TestTheWaters
Virgin
- Joined
- Jun 5, 2013
- Posts
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Brave New World ~ My sub to your Dom
Not the typical post I see here but perhaps it will speak to you, or make you think of someone you know.
I've been looking for you all my life, it's just that my 'sub'conscious conducting the search never notified the cognitive side of my mind. In my middle class, whitewashed, vanilla life, you were a group of hair ridden men in leather and studs with a few hard women who seldom showered thrown in for good measure.
How many bad boys I mistook for you. The hours spent curled at their feet and becoming a doormat. Compulsively trying to exceed their expectations only to have them react in suspicion and fear of my intentions. All the times I tried to please them in bed and recieved the generic fuck I couldn't wait to have over. Mistaken identity time after time.
Shall I be grateful that I was always 'too' in their minds. Too complex, too smart, too pretty (yeah I always thought that one was bullshit), too needy, too strong, too shy, too senstive, too demanding of their sex, too broken... Back then I was simply a defective cog in humanity's machine. That said, had I not been 'too', would I now be trapped in an inescapable vanilla box?
We all find our true selves sooner or later, of this I'm certain. Is searching for you part of my evolution? Will you revel in opening my mind as well as my body? Will you find the dichotomy of a strong independent woman who craves your control attractive? So many questions still unanswered. My solitary voice in a sea of voices. Can you hear me?
I've been lurking around Lit for awhile but have kept to myself thus far. I'm really only interested in something that has potential as a real life relationship. I hate it when people say they want a LTR. How can one say that about someone they don't know yet??
About me: I've had my 40th birthday (won't be posing as an 18 yr old sub), single, professional, active, intelligent, 5'6", blonde, blue eyes, slender, NOT perfect, pretty, sexual novice sub, not the 24/7 type.
About you: male, old enough to know better, young enough to pursue life and all it's possibilities, professional, intelligent, single (seriously not interested if you're married), active, can laugh at yourself, live in or travel to Seattle area.
I actually don't expect anything to come of this but we're all anonymous here and I've decided to be courageous enough to stop hiding from the world...
Not the typical post I see here but perhaps it will speak to you, or make you think of someone you know.
I've been looking for you all my life, it's just that my 'sub'conscious conducting the search never notified the cognitive side of my mind. In my middle class, whitewashed, vanilla life, you were a group of hair ridden men in leather and studs with a few hard women who seldom showered thrown in for good measure.
How many bad boys I mistook for you. The hours spent curled at their feet and becoming a doormat. Compulsively trying to exceed their expectations only to have them react in suspicion and fear of my intentions. All the times I tried to please them in bed and recieved the generic fuck I couldn't wait to have over. Mistaken identity time after time.
Shall I be grateful that I was always 'too' in their minds. Too complex, too smart, too pretty (yeah I always thought that one was bullshit), too needy, too strong, too shy, too senstive, too demanding of their sex, too broken... Back then I was simply a defective cog in humanity's machine. That said, had I not been 'too', would I now be trapped in an inescapable vanilla box?
We all find our true selves sooner or later, of this I'm certain. Is searching for you part of my evolution? Will you revel in opening my mind as well as my body? Will you find the dichotomy of a strong independent woman who craves your control attractive? So many questions still unanswered. My solitary voice in a sea of voices. Can you hear me?
I've been lurking around Lit for awhile but have kept to myself thus far. I'm really only interested in something that has potential as a real life relationship. I hate it when people say they want a LTR. How can one say that about someone they don't know yet??
About me: I've had my 40th birthday (won't be posing as an 18 yr old sub), single, professional, active, intelligent, 5'6", blonde, blue eyes, slender, NOT perfect, pretty, sexual novice sub, not the 24/7 type.
About you: male, old enough to know better, young enough to pursue life and all it's possibilities, professional, intelligent, single (seriously not interested if you're married), active, can laugh at yourself, live in or travel to Seattle area.
I actually don't expect anything to come of this but we're all anonymous here and I've decided to be courageous enough to stop hiding from the world...
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