Confessions: What Are Yours? Part IV

[AbsintheFather]

ICT I haven't been on here much as of late, and posted even less.

IACT I went through a long period of depression and emotional pain. At times it was so overwhelming I didn't know what would happen or how to even deal with it. I am thankful for a close friend who got me the help I needed when I needed it.

IACT I thought that it would get even worse as the holiday season has gotten closer, but I've found almost the opposite is true. I haven't really understood why yet.

IACT as I look through my posts from the past year, through PMs and emails to other Lit users, I just feel that I've been a terrible person and a poor excuse for a friend. I wouldn't want to be treated the way I've treated others here. For the people that I've wronged, I have no excuse and I'm unworthy of your forgiveness, but I do apologize for my horrid behavior.

IACT I thought about asking to have my profile deleted and starting over again. I still might, but for the time being I think I'll keep this one. I may have a scarlet letter on it, but it was earned, and it's up to me to own up to it.

IFCT I hope I can become a better person, and a better Lit person.

Now that's a real confession that took guts to post. I give you a lot of credit for coming back, saying that and keeping your account.

Now go and say 10 Hail Marys and 10 AbsintheFathers and your sins will be absolved

 

[barefootgirl69]

ICT I haven't been on here much as of late, and posted even less.

IACT I went through a long period of depression and emotional pain. At times it was so overwhelming I didn't know what would happen or how to even deal with it. I am thankful for a close friend who got me the help I needed when I needed it.

IACT I thought that it would get even worse as the holiday season has gotten closer, but I've found almost the opposite is true. I haven't really understood why yet.

IACT as I look through my posts from the past year, through PMs and emails to other Lit users, I just feel that I've been a terrible person and a poor excuse for a friend. I wouldn't want to be treated the way I've treated others here. For the people that I've wronged, I have no excuse and I'm unworthy of your forgiveness, but I do apologize for my horrid behavior.

IACT I thought about asking to have my profile deleted and starting over again. I still might, but for the time being I think I'll keep this one. I may have a scarlet letter on it, but it was earned, and it's up to me to own up to it.

IFCT I hope I can become a better person, and a better Lit person.

ICT I only came here to see what Absinthefather posted, but I am glad I saw your post.

I'm glad you were able to get the help you needed and I'm glad you've returned.

 

[AbsintheFather]

ICT I only came here to see what Absinthefather posted, but I am glad I saw your post.

I'm glad you were able to get the help you needed and I'm glad you've returned.

ICT that I noticed that you just passed me in post count, also that I'm apparently not on your approved pm list. Be that way :caning:

 

[Misshotndeep]

ICT I am seriously jealous of everyone in their happy relationships. Oh, I am happy for ya too. Just damn sick of sleeping alone these days.

 

[SassySheDevil]

ICT- for too long, I wanted to be liked by people who clearly did not like me, so I tried too hard. I know that chasing the acceptance of those who don't appreciate me, is stupid and I could tell anyone else to stop doing that. To love themselves enough to only give their time and attention to those who deserved it, and wanted it. So why is it so hard to let go of the people who clearly don't want mine?
IACT- I know the answer to that. I'm still fucked up even after all my therapy.
when Vacation gives you too much time to think... or overthink LOL

 

[barefootgirl69]

ICT- for too long, I wanted to be liked by people who clearly did not like me, so I tried too hard. I know that chasing the acceptance of those who don't appreciate me, is stupid and I could tell anyone else to stop doing that. To love themselves enough to only give their time and attention to those who deserved it, and wanted it. So why is it so hard to let go of the people who clearly don't want mine?
IACT- I know the answer to that. I'm still fucked up even after all my therapy.
when Vacation gives you too much time to think... or overthink LOL

ICT I don't think it's stupid. We all want to be liked, some more than others. I think it means more to some of us, maybe due to our insecurities.

IACT it's easy to acknowledge that we see the problem, and much harder to change a pattern that has been a part of us for so very long.

IFCT I think you should not be so hard on yourself and take one day at a time. We didn't learn to accept poor behaviour overnight, and it won't end overnight, either.

JMO

 

[RustyIron]

ICT- for too long, I wanted to be liked by people who clearly did not like me, so I tried too hard. I know that chasing the acceptance of those who don't appreciate me, is stupid and I could tell anyone else to stop doing that. To love themselves enough to only give their time and attention to those who deserved it, and wanted it. So why is it so hard to let go of the people who clearly don't want mine?
IACT- I know the answer to that. I'm still fucked up even after all my therapy.
when Vacation gives you too much time to think... or overthink LOL

ICT Sassy is not fucked up, she's pretty normal, just there is a lot that will never admit to being the same.

ICT I don't think it's stupid. We all want to be liked, some more than others. I think it means more to some of us, maybe due to our insecurities.

IACT it's easy to acknowledge that we see the problem, and much harder to change a pattern that has been a part of us for so very long.

IFCT I think you should not be so hard on yourself and take one day at a time. We didn't learn to accept poor behaviour overnight, and it won't end overnight, either.

JMO

ICT I think your pretty right.

