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[Sinseria]

Of Tomorrow

Of Tomorrow


For one
I have spent
Stilled on the
Precipice

Swaying
In the darkness
On the pendulum to
Emptiness

Fallen
From delusion
The grandeur of my
Confusion

Lain
My bed of stone
Lusting in secrets
Unknown

Silent
I have wept
Confined to the abyss
Kept

Bound
Chained in sorrow
Awaiting his deliverance
Of tomorrow

 

[Sinseria]

Wrongs We've Made

Wrongs We've Made

Memory of life and laughter
lays within a darkened tomb
Exiled by the existence
of all the evil in our world

Buried by life’s short expectancy
in the emptiness of our dreams
Burdened by the mind
and all the corruption it holds

Questions to wait the hands of time
what soul is left to bleed for all man kind
What pain and hate can our hearts carry
and not falter from the added weight

We build our destruction
shattered in the heart
With its burdens intact
such a pity is our race

Eternity without emotions
a life devoid of love
Touched by life’s sweet misery
in damnation for all we know

With baited breath she waits
in her darkened tomb of fate
To wonder of salvation
for the wrongs we’ve made

 

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was out of action

sorry guys was out of action for a little bit buts I gots a new computer !!!! so I shall be back shortly periodically ...windows 10 is like weird foreign stuff to me

 

[Sinseria]

Tainted Fiend

Tainted Fiend


When muse descends
The waking dream
And you are the
Demon fiend

Play for me
My devils dream
While I bleed
In waking need

Baneful cries
Of mental wills
Appeals the devil’s plea
Of yearning thrills

Fevered immorality
Wakened in darkness
Begging sins of flesh
Pleading with caress

Bleed for me
My devils dream
Come and feed
My tainted fiend

 

[Sinseria]

Denied

Denied



Safety in his arms
Centuries in the making
Through thick and thin
You’ve stayed
Always at his side
Naïve as the fool
Till truth is known
A life of lies
And in the end
Denied

 

[Sinseria]

Truth Told

Truth Told



Bitter truths
In a bed of lies
A naive fool
Bound with ties

Truth cuts
Deeper than any blade
Pierced in the heart
A price forever paid

Tears of my veins
Can’t ease the pain
Drawn upon blood
The hurt remains

Longing for a touch
Always neglected
The soul forever
Damned and infected

The fool to believe
Love wasn’t broken
Yet in the end
Merely played as a token

Lies of love
Typed in bold
The broken heart
To the truth told

 

[Sinseria]

Wakened in Resurrection

Wakened in Resurrection


Built my precipice
On the edge of a blade
Enraged its power
With the fat of my veins

Tears of my blood
Made my abode
Bound in the abyss
Of my hated soul

Drank of my sins
Engraved my shame
Laid down the blade
And feed it my pain

The fires of hell
Reclaimed by my lips
Sealed upon my heart
With the devils kiss

The cry of my demons
Sanctified the confession
The walls of my betrayal
Wakened in resurrection

 

[Sinseria]

5 sense challenge

sight: glittering jewel
sound: rush of wind
scent: sickly sweet
touch: pebbled
taste: copper


Black Hole


Once she stood
A glittering jewel
Shimmering in the sunlight
With sacred golden hues

Time ensued secrets
Festering upon her lips
Soured to taste as copper
Dipped in acid to corrode

Beaten on a pebbled path
As daggers on the road
Tearing flesh and vein
To find an empty soul

The scent of her blood
Sickly sweet
As of dying roses
Bound in the mist winter

To hear her now
As akin to
A rush of wind
Howling in a black hole

 

[Sinseria]

Writes for You

Writes for You


To know me
I pray
You know me true

As I am two
A lie for them
And a truth for you

Loathing self
As a craven child
I have been

Condemned
As a child of sin
Though I’ve never been

Denied
Every damning deed
Suppressed within

Bore the blade
To save my soul
As I bled for them

Drank my shame
Straight from the bottle
To ease my pain

At eighteen
I alone created
My second soul

Broken and unknown
I found your words
To feed my own

And now
The truth of me
Writes for you

 

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my practice write

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Love Denied

Love Denied



I woke this morning
With a heavy sigh of sorrow
And tears scorning my eyes

Painted my mask of misery
Placed my delusion of a smile
Gathered my heart in a file

Adorned my dream denied
Went outside to kiss the rain
Hoping it would wash me away

Yet as a fool I remain
Bound with another lie
And promises of love denied

 

[Sinseria]

