Best Friends 4 Ever

[Phoenix]

I wanted to laugh when she admitted that she bust Lexus's lip out of jealousy, but instead all I did was quietly smile at her confession. Let's just say Aya has never been known for jumping other girls when no one else is around. Hell she has been damn near a pacifist ever since I met her. Matter of fact plenty have people have tried to start trouble with her over the fact that Aya hates violence. Usually those people ended up making an appointment with me later on though. After I started making a few less reputable relationships with some of the less innocent people in the area, did a lot of the violence around me slow down. To think I got in less fist fights since entering the drug game and now I am slowly phasing myself out of that lifestyle so I can go to college. Funny how life works huh.

Lifting Aya's chin so I could look her in the eye and said "Ayanna I don't care about what you did to Lexus. It is you I love not her so don't let her ruin this moment plus since then Lexus was kind of a golddigger and we were gonna break up anyways. However that is neither here and there, tonight and from now on it is about you and no one else. You were the one I always wanted and now that I have you. I do not intend to let you go. Aya I love you and you love me and that is all that matters to me even if you did beat up my ex."

With that being said I held her close and awaited her response. I am so happy at this moment, but knowing my luck something bad is gonna happen.

 

[Blaque Gurl]

"Ayanna I don't care about what you did to Lexus. It is you I love not her so don't let her ruin this moment plus since then Lexus was kind of a golddigger and we were gonna break up anyways. However that is neither here and there, tonight and from now on it is about you and no one else. You were the one I always wanted and now that I have you. I do not intend to let you go. Aya I love you and you love me and that is all that matters to me even if you did beat up my ex."

She just flashed him that dazziling smile...that alone could tell him if she were happy or not. Slowly, those soft, full lips slid down along the length of his throat and she sighed softly.

"I can't believe this is actually happening between us..."

She whispered softly, bringing her eyes up to his, and she smiled again. Her eyes seemed to have turned into a even darker green, because the way her emotions were projected through them...Right at this moment, she loved him more then she ever had, and she knew their future together would be built right from this moment, and she wanted him...Not just physically, but in any way that she could have him.

Lightly, her lips came up against his...Kissing him slowly and lovingly, not like with the passion of before.

 

[Phoenix]

As she kissed my throat and softly whispered "I can't believe this is actually happening between us..." I was in total agreement with her a few hours I was completely sure that this gorgeous human being had absolutely no interest in me at all and now here I am in bed with her with her soft infectious lips tracing a path along my throat.

With those other girls it was all about lust and getting my needs taken care of. With Aya it is definately love and all I want to do is please her so I can keep that beautiful smile on her face at all costs. I feel so strongly about this, that I will put a bullet in the head of whoever takes that smile away.

Staring into her gorgeous green eyes I early anticipated her kiss. I knew that this kiss would be different from the other one and it would seal our futures together no matter what lies ahead. As her lips brushed mine, my heart began to beat faster and faster practically pounding out my chest. This was the moment I always wanted and waited for. It was actually going to happen.

Once she gently kissed me, I held her close. The heat from her body met mine and it made the kiss feel more majestic that it already was. I kissing her back gently and lovingly tasting her mouth and feeling her soft and almost heavenly lips. It was even better than anything I could have ever fantasized about.

 

[Blaque Gurl]

She felt like she was almost melting inside the warmth she imagined in his arms....He had held her before in her times of pain, consoling her, but it had never felt like this. She had dreamed...fantazied about what it would feel like, kissing him...making love to him, and tears filled her eyes.

Slowly, she ran her hands down along his hard chest, remembering those many days she had rested her head against it when she cried, when she was hurt...Down over his stomach slowly, remember the days when he was younger and how desperately he wanted to be muscular like the men in the magazines. How he had been so skinny, and how over the years, he grew taller, muscules growing as he worked out more and more. She loved the feel of his body beneath her exploring hands at last, just the way she knew it was meant to be.

"I love you more than words can say..."

She whispered tearfully against his lips. She continued to kiss him gently for what seemed like forever, the tip of her tongue coming from her slightly parted lips, and sliding over his lightly, tracing his full lips, which felt so good against hers, just like his body, his arms felt so good against her.

