot of anal play with me. My curiosity is rampant these days, but she doesn’t know. She may have suspicions, but hasn’t said anything. I wanted to tell her, but I’m afraid she’ll either have a nervous breakdown or leave me or kick me out.

I have a decent amount of friends (heterosexual) around me, a fairly prominent public career, and a wife and kids. I get shit scared thinking about what would happen if they knew, how they’d treat me differently, how they would look at me.

In the last six months, with apps such as Sniffies, I have moved close to my first encounter with another male, to satisfy the curiosity within me. Every time I get close, a wave of guilt and fear take over, and I delete the app and my profile, and do my best to tell myself that I’m heterosexual. No clue why I feel like I do.

I don’t want a relationship with another man, I don’t find anything about them attractive whatsoever. That being said, I’m curious about how a cock feels in my hand as I get it hard. How it would be to suck one. And, for how much I like anal play, how one would feel in my ass.

I even tried to slip in a casual conversation with my wife where I make up a story that I had a bisexual dream just to see her reaction. She kind of laughs it off, not really saying anything but not passing it on as okay.

Maybe one day, maybe not. I just keep having the people in my life go through my mind as a guilty wave of emotion whenever I get close to moving into a first experience.

Still in the closet, and not looking like I’m getting out anytime soon.
Best of luck with this. Hopefully you'll find a discreet buddy.
 
Married to an amazing woman for almost 30 years. Great sex life. Love women, always have and will.

Out of nowhere about 6 years ago I found myself getting aroused at gay and bi MMF porn. She didn’t know. At the same time, she began to do a lot of anal play with me. My curiosity is rampant these days, but she doesn’t know. She may have suspicions, but hasn’t said anything. I wanted to tell her, but I’m afraid she’ll either have a nervous breakdown or leave me or kick me out.

I have a decent amount of friends (heterosexual) around me, a fairly prominent public career, and a wife and kids. I get shit scared thinking about what would happen if they knew, how they’d treat me differently, how they would look at me.

In the last six months, with apps such as Sniffies, I have moved close to my first encounter with another male, to satisfy the curiosity within me. Every time I get close, a wave of guilt and fear take over, and I delete the app and my profile, and do my best to tell myself that I’m heterosexual. No clue why I feel like I do.

I don’t want a relationship with another man, I don’t find anything about them attractive whatsoever. That being said, I’m curious about how a cock feels in my hand as I get it hard. How it would be to suck one. And, for how much I like anal play, how one would feel in my ass.

I even tried to slip in a casual conversation with my wife where I make up a story that I had a bisexual dream just to see her reaction. She kind of laughs it off, not really saying anything but not passing it on as okay.

Maybe one day, maybe not. I just keep having the people in my life go through my mind as a guilty wave of emotion whenever I get close to moving into a first experience.

Still in the closet, and not looking like I’m getting out anytime soon.
Very nicely stated, and your description fits so many of us. Thanks and best wishes.
 
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