Closet Exhibitionist...Wanting feedback
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dionysus75
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Very exciting thread. Great pics, tits, teasing, see through panties, hot stories. A lot of good stuff. BTW you have very pretty feet!!
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Hey Y'all!
Just popped in to check on things. Im needing some sexual motivation and inspiration in my life right now so I am going to be back on to revv things up a little! Haven't taken any pics in a looooong time but Im thinking I should really get back into it.
Goodness how I've missed this place!
Viv
Can't wait!!!
xxx
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Vivi1975
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Thanks so much for the warm welcome back y'all! So very sweet.
I will let you in on a little tidbit of my life right now.
Married for 13 years to a wonderful man. Then, I find out he's been unfaithful to me with some little 23 year old skank down at work. Then he tells me he hasn't been in love with me for YEARS. He LOVES me...he's just not IN LOVE with me. And here I am - sitting here thinking our marriage is so great and how much I love him and this comes at me.
Life has not been fun since the end of August. I am in the process of deciding what to do. He is begging me to stay, that he wants so badly to fall back in love with me. But I'm not sure what to do. I still love him through all of this - and I am so pissed off at that fact.
I gave this man every freedom he has ever wanted. Hooters with the guys, strip clubs complete with lap dances...no problem!! I even shared my threesome fantasy with him AND WE DID IT! We have sex CONSTANTLY so I know he hasnt fallen out of love for THAT reason! He says he's not sure why.
Anyway...In a rough place right now. And we are still having sex through all of this. I guess I want to kick it up a notch to show him what he's about to be missing forever.
This is a sad, crying shame. I did everything for that man. I swear I am 2 steps away from being June Cleaver meets Carmen Electra. So what the hell is he wanting???? I know I am not as thin as I used to be but good lord, Im not hideous am I??? You all have seen my pics?!
Sorry. I just had to vent. Thanks for letting me, y'all.
I will let you in on a little tidbit of my life right now.
Married for 13 years to a wonderful man. Then, I find out he's been unfaithful to me with some little 23 year old skank down at work. Then he tells me he hasn't been in love with me for YEARS. He LOVES me...he's just not IN LOVE with me. And here I am - sitting here thinking our marriage is so great and how much I love him and this comes at me.
Life has not been fun since the end of August. I am in the process of deciding what to do. He is begging me to stay, that he wants so badly to fall back in love with me. But I'm not sure what to do. I still love him through all of this - and I am so pissed off at that fact.
I gave this man every freedom he has ever wanted. Hooters with the guys, strip clubs complete with lap dances...no problem!! I even shared my threesome fantasy with him AND WE DID IT! We have sex CONSTANTLY so I know he hasnt fallen out of love for THAT reason! He says he's not sure why.
Anyway...In a rough place right now. And we are still having sex through all of this. I guess I want to kick it up a notch to show him what he's about to be missing forever.
This is a sad, crying shame. I did everything for that man. I swear I am 2 steps away from being June Cleaver meets Carmen Electra. So what the hell is he wanting???? I know I am not as thin as I used to be but good lord, Im not hideous am I??? You all have seen my pics?!
Sorry. I just had to vent. Thanks for letting me, y'all.
Welcome back....I'm sorry you're going through all of this. I can imagine how hard that must be. We are here for you anytime you need to vent or just need support or someone to appreciate you.
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Sorry to hear that Viv. Take your time making your decision. It's going to make a big difference whatever you decide. If you have children, I really feel for you. If he really wants to stay, you better get into some good counseling and soon. Also, it's just my opinion, but I would cut out the sex until you have him get tested for HIV and all the other lovely bonuses that he may have brought home for you. Plus, you need to really make sure that this is what you want. Trust is a very hard thing to earn again after something like this and if you stay together without it, it will consume you the rest of your relationship. I hope all the best for you!