 

[Phoenix]

As we kissed I knew that she was the person who I trusted most in this world. We have been together for a long time through thick and thin. She knew me way back when I was a skinny runt picking fights with more than one guy at a time just to show how fearless I am. She was with me back when my family was too poor for us to be in the same school during the 8th grade. She was even my closest friend back when I got into the drug game and now that I am slowly phasing myself out of that life she is still here.

She is the one I always want to be around. Sometimes when Aya was not there I could not eat, sleep, work, study, relax, at times I feel like I can't live without her here by my side. Whenever we have an arguement and she gives me the silent treatment it feels like my entire body goes numb and I feel like the lowest creature ever to evolve from sea slime. Aya is like the light to my darkness. Without her, there is no me. I used to that I did not need anyone to survive. Albiet that was back when I was younger and more foolish but I see now that I can not survive without Aya

"I love you more than words can say..."

After she said that I was at a lost for words at the time. It is funny you ever notice that certain situations there is always a song play in your head to match the moment at times. Well right now the perfect song playing in my head matched this moment right now. With Lauryn Hill and Bob Marley "Turn the Light Down Low" in my head. The lyric " Loving you is a song that I replay ever 3 minutes and seconds of every day/Every portion is a poem I recite/ Every thought of you plays every day and every night" floats through my head. I wish I could be creative and say things like that to Aya but instead I said the only thing I could think of " Ayanna I love you. Wish I could say something poetic but I can't but I love you too much to be that creative right now"

 

[Blaque Gurl]

" Ayanna I love you. Wish I could say something poetic but I can't but I love you too much to be that creative right now"

"You know you don't have to say anything like to me...All I need to know is that you love me unconditionally...."

For so long she had been insecure, and she didn't know if J noticed it by the way she acted or the things she said...but, now that she knew that somebody finally loved her fully, with no conditions made her feel so good...Like the void that's been inside of her for as long as she could remember was slowly being filled, and she could feel her confidence in herself getting better.

She placed his hands at her back, so he could begin to open her nightie, button by button. She felt so shy all of a sudden...She had always been modest, even before her father tried to force that quality into her mind. She smiled though, as she felt his hands slide down along her bare back, which comforted her all the same. She kept her eyes closed, those soft tiers sliding over his once more gently.

 

[Phoenix]

Looking her in her phenominal green eyes I smiled at her and said "Ayanna, darling, I swear to love you unconditionally no matter what you say or do. I always loved you unconditionally. And I swear on everything that ever meant anything to me that I always and will alway love you unconditionally."

Hearing the words that passed through my lips, I was a lil taken aback myself. I never loved anyone like I love Aya. She means everything to me and I do not think I could tolerate my own existance without her.

I remembered all those times I saw her with the different guys that would inevitably swarm toward her beauty. I remember the evil impulses that raged through my mind, body and soul whenever I saw her with one of her boyfriends. I wanted to do irreprehenisble harm to those guys that frankly I did not really even know. Watching her kiss her boyfriends when we hung out was was like swallowing broken glass. I remembered when this guy she was seeing named Jason took me aside and threatened to tell her father that Aya was hanging around me if I did not leaver her alone from then on. Needless to say Jason was never the same after getting bitchslapped and stomped in the middle of school. Too bad I got suspended for that little indescression. After all if anyone tried to take someone I loved away from me they deserve whatever I do to them.

As she began to undo her nightie, my heart felt like it was going to jump out of my chest and my anxiety level had never been higher. My angel was going to bear herself to me and I was ten minutes away from hyperventalating. Using the only recourse I count think. I held her close and began to kiss her as my hands ran along her impecably smooth back. I whispered to her once our lips parted " Aya you have no idea how much I love you at this very moment"

 

[Blaque Gurl]

" Aya you have no idea how much I love you at this very moment"

She just smiled slowly, as that nightie made it down to her waist, then she slid it all the way off...She was glad they were underneath the covers, since she was just left in the white lace panties. Gently, her almost nude form came up against his, and he could feel her trembling, but she smiled. Though he didn't know, she had watched him beat down Jason, and it made her....not happy, but not upset. She remembered how she forced J to tell her what was wrong...why he looked so upset after coming back from talking to Jason. How pissed she had been, and she was about to drop him, but he just to her to wait it out...and he came through, like he always did.

"I can't believe I feel shy around you..."