Life of Lies

Life of Lies


Danced
For my demons
My saviors
My saints

Beseeched
Their cries
As lovers
As gods

To guide me
In damnation
For the breath
Of life within

My soul
Devoted in darkness
Withering in comfort
To my waking hell

Blighted by dreams
Forsaken in disgrace
Severed by the truth
In a life of lies

 

[Sinseria]

Winters Wake

Winters Wake



As ice
my soul has been
alone and dead

Chilled
my bed of snow
nine years today

Frozen
my veins of sin
to hide my pain

Shattered
my frosted heart
stilled by him

Ice cold
the death of love
in winters wake

 

[Sinseria]

Weary Soul

Weary Soul


I took a stroll today
Down memory lane
Past my walls of shame

Watched as the images past
Came to life in picture pose

I ventured long and far
Traversed the paths of happiness
The sweet blessed tears of joy
And the tested tears of sorrow
That rained down like devils fire

I walked with my angels
And danced with my demons
I found my life in my past
All my dreams and secrets in tacked

Through the years of my life I did go
All around me stood my shame
As I poked and prodded deeper still
To find the cause for what I feel

There before me lies my answer
In the blood red Jaws of Life
This craven image of my soul
Rapt in eternal darkness
Held by the innocence of me

The sweet bitter disgrace of my being
Cast me into my empty life
From haunted memories of the past

Things done I could not undo
Unpreventable thoughts of things
I could not stop
Akin to a virus
Is the line of blood
Bound in a thousand tears
Scorned by my hated life

As the images flashed by
I watched, I saw, I felt …
My life had been set
And as a craven child
I wept

At the edge of a poisoned blade
I signed the deal with my demons
From the misguided blood of my veins

I traded my soul
In this hated life for a happy lie
Now I pay the price

As I kneel before the hands of fate
I could not help but wonder
If they had walked in my shoes
For just a meager fraction of time
To see the things I have seen
Done the things I have done
Felt what I had felt
Could they live with my pain
Could they bear my sinful shame

Or would they still judge me so
And cast there rocks and stones
At my weary soul

 

[Sinseria]

Always You

Always You



Heard a whisper
In the winds today
It spoke only of your name
That enticed a thought of you

A dream of you conceived
In the deep recesses of my mind
Created and bound to the power
Of a desolate and empty heart

Cast in a distant memory
Of a painted childhood fantasy
With a yearning need
Of your arms around my heart
As you have always been there
Drawn in my essence
Catered in my thoughts
As a wishful soul unseen

I have always known you
And loved you in all possible ways
I have always cared for you
Obeyed you, and touched you
And served you in our special way

As I have always felt your hand
In the depths of my soul
Always believed in you
The power of your passion
The dreams of your heart

We lived in a sight unseen
In a realm of castles in the sky
Decorated so vividly in my mind

As you have touched my cheeks
Ever so gingerly with loving pose
Washing away my tainted sorrows
You have kissed the tears from my face
And healed all my aching pains

You have caressed me in the darkness
Traversed sins of flesh and mind
While holding my heart composed
Wrapped me in your loving embraces
Cloaked me from the darkest of my storms

You have guided me along the way
Pulled me up from the depths of nothing
As you have kissed my lips so sweet
So sincere in loving passions
To make me almost forget
It’s only a dream of you
Envisioned from a desperate heart
To belong in faith and belief
Of a love so true, in a love of you

I pray somewhere you exist
That you are living a life of love
And perhaps one day
You will return to me
Sanctified in the flesh
The completion of my soul
As the answer to my heart
Was always you

 

[Sinseria]

Eluded Me

Eluded Me



Tears of sorrow
And deaths sweet remorse
Wash down my callous face

As I look upon a world
I had never seen before

I had lived there my entire life
And did not notice
What the world had in store
Until my last dying breath

Now in my tomb I lay
And watch as the minutes of my life’s memories
Simply fade away
Into the nothingness
That I once lived

So blind
So arrogant
So pitiful

A fool was I to take my life
For now in my deathbed
My eyes can see
What they were forever blinded to

A world full of sin and despise
Was the only world I had known
A life of misery and regret
Of pain and hate
Of wrongs only humans
Where stupid enough to make

But what I did not see
What I could not see
Were the gifts of life
That somehow
Eluded me

 

[Sinseria]

Never Give

Never Give


Some say
true love is a lie
that it is a myth
we bind

But I have seen
true love
to the test of time

Come with me
in a revered memory
stilled in my mind

Picture for me
if you will
a country bar
the dimed lights
the loudened music
the gracious dance floor

There you see them
sitting across the way
a happy couple
old and grey

Decomposing with time
as rigor mortis has taken hold
but their hearts
will never give

