Art and Thoughts

[39_Keeper]

Here Again

I am humbled by your words - by your views - by the touch that could happen with sharing

I have missed the exhibition of that side of myself - of revealing my darkness - of the flame that burns in that darkness - the heat that can only be felt between lovers --

I can understand that it is to give - for the desires of others -- but it is in my nature to lead - to know that you follow me -

I can see you - like this beauty before me - looking for direction in this colorful world -- the colors that are mine to mix - the tale that is mine to tell - the tale that reveals me - that bares me - as the submissive bares herself before the one that she choses to give her gift too.

So I thank you for your gifts of your words - and look forward to giving you the gifts of my vision.

John "Z"

 

[39_Keeper]

Windows

Windows of the soul are our eyes - or is it the way we see things?
If I show you what is beauty to me - do you have a better understanding of me - can I share it like that - or do you still have your own idea of beauty - hence we are just agreeing on what is beauty.

How do I share my soul with you - how do I show you love - how do I make the colors surround us?

Marcy Playground
Marcy Playground (1997)
Sex and Candy

Hangin' round downtown by myself
And I had so much time
To sit and think
about myself
And then there she was
Like double cherry pie
Yeah there she was
Like disco superfly
I smell sex and
candy here
Who's that lounging
in my chair
Who's that casting
devious stares
In my direction
Mama this surely
is a dream


I always liked that line - "who's that casting devious stares in my direction" - it is a way of touching me - is to look at me - and smile in a devious way - it is a shared thought - for my mind is always working in devious ways.

 

[39_Keeper]

Offer

"You Took The Words Right Out Of My Mouth (Hot Summer Night)"
From the album Bat Out Of Hell sung by Meatloaf(1977)

BOY: On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses?

GIRL: Will he offer me his mouth?

BOY: Yes

GIRL: Will he offer me his teeth?

BOY: Yes

GIRL: Will he offer me his jaws?

BOY: Yes

GIRL: Will he offer me his hunger?

BOY: Yes

GIRL: Again, will he offer me his hunger?

BOY: Yes!

GIRL: And will he starve without me?

BOY: Yes!

GIRL: And does he love me?

BOY: Yes

GIRL: Yes

BOY: On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses?

GIRL: Yes

BOY: I bet you to say that to all the boys.


Of course my own expansion to this would be "would you offer me your Breasts" -- for it is the offering of the womanly flesh of the breast that I think is the most feminine of offerings - offering their softness -- the act of suckling - even be it dry suckling or the offer of milk - is an act of giving of life - nurturing and loving - graceful peace is given when a man latches on to his partner with his lips - the heat - the contrast to the breast and the nipple - the tongue and the lips - and the rest of a man's body - it is so intimate of a offering -- so --------would you offer me your breast?

 

[39_Keeper]

Through the smoke

Through the smoke of tattered dreams - of nights unsatisfied by sleep or love - my mind drifts and fitfully always sees objects of my desires through the haze.

Out of my reach - beyond my touch -

Teasing me --

my hand reaches for the throb of my eager yearning --

I satisfy myself -- it is a hollow explosion - of expression with out the expansion of the dream - the dream - out of reach - beyond my touch -

 

[39_Keeper]

Rushing

Rushing to bed -- no - I am alone -- rushing to the memories - yes -- and are they memories if we have never touched in the flesh - because we have touched - Minds - erotic thoughts - can't you feel me pushing inside of you? - when you close your eyes - after you read my words - and you flex those perineal muscles - don't you feel my thickness, can't you hear my breathing - and how the temperature of the room actually increases with the energy that we pour into our love making?

So are these future memories - that we are rushing too?

 

[Sweet_emOcean]

I am left speechless...

Just gorgeous keeper!

 

[lancewannabe]

Originally posted by Sweet_emOcean
I am left speechless...

Just gorgeous keeper!

I'm with Sweet_Em.... Keeper, you have a wonderful way with words.

Your images are absolutely fantastic! Keep posting.

 

[bearlee]

I'm with Sweet_Em.... Keeper, you have a wonderful way with words.

Your images are absolutely fantastic! Keep posting.