She began to kiss him again, gently and softly. She remembered how Jason had hit her that time...after a heated arguement over a rumor of his messing with another girl, he just got quiet, and she thought he was ending the arguement, but he reeled back and punched her in the eye. She a black eye and she wore heavy make-up, and sunglasses, plus she refused to see J until it had gone down. Jason had scared her, and she was afraid to leave him, but she was even more afraid to tell J what had happened. She knew, without a doubt, that J would go after him and kill him. She couldn't bare the thought of J getting locked up for the rest of his life over her, so she said nothing. But, that hadn't been the only time he had hit her. She had endured his abuse, physically and verbally, until J beat him down, and he left her. That's why she didn't regret the beating, though she hated violence. Jason had been her last boyfriend up until now, and truthfully, even though this was J they were talking about, she was still scared of men because of Jason, and she was afraid that one day into their relationship, he would hit her out of reckless anger...

 

[Phoenix]

J

My heart felt like it was pound its way out of my chest and explode as she slid the nightie off. Once she was nude down to her panties I pulled her close once again. I dunno right now this whole thing feels so much like a dream that I do not want her to be too far.

The feel of her skin again mine is absolutely heavenly. No no this feeling puts heaven to shame. It is undescribably amazing that I almost can't describe it. It is like those moment when things are so perfect that you become speechless like your entire mind is blank due to the fact that all is right and you have nothing to complain about and right now having Aya in my arms feels more right than anything I have ever done before in my life. As long as Aya is around I can't really honestly think about compalining because right now there is nothing I rather do more than spent time with this woman that I am in love

As I was lost in though of being with her for a second I thought I saw something in her eyes. Then I felt small shivers from her body and it was then I recognized what I saw in her eyes. Relutantly moving my hand from around her I tilted her head up so she could look me in the eyes and I said "Don't be scared. I would never allow anyone including myself to harm you."

 

[Blaque Gurl]

"Don't be scared. I would never allow anyone including myself to harm you."

She just nodded...she wanted so much to believe him, but it was getting harder and harder. Though she loved J and had this connection with him that she shared with no one else, she couldn't help but be scared of him. Because of her love for him, she trusted him fully, and that left her vulnerable.

''I...I'm gonna tell you something, but you have to leave it alone....you can't do anything.''

She watched his face, waiting before he agreed or not, before she said another word...He deserved to know what type of relationship he was getting into with her, how damaged and scared she was. She took a deep breath, averting her eyes from his before continuing.

''You remember my old boyfriend, Jason? He used to abuse me...and I know you beat him up...and I didn't care,"

A single tear slid down her right cheek, that burning shame filling her up once more...how could she have let him abuse her...and how could she not care when J became violent with him?

 

[Phoenix]

J in "Promise I can't Keep"

When she made me promise not to get mad I agreed because I love Aya too much to not promise. However when she told me about Jason my blood pressure raised high. That motherfucker is dead next time I see him. The first thing I would do is when I leave her call my cousin Big Cease to put numbers on that punk bitch's head and if he is seen, he is dead on sight. Then I was.........gonna do nothing because I just promised Aya . No matter what this woman held the key to my heart I just do not have the power to resist her.

Holding Aya's head again my chest I allowed her to hear my heart racing then I said " Aya you know I would do anything for you, but I have to say that I can not guarantee that no harm who fall on Jason. However for your sake I will try my best. And I can tell you are scared and I don't wanna push you into something you don't want to do or are not ready to ready to do. I rather take my own life than ever hurt you, so if you do not want to make love tonight I will understand."

 

[Blaque Gurl]

" Aya you know I would do anything for you, but I have to say that I can not guarantee that no harm who fall on Jason. However for your sake I will try my best. And I can tell you are scared and I don't wanna push you into something you don't want to do or are not ready to ready to do. I rather take my own life than ever hurt you, so if you do not want to make love tonight I will understand."

She shook her head, looking up to him with those green eyes.

"No, J...I need you...badly...''

Those were the only words that left her lips, as she then straddled his waist, as he was on his back, then brought the sheet up around her, tucked beneath her arms, so he saw from her shoulders up and her arms, but then the blanket split beneath her breasts, so he saw that toned tummy, white panties rested on her hips and those shapely thighs. That smile was offered down to him, though not as strong as before, there just the same. Leaning forward, her lips then began to trail along his shoulder slowly. That pain of her past drifted from her mind, and she could only think of him.