Blanket Appology

[Expertise]

I'm sorry.

Killer Muffin doesn't even acknoledge my existance, i've fallen to fifth with April, Julia never writes and I have seemingly become a pariah to most.

So whatever I did, however I slighted you, sorry.

I would humbly beg your forgiveness, fall on my sword, whatever, if I had even a vague idea of what the hell I did.

Guess i'll do the manly thing and go sulk now.

 

[KillerMuffin]

I'm sorry Exp, it's my insane uncontrollable jealous rearing it's ugly head. I almost jumped into my truck and broke a passel of laws roaring my way up to Canada and running down everything that got between me and you. Bitches. *sighs mournfully* The only thing that stopped me was the fact that I couldn't figure out where my keys got off to. Which has me panicked. I think my father in law stole them so he could say it was an FBI plot. I think he's related to Todd.

Even though it wasn't nice of you to tempt me with things I can't have... er, that would be you, it was sweet of you to offer.

How is your cold, feeling better? Hope so.

 

[April]

Ex, I just figured you were doing your own thing, so I wasn't going to bug you any more. And hell, I'm no match for a threesome! So... *shrugs* I really don't know what else to say. Shoot, I even offered you some pics, but got no response. What is a girl supposed to think?

 

[Sparky Kronkite]

I hate to say this buddy but, but, but.....

You can cap that crap.

Why?

Same thing with me. Reasons? I think I have some.

1) When something comes up in RL and keeps you from the board, you're here less of course and well, you're here less. So it would follow that.....

2) With the influx of newbies here, it's incredible, right? With you not being on the board as mush as last year - well, they don't really have any sense of history - they don't know you. They don't read you or respond much either.

3) And yes, I have had the prior two things befall me lately - and the older crew? They know me - they get tired of the same old Sparky shit anyway and to top that off - when I first got here and "might I say, I was hot there for a while" - the ladies flirted quite a bit. Since then they've gotten to know me too - they know I don't really want to "do anything" other than harmless flirting, out in the open, on the board - no cyber or phone sex for ole Sparky. They all know this - hence, less flirting, only civil (sometimes) conversation.

So, I think it all makes sense. For me anyway. I just simply read what strikes my fancy - I surely don't have time for all of it - hell, I don't have time for even half of it.

But that's just the way it is in Sparky Land.

Things change.

 

[Sparky Kronkite]

Beside all that.....

It's interesting - when I first came here - I don't think I'm pulling my own chain here either - the conversations were a lot more intellectual. Sure there's always been stupid conversations, many of them fun - but lately the good, informative threads and conversations are nearly zero.

And I see some of the same old shit - retitled by Newbies who would not know - on the regular, less than spectacular conversations. I mean, how many times "do I" want to discuss male circumcision? I don't care what the title of the tread is - I'm done with foreskin.

But the Newbies aren't - so, great - they can have at it. I've just been there and done that one.

 

[Isabella Thorne]

Chandler ....

Cum here baby <big hugs>

I still luv ya ...

and you damn well know it

 

[cymbidia]

It's interesting to me that wherever one goes on the net, be it MUD, BB, IRC or chat room, wherever people congregate and exchange pieces of their lives, there's always a certain percentage of the residents bemoaning the fact that the place just isn't what it once was, what with all the newbies cluttering up the landscape.

Having been on both sides of the equation several times, i know only this for sure: the evolution of online communities is dynamic process, almost organic in some ways. People come and stay for a long time, maybe, delighting in the friends they find in a place, pouring huge amounts of themselves into building the fabric of the place.

Over time, they grow disillusioned or their RT lives demand more time or their SO comes to hate the time they spend at the fucking computer or something, and they begin to fade away as a daily presence in the place. Some go gracefully, quickly leaving a place with fond farewells. Some go painfully, in spurts, clinging to the warmth of their memories of what was. Some linger forever, getting crankier and crankier about the juxtaposition of now vs then.

I'm making no value judgments about anyone or anything anyone has said here; i wouldn't dare, being among the newly arrived and despised. However, this turnover of citizens of a net 'home' does seem to be a natural process, analogous, perhaps, to the succession of natural systems (mountain lake silts in over time, meadow forms, trees begin to crowd the meadow from the sides, eventually it's all a part of the forest).

Leaving any place or anyone that's been important to us is never easy.
~sympathetically~
cym

 

[Sparky Kronkite]

Well I don't think I came of grumpy or cranky -

or disillusioned. I think I came of as factual. I did say at the end of my spew - things change.

I'm sure Exp knows this too.