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WOW WOW WOWI have just found your thread and am about to subscribe, I saw your picks and have to say i was struck dumb, I thought my PC had frozen until i realised I was glued to the monitor and there was a puddle of drool on my desk, such natural beauty and an amazing body the perfect shape 
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Viv you are what most men would call DROP DEAD GORGEOUS I bet if you did a poll on who would want to spend a minimum of a week with you day and night it would be off the scale.
Looks and body tou have it hands down, obviously you have given your hubby enough rope and he has gone and wrapped it around his throat.
The truth is vent as much as you like pm me if you want but to look at you are PERFECT!!!!!!
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Wow. I have to say...I am really impressed by the quality responses I just got within moments of posting my sob story. REALLY. I actually feel better!!
Thank you for being so supportive! I will soon make my decision, which I am not taking lightly. We do have 2 VERY young kids. And when I take off, it will be to family that is 1200 miles away. So in leaving him, I also take a great father away from my kids.
For goodness sake! We've been discussing the timing of having another baby for a few months now!! I am beside myself over all of this.
I HATE that he's put me in this position. But the trust HAS been broken and the happy little love bubble I've been living in was a lie and a sham. Its hard to get over that. I have found myself to be a very different person now. Jealous, suspicios, angry...I don't know if those traits are here to stay but it feels like they are. And I hate that.
But again,
Thank you for you generous and kind support. I didn't expect it but am so thrilled you gave it.
Thank you for being so supportive! I will soon make my decision, which I am not taking lightly. We do have 2 VERY young kids. And when I take off, it will be to family that is 1200 miles away. So in leaving him, I also take a great father away from my kids.
For goodness sake! We've been discussing the timing of having another baby for a few months now!! I am beside myself over all of this.
I HATE that he's put me in this position. But the trust HAS been broken and the happy little love bubble I've been living in was a lie and a sham. Its hard to get over that. I have found myself to be a very different person now. Jealous, suspicios, angry...I don't know if those traits are here to stay but it feels like they are. And I hate that.
But again,
Thank you for you generous and kind support. I didn't expect it but am so thrilled you gave it.
Wow. I have to say...I am really impressed by the quality responses I just got within moments of posting my sob story. REALLY. I actually feel better!!
Thank you for being so supportive! I will soon make my decision, which I am not taking lightly. We do have 2 VERY young kids. And when I take off, it will be to family that is 1200 miles away. So in leaving him, I also take a great father away from my kids.
For goodness sake! We've been discussing the timing of having another baby for a few months now!! I am beside myself over all of this.
I HATE that he's put me in this position. But the trust HAS been broken and the happy little love bubble I've been living in was a lie and a sham. Its hard to get over that. I have found myself to be a very different person now. Jealous, suspicios, angry...I don't know if those traits are here to stay but it feels like they are. And I hate that.
But again,
Thank you for you generous and kind support. I didn't expect it but am so thrilled you gave it.
Well you are just too beautiful for words....and even though I just found you for the first time, in reading your posts, you seem like an amazing and sweet woman. While I don't know the personal details of your life...I can't see any reason why your husband would want anyone other than you.
more
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Wow. I have to say...I am really impressed by the quality responses I just got within moments of posting my sob story. REALLY. I actually feel better!!
Thank you for being so supportive! I will soon make my decision, which I am not taking lightly. We do have 2 VERY young kids. And when I take off, it will be to family that is 1200 miles away. So in leaving him, I also take a great father away from my kids.
For goodness sake! We've been discussing the timing of having another baby for a few months now!! I am beside myself over all of this.
I HATE that he's put me in this position. But the trust HAS been broken and the happy little love bubble I've been living in was a lie and a sham. Its hard to get over that. I have found myself to be a very different person now. Jealous, suspicios, angry...I don't know if those traits are here to stay but it feels like they are. And I hate that.
But again,
Thank you for you generous and kind support. I didn't expect it but am so thrilled you gave it.
I have to second what Fallen_1 Says and in addition i can understand that you have been hurt in the worst possible way, a woman who is as beautiful as you and he cheats with a trollop.What was he thinking! Is he having some sort of breakdown! Many a man would give there right arm for a chance with a woman like you. He might be going through a mid life crisis!