I actually found this thread last night and want to echo the sentiments of Em and lance

 

[Galene]

Re: Through the smoke

Through the smoke of tattered dreams - of nights unsatisfied by sleep or love - my mind drifts and fitfully always sees objects of my desires through the haze.

Out of my reach - beyond my touch -

Teasing me --

my hand reaches for the throb of my eager yearning --

I satisfy myself -- it is a hollow explosion - of expression with out the expansion of the dream - the dream - out of reach - beyond my touch -

Amazing!

Thank you for sharing your fantasy world

 

[39_Keeper]

Never Break the Chain

Listen to the wind blow
Down comes the night

Run in the shadows
Damn your love
Damn your lies

Break the silence
Damn the dark
Damn the light

And if
You don't love me now
You will never love me again
I can still hear you saying
You would never break the chain. (Fleetwood Mac)



Yes - there is a silence in the darkness -- with out the light -- to break that silence is to break out - break our of that particular chain - movement is freedom - speech is freedom - voyeuristic opportunities are freedoms -

If you don't break the chain - you are in perfect submission

to give perfect submission you have to trust - be trusted - yes damn the Love that leads to lies - that make you break your chain - Damn the light that now shines and reveals the absence of you -

They are memories only -- of you saying you would never break the chain.

 

[39_Keeper]

Addictions

My addictions are the fantasy of the flesh -- or the warmth of the skin - the contrast of two bodies next to each other - but I also like to celebrate that contrast more - think of the coldness of steel when it is right next to your skin for the first time - but then it warms -- the contrast goes away --

Think of the act of sex too - the invading nature of the act - yet - that slips away to a point where (as some people have called it) making the beast with two backs

So the concept of contrast itself - has a changing effect - things can't be forever in contrast -for all elements change -and with proximity - things merge and become one --

oneness is the opposite of contrast --

but some times -- I think too much --

I think because my mind wanders -- is haunted - is seeking - looking to find the beauty in contrast always - seeking the oneness with love and beauty.

 

[39_Keeper]

Waves

Waves of colors -- I see -- I look at you and see something else - I see a moment in time - I see that moment stretched out - I look often back at that moment and relive it - I sense it - I touch it - Is it the same? If I take out a penny out of my pocket and look at it often and rub it between my fingers - doesn't it wear - doesn't it tarnish? Doesn't it start to show different characteristics?

So when I look at an image of you - is it that moment in time - or has it been changed by me - purified or corrupted - it is only mine now -- like you - like you are only mine -- my memories -- the perfect submissive to my will.

 

[39_Keeper]

Healing comes in all forms -- in pills - in rest - in the arms of a lover - or the arms of a stranger - we should always look for what will heal us - even if the medicine is not a sweet pill to swallow -- for untill we are free of our pain - how can we be loved - how can we love -

"Z"

 

[39_Keeper]

Words

some times there are no words --

no words -- just feelings --


and how can I express feelings with out words --

with out trying to create images for you to see -

some times it is not enough --

but if you smile - and say you understand -- then it is -- it is JUST enough -- (but I should not have to tell you -- you should do that all on your own)

Kisses

 

[39_Keeper]

Almost sick - but not quite -- still at work --

Almost depressed - but not quite - still driving on

Almost happy - but not quite - the smiles still come to my face

Almost there - but not quite - let me keep it in a little longer

Almost there - but not quite - left with a satisfaction hunger

Almost there - but not quite - it seems as if can't be there

Stay strong - stay proud - lift up your face - and look the world in the eye -

it does not matter -- think - almost there is better then not at all - right?

you can still want -

you can still crave

you can still anticipate the next time --

there is always a next time --

isn't there?