IFCT I have some trivia, it takes at least 14 days of being 100% consistent in what you do, think, and act, to rewire any particular part of the the brain to change it.

Now I never said it was easy because it isn't. if you can do it though the new brain rewire becomes the new normal, and the old wiring slips away, but it is hard work.

Gawd don't ask me how I know this stuff, I will just say I have had more formal training in this area than I could ever possibly explain or ever use in one life time..

 

[SassySheDevil]

ICT I don't think it's stupid. We all want to be liked, some more than others. I think it means more to some of us, maybe due to our insecurities.

IACT it's easy to acknowledge that we see the problem, and much harder to change a pattern that has been a part of us for so very long.

IFCT I think you should not be so hard on yourself and take one day at a time. We didn't learn to accept poor behaviour overnight, and it won't end overnight, either.

JMO

Thank you BFG. I appreciate that ⚘

ICT Sassy is not fucked up, she's pretty normal, just there is a lot that will never admit to being the same.




ICT I think your pretty right.

IFCT I have some trivia, it takes at least 14 days of being 100% consistent in what you do, think, and act, to rewire any particular part of the the brain to change it.

Now I never said it was easy because it isn't. if you can do it though the new brain rewire becomes the new normal, and the old wiring slips away, but it is hard work.

Gawd don't ask me how I know this stuff, I will just say I have had more formal training in this area than I could ever possibly explain or ever use in one life time..

14 days sounds easy. ICT- I know better though.

Thank you!

 

[haha_on_me]

ICT- for too long, I wanted to be liked by people who clearly did not like me, so I tried too hard. I know that chasing the acceptance of those who don't appreciate me, is stupid and I could tell anyone else to stop doing that. To love themselves enough to only give their time and attention to those who deserved it, and wanted it. So why is it so hard to let go of the people who clearly don't want mine?
IACT- I know the answer to that. I'm still fucked up even after all my therapy.
when Vacation gives you too much time to think... or overthink LOL

I think more people will be able to relate to this than you can imagine. I go through the same feelings every time I log in to this place. We'll be ok though, we always are.

 

[hairball18]

ICT- for too long, I wanted to be liked by people who clearly did not like me, so I tried too hard. I know that chasing the acceptance of those who don't appreciate me, is stupid and I could tell anyone else to stop doing that. To love themselves enough to only give their time and attention to those who deserved it, and wanted it. So why is it so hard to let go of the people who clearly don't want mine?
IACT- I know the answer to that. I'm still fucked up even after all my therapy.
when Vacation gives you too much time to think... or overthink LOL

You hold up hope that you can be the one person that can get through to them to get them to like you. After a while you realize it is them not you.

 

[SassySheDevil]

I think more people will be able to relate to this than you can imagine. I go through the same feelings every time I log in to this place. We'll be ok though, we always are.

Thank you. I am sure you are correct.

You hold up hope that you can be the one person that can get through to them to get them to like you. After a while you realize it is them not you.

They would have to talk to me first, and most do not. But as I said. I realized that I should not be chasing the attention of those who do not want mine.

 

[RustyIron]

ICT I am so so tired it's been a loooong day in the Info Tech world today. Good night world!

 

[Cyclista]

I confess that in real life I am modest and reserved, and not eager at all to show too much.

 

[Micio_Lambire]

ICT I think she looks delicious.

 

[DonQuixoteindfw]

ICT yesterday I received a PM from an old friend on here and it was great to hear from her.

 

[Gemma_0]

ICT I find it funny that one certain day of the year-and only that day- has been chosen to be a day of thanks.

 

[Misha_Davis]

Now that's a real confession that took guts to post. I give you a lot of credit for coming back, saying that and keeping your account.

Now go and say 10 Hail Marys and 10 AbsintheFathers and your sins will be absolved

ICT I only came here to see what Absinthefather posted, but I am glad I saw your post.

I'm glad you were able to get the help you needed and I'm glad you've returned.

ICT I'm happy that there are Lit people like you two and others. Reading these put a smile on my face

IACT as I reflect on this day of Thanksgiving, I do have much to be thankful for.

IFCT I want to wish you all a very Happy Thanksgiving

 

[Misha_Davis]

ICT I find it funny that one certain day of the year-and only that day- has been chosen to be a day of thanks.

ICT we should be thankful each and every day.

 

[DarkrSide]

ICT it fucking blows to be lonely....

IFCT it's even worse during the holidays.

IACT I'm not looking forward to the next month

 

[missswannie]

ICT its blue skies and the beach is more appealing than the office

 

[Micio_Lambire]

ICT it fucking blows to be lonely....

IFCT it's even worse during the holidays.

IACT I'm not looking forward to the next month

 

[Polranny]

ICT i am really randy right now

 

[Micio_Lambire]

ICT I love pushing my own boundaries.

 

[Gemma_0]

ICT I do not suffer fools lightly

 

[Micio_Lambire]

ICT I wish it were warmer. These kids' energy is too high to be stuck inside.

IACT I feel guilty thinking it but I wish she could have her own place cus I would more privacy and quiet.