We are hear for you!
Since my husband and I have always had an open marriage (swingers before we met; met at a party) I find advising anyone about a cheating spouse difficult if not impossible, but I must say the fact that your husband says he is no longer in love can't have anything to with your beauty. You are a lovely, sexy woman, and though I don't know if you turn-on to women, I know you arouse me to the nth degree. and a big
and a big urnorthcoastfriend
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Sorry you hurt so
Viv--
you are a gorgeous, sexy woman, and you sound sweet and caring. This must hurt like hell. Your husband has acted like a jerk, but consider getting couples counseling together. Trusting again will be very hard. That is something that only gets rebuilt slowly.
You are one of the sexually most attractive women I have seen on here. Your body is such a turn on. Don't think for a minute that something is wrong with you physically. There is nothing wrong with your weight. From all your posts, you also sound like a woman who it would be wonderful to share life with even if you didn't have that sexy, sexy body. He has behaved like a totally stupid ass, and it sounds like he knows it. If by "in love" he means infatuated, that can come and go and come again. Allow yourself some time to heal and get some professional help. Divorce is very painful too, and takes most men and women years to work through. It is tough either way, but my advice is to stay and give it a try for awhile, and do get some help for both of you. He does need help right now too--my guess he is in a lot of pain also, and he deserves to be, but he does need help. My thoughts go out to you. Here is a big cyber hug for you: (((Viv)))
Viv--
you are a gorgeous, sexy woman, and you sound sweet and caring. This must hurt like hell. Your husband has acted like a jerk, but consider getting couples counseling together. Trusting again will be very hard. That is something that only gets rebuilt slowly.
You are one of the sexually most attractive women I have seen on here. Your body is such a turn on. Don't think for a minute that something is wrong with you physically. There is nothing wrong with your weight. From all your posts, you also sound like a woman who it would be wonderful to share life with even if you didn't have that sexy, sexy body. He has behaved like a totally stupid ass, and it sounds like he knows it. If by "in love" he means infatuated, that can come and go and come again. Allow yourself some time to heal and get some professional help. Divorce is very painful too, and takes most men and women years to work through. It is tough either way, but my advice is to stay and give it a try for awhile, and do get some help for both of you. He does need help right now too--my guess he is in a lot of pain also, and he deserves to be, but he does need help. My thoughts go out to you. Here is a big cyber hug for you: (((Viv)))
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Wow. I have to say...I am really impressed by the quality responses I just got within moments of posting my sob story. REALLY. I actually feel better!!
Thank you for being so supportive! I will soon make my decision, which I am not taking lightly. We do have 2 VERY young kids. And when I take off, it will be to family that is 1200 miles away. So in leaving him, I also take a great father away from my kids.
For goodness sake! We've been discussing the timing of having another baby for a few months now!! I am beside myself over all of this.
I HATE that he's put me in this position. But the trust HAS been broken and the happy little love bubble I've been living in was a lie and a sham. Its hard to get over that. I have found myself to be a very different person now. Jealous, suspicios, angry...I don't know if those traits are here to stay but it feels like they are. And I hate that.
But again,
Thank you for you generous and kind support. I didn't expect it but am so thrilled you gave it.
I don't know whether things are recoverable or not. I would suggest counselling to work things out. Also would you have no alternative but to move away?
Hope you do get things resolved though, I can see that once that trust has gone it will never be back where it was.
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Again, I have to say that I am really impressed with you all!
Thank you for your caring words, thoughtful advice and wonderful support. Both on the thread and in all the PM's I've been getting.
Really thought provoking and sage advice!
So I have decided to stay conditionally. Changes must be made. Things cannot go back to the way it was before - because all that was nothing more than Oscar worthy lies. He must truly show me by his actions that he is trying to fall in love with me again. That he wants to keep this family intact. No lies, no deception...an open book and lots of communication. And he did agree to go to counseling.