I almost had myself convinced - but not quite

John "Z"

 

[39_Keeper]

Ok

OK -- I really don't feel like being here at work today

I have something to go to at 4PM -- it is sort of a happy hour thing - so I will be drinking - mingling and that sort of thing --

So I will have my glad face on - and in the crowd I will fool myself - and I will be ON - but right now I want to get away -- I want some attention

I am thinking of going to a strip club - but that is so hollow some times -- but then again the music sort of drives things out of your head -- you can be alone there - but not alone -

I can fool myself that the women really would want me - -

OK - I don't know - I know I don't want to be here -- I am looking too often to see if there is a post or a response -- and when there is nothing -- I wonder -- and it is not good to wonder when you are in a mood like this --

I really should do some work -- though --

 

[bearlee]

Really hate to interrupt the flow

But just wanted you know I really enjoy this thread, both the written thoughts and the art

 

[39_Keeper]

Re: Really hate to interrupt the flow

Originally posted by bearlee
But just wanted you know I really enjoy this thread, both the written thoughts and the art

THANK you -- I needed that today -- honestly -- we all go through days -- I appreciate your comments.


There is always a breath of life = in every smile --

I liked working on this one a lot - I give them as gifts -- I am glad that my gifts are enjoyed --

John

 

[Galene]

I am looking and reading and appreciating

not sure how I could brighten your day but a smile never hurts

*smiles*

 

[39_Keeper]

Layers

Originally posted by ran57gr
I am looking and reading and appreciating

not sure how I could brighten your day but a smile never hurts

*smiles*

you are so right -- a smile never hurts --


Ok -

you want to know the secret to how I come up with the image?

as far as the layers go

I start off with three layers of the same image

I then work on second layer - coming up with some effect that I like - mostly just to expand the colors and the image --

then I work on the top layer and do some sort of out lining or something - then I do a merge of the two layers -- I rotate through the different options and The different degree's -- some times some spots look better then others -- so the bad spots I sort of hit with the erasure but not 100% - maybe 30% - so it does not look choppy --

now I have a completely new layer -- after I merge them - with this layer then I might make some effects -- I might duplicate it --

I go through this process over and over again -- till something comes out that I like --

Sometime liquifying the image to make the proportions a little different -- some times just adding in a layer of another image - or of color - which I then distort and put over another layer --

so that is how I do it --


It is so nice working on a REAL person too - that way I can use their personality to craft my pictures as well as the way that I see things.

This is an example of two images - diffrent poses -- in the background I manipulated it and gave it a texture - and then I put a shadow behind the first image (and cut out all background) so it looks as if she is standing infront of a wall I have painted -- sort of neat -- huh?

With this one too - you have to do a lot of playing with the lighting too.

"Z"

 

[sybilrose]

Thanks John

So glad you are back sharing your words and pictures.

When I look at them its like I am seeing the inside of you.
The passion... the desire ... comes out in your work

 

[39_Keeper]

Re: Thanks John

Originally posted by sybilrose
So glad you are back sharing your words and pictures.

When I look at them its like I am seeing the inside of you.
The passion... the desire ... comes out in your work

Thank you Sybil -- yes -- there is a lot of passion in me - that some times in the Vanilla world -- I am not allowed to show -- maybe I should just get drunk - and not care tonight. -- wouldn't that scare some people off -- LOL

Thanks for your words -- Kisses

 

[Galene]

there is a lot I cannot afford to show in my world

makes one feel like bursting sometimes

 

[39_Keeper]

Originally posted by ran57gr
there is a lot I cannot afford to show in my world

makes one feel like bursting sometimes

Yes -- how do you show yourself -when others around you might not accept the truth -- or maybe they will - but it is not ACCEPTABLE to show that side -- and they might look down on it - in public - though it is a part of them as well --

There is much we have to keep hidden -- keep in the dark -- some people chose to let it die there in the dark -- behind the cobwebs of their mind - are they really celebrating life however - do they LIVE - and do they LOVE at the grandest level? I think we all need to have some time - some touch - some connection with those things that are dark in us -- the fantasy that is HOT and Wet -- the one that we can't share with our spouse -- or even the ones that we call lightly our friends -- so how ??? HOW do we let it out --

Isn't the internet lovely -- we CAN let it out - we can seek out like minded spirits -- and let our words and spirits intertwine -- and cackle with joy almost that we have found that our darkness does not have to be a solitary thing - that indeed we can share. - explore -- dare each other to show off more --

all this -- by the light of the plasma screen on my laptop -- what wonders --

 

[39_Keeper]

time to go

Time to Dive right in! -

take the plunge --

Dig in --

LOL --

ok -- I worked -- some what today -- now it is time to party!