And - my one question to you might be - do you know either of us? No? Then I might suggest that if you did - you'd know that neither of us are prone to groaning about normal life. No matter where that life occurs - here or in RL.

Exp just wants to get laid. Now that's something worth moaning about.

 

[Isabella Thorne]

i wouldn't dare, being among the newly arrived and despised.

good gravy, my dear ... i didn't know we were supposed to despise you .... dammit no one tells me anything ... lmao ... no seriously ....

like did something big happen and i am not aware of it ... it did didn't it? dammit .... ok someone tell me please ... or am i being paranoid now .... lmao ...

but i could never despise you ... seriously .... pleased to meet you ... i was a newbie once ... and you know what between us cymbidia ... i remember when Sparky first came to the boards ... i wasn't impressed .... but that was then ... this is now .... lol

 

[Guest]

Well, I'm still hurt. But I forgive you.

 

[jcgirl]

Well. Can I have a hello?

 

[Guest]

jcgirl

Hello.

 

[jcgirl]

Awwwww why thank you Blanket

 

[SimplySouthern]

Typical Exp. Typical.

At one time or another, all of us on this BB have been "hot". There was a time when I was answering email left and right, carrying on numerous flirts on the board and loving every minute of it. Then, RL kicks in and your responsibilities take effect leaving you forced to spend less time here. You come back and realize that new people have moved into the limelight and you barely get so much as a hello when you post.

Nothing to apologize about. Do what I do. Think back on those people who used to make you laugh, make you cry or make you spit Coke out of your nose and email them. A blanket apology may seem like the thing to do, but if people are upset at you for ignoring them, etc. this really isn't the way to apologize. Those that you mentioned by name probably deserve their own "I'm sorry email" and the rest of us, well, if you want something more than causal board flirting...you may have to email and start that.

Hope this helps. I am guilty of the same thing.

 

[Cheri]

Interesting. So what about the people you've ignored?

And you know what, does it really matter? Is this high school? Are we still needing the stroke of being named prom queen, to make us happy and cool? I sure hope not.

 

[Expertise]

Interesting. So what about the people you've ignored?

And you know what, does it really matter? Is this high school? Are we still needing the stroke of being named prom queen, to make us happy and cool? I sure hope not.

Thank you Cheri for inadvertantly pointing out what this is not about.

Its not about validation, i'm comfortable in my own skin. Further i'm cogniscent of the transient nature of the community and the ebbs and flows of popularity that are associated with it. No big deal.... "somedays you're the Louisville Slugger, some days your the ball". I sure as hell ain't running for Mr. Congeniality.

The intent of this, and in retrospect I should have made it more clear, was to appologize to people with whom I had significant interaction or had developed some form of friendship. SS pointed out that this should have been done on a far more personal level, she's dead on right. I plan to remedy that immediately.

Sparky it wasn't about getting laid, boinked or done, but about me missing people that I had grown to care about. I can get boinked (in RL), as can most, just about any time. This is something more important.

Mea Culpa

 

[April]

I understood you, Ex. And if you want to keep in touch, that would be great. I'm not in the business of pushing people to do something they don't want to do. Case closed.

 

[Deborah]

Why should you care about what your adoring fans like me and the others here think anyway, Expertise? I mean, your "Beach Blanket Bimbo" over the weekend went quite well, 'eh? Now, if I could only figure out what the fuck an "appology" is. Can't find it in the dictionary but I bet it's kinky!

 

[Ally C]

I just thought of a poem about a blanket; wish I hadn't as I'm worried now. Make it go away ... please make it go away.

 

[Expertise]

Why should you care about what your adoring fans like me and the others here think anyway, Expertise? I mean, your "Beach Blanket Bimbo" over the weekend went quite well, 'eh? Now, if I could only figure out what the fuck an "appology" is. Can't find it in the dictionary but I bet it's kinky!

Fuck off Deborah...... spellcheck or a lack thereof has become the bain of my existance

 

[April]

It's "bane" dear Expertise.

 

[Juliangel]

Julia never writes

It's not you darlin, I have a house full of sick people big and little, including me. I feel like my eyeballs are going to boil today. I have hardly had anytime to get on line since I wrote you last. Like I said then I miss ya bunches darlin.

 

[Sparky Kronkite]

Hi Julia....

get better. No boiled eyebalss please.

 

[Juliangel]

Re: Hi Julia....

get better. No boiled eyebalss please.

*hugs* Sparky Thanks!

I will try I do need them otherwise I will need to find a way to read the board in braille.

 

[Deborah]

I finally found a definition of "appology" in my Hebrew concordance. It means "one with the incredible tongue."