In my head, I know I should be LONG GONE. But my heart is telling me to stay. If this doesn't work, I will know without a doubt that I left no stone unturned and will be able to walk away without guilt that I could have done more.
So how has he done since I told him all this last night over dinner?? Well...not good. I didn't see any emotion from him. No joy or relief at the fact I am giving him another chance. No embrace. He did say thank you, but the way he said it, it's like I just passed him the salt.
So we shall see....
Thanks again for being good friends
xoxoxoxoxoxox
viv
Thank you for your caring words, thoughtful advice and wonderful support. Both on the thread and in all the PM's I've been getting.
Really thought provoking and sage advice!
So I have decided to stay conditionally. Changes must be made. Things cannot go back to the way it was before - because all that was nothing more than Oscar worthy lies. He must truly show me by his actions that he is trying to fall in love with me again. That he wants to keep this family intact. No lies, no deception...an open book and lots of communication. And he did agree to go to counseling.
In my head, I know I should be LONG GONE. But my heart is telling me to stay. If this doesn't work, I will know without a doubt that I left no stone unturned and will be able to walk away without guilt that I could have done more.
So how has he done since I told him all this last night over dinner?? Well...not good. I didn't see any emotion from him. No joy or relief at the fact I am giving him another chance. No embrace. He did say thank you, but the way he said it, it's like I just passed him the salt.
So we shall see....
Thanks again for being good friends
xoxoxoxoxoxox
viv
We support you in whatever you do Viv..just remember, no one deserves your love and affection more than you do.
Though you will get plenty of affection from us as well
Thanks for the update. You know you can come here to vent or whatever and we won't judge you or anything.
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Viv you are really a beautiful lady that has some great photos. I look forward to going thru all the thread and seeing all the pictures and all your posts. You are HOT!!!
Keep your smile bright and your thoughts positive cause you rock. Look forward to seeing more and more. You make me grin
Keep your smile bright and your thoughts positive cause you rock. Look forward to seeing more and more. You make me grin
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It's very early in this process for anything. But the fact that your head and your heart are not aligned means something. Listen to your heart. I have been thought this before, but I was the guy in this situation (not identical but similar). It took a few months, but we worked it out and are still happily together. You are doing the right thing by sharing and talking with people. Don't move too quickly. And I know it hurts very badly. (((hugs)))
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Thanks guys. Y'all are great.
And TallMan...I gasped when I got smacked in the face with that ginormous roly poly photo of me. YIKES! That's my least favorite to be honest.
But, am glad you enjoy it.
To all my supportive lit men
xoxoxox
Vivienne
And TallMan...I gasped when I got smacked in the face with that ginormous roly poly photo of me. YIKES! That's my least favorite to be honest.
But, am glad you enjoy it.
To all my supportive lit men
xoxoxox
Vivienne
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Thanks guys. Y'all are great.
And TallMan...I gasped when I got smacked in the face with that ginormous roly poly photo of me. YIKES! That's my least favorite to be honest.
But, am glad you enjoy it.
To all my supportive lit men
xoxoxox
Vivienne
Can i please be your latest supporter. Damn you are sexy!!!
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If he has any decency he's going to be feeling somewhat embarrassed at this point . . .
I'm trying to give him the benefit of the doubt!
Good luck, and hopefully the counselling will help resolve things one way or another, not necessarily the way you want it but it's best to know sooner rather than drag it all out.
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Well i am surprised you have just offered him a chance yet he decides to be daddy cold. well counciling may help but then so might a frying pan round the face! Whatever you do dont just walk away, make him be the one to go with his trollop if that is the case, why should you be the one to pack up and move.
He cheated on you!!!!
So it is up to him to do the working out and the repair work!
He should be down on his knees begging for you to let him stay!
We are hear for you!
jIf his thank you was a cold as one for passing the salt, it would tell me that he really didn't give a damn. I'd go do my own thing whenever I wanted, and let him be the one to consider whether or not to be forgiving.