His arm draped
around her shoulder
holding her composed

Not a move does he make
as she rests her weary head
to sleep upon his shoulder

Held in love
they dance again
as the live band begins

Hearts entwined to the beat
swaying as 2 by 4s
across the dance floor

Every weekend
they would come
as a permanent fixture
to dance again

Thirty-five years
to be
held
in love

 

[Sinseria]

Visage of Life

sooooooooo this was suppose to be a love poem for that there nifty challenge heheh ooops ...I am so not used to writing much anything besides free style ...this one is done in Tritina form ...sooo please critique if I did it correctly or not ...as it took me a while ...and well its not a love poem so here it is ...thanks to Tzara's info on forms if I understood it correctly


Visage of Life


Blood vexed tears ascend our misery
Finis the shameful fears of our disgrace
Bridled with ease to our tethered life

Vengeance fused in the lineage of life
Mirthless in our tomb of misery
In affliction of flesh and disgrace

Laced on the lips of a souls disgrace
Empathy bleeding our famished life
Our heart diminished as misery

Wed as a toy to the visage life

 

[Sinseria]

Eulogy of Love

omgds omgds Trix I did it a poem that doesn't have not one bad thing in it at all hehehehe ...


Eulogy of Love


I pray you give leave
To all senses of time
Enter my mind

Heed not your menial things
Your trinkets and toys
Bare not your worries and woe

Forget for but a moment
Your status of Master or slave
Play not as friend or foe

Fly with me
On the wings to be
As a muse to the winds
In a lover’s dream

Taste upon your lips
With gentle a caress
As a union of souls

To feel the feather
Of a mortal hand
Tenured to the flesh

As relations stilled
Upon the heart
In will of desires

When two
Become one
In eulogy
Of love

 

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To Die

To Die


Razors sheer
The heart of stone
As a vacant soul

Obliged with love
The chattel of fear
Confined in dismay

Flows of passion
Revered as blood
Gorged in tears

Truth in spite
Elated by the broken
Forsaken as love

As infamy
Stands as Master
Tethered as life
To die

 

[Sinseria]

My Beautiful Lie

well didn't get any bad remarks or good remarks on my tritina poem lol hopefully I did it right ...duh! ...anyway ...ventured again yet farther into the formats up there and decided to temper fate and attempt a Sestina ...WOW its a complicated one to do ...hopefully I did it correctly ...please feel free to critique or give pointers or anything ...as formats are new to me ...and well it didn't make the love poem challenge duh! hehe


My Beautiful Lie



Still time my beautiful lie
Bound in the darkness of my tainted mind
Gifted with disgrace as the blood of life
Condemned with love at the edge of a knife
Absolve with lenience as dreams to die
Forgive, forget and forever to bind

My shadow in time to bind
As a secret to the depths of my lie
Consumed in darkness with my heart to die
Sins of my existence scorned in my mind
As flesh to holy steel blessed by the knife
While Obscurities of faith claim my life

The soul to my broken life
Held the virus of my bloodline to bind
As the tears of my blood caressed the knife
Swaying as a disease to the linage of my lie
Corroded by the shadows of my mind
Left in shame on the precipice to die

Passions and pleasure to die
Concealed and deprived in a wasted life
For famine and thirst of a timid mind
Damned in mirth on the crucifix to bind
Sanctified in delusions of a lie
Vexed as a curse to the crux of a knife

As blood to pain fed the knife
Filled my rosary of disgrace to die
The pride of my tears to consume the lie
Rapt in emptiness of my despised life
Beseeched the strength of my demons to bind
To dissolve temptations raging in my mind

Normalcy denied my mind
Tried and tested with a kiss from a knife
Cast my will in the devils name to bind
My soul destined in damnation to die
Fated as failure to claim a happy life
As the craven child to hide in the lie

Forgive, forget and forever to bind
To still time and live my beautiful lie

 

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heh sorry to many edits think I am done now!

 

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Earthly Womb

Heh woke up ...

 

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ok so free posting isn't so good all the time ...fixed up the Paradelle from last night ...kinda turned out it would have been ok for the valentine days challenge but I already posted a very ugly copy last night soooo hehe I edited this morning!



Earthly Womb



Troubled times are coming
Troubled times are coming
But the rain will never end
But the rain will never end
Feel its love upon the hand
As it purges all the land

Let the water kiss the earth
Let the water kiss the earth
And wash away our woes
And wash away our woes
Blessed of the angels plan
To fill the hearts of man

Let the love bathe the world
Let the love bathe the world
To heal our earthly womb
To heal our earthly womb
Let the rain never end
As our hearts to mend

As water is to life
The bounty of our world
As faith to be free of strife
In revival from its empty tomb
The holy rebirth of our love
To mend our earthly womb