Confessions: What Are Yours? Part IV

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ICT having a quiet pee in the garden was a better solution than scrubbing my dirty feet to cross my still wet clean floors

A theory I've adhered to for years, especially as the last two houses had very private gardens, and only had bathrooms upstairs.

However, the image of a lady doing it... Very hot.
 
ICT I always picture in my mind that nights are crazy on here with lots and lots of posts by lots of different people on every single thread but wow, tumbleweeds :(
 
ICT I let a coworkers wife give me a blow job a few years ago.
IACT he has hinted that she told him.
IFCT he doesn’t know that I fucked her too.
 
ICT I definitely have a physical "type" that I'm attracted to.

IACT I've never actually been with someone who physically fits that mold.

IFCT I suppose that means I'm more sapiosexual than anything else. Or something.
 
ICT theoretically I could go home now. But I'm happy in my warm office browsing lit. Some of the little alone time I get.

IACT the above is mainly due to my wife's depression. She's a narcissist also. So as soon as I'm home she'll unload all her physical and discussed issues/tasks upon me. While she lounges on the sofa, "feeling tired".

IACT w/r #2.. I'm tired. I need to breathe.

IFCT even though she has zero libido, and has said that sex is off the table for the foreseeable future (3x last year)... And she's gained 6st since we met.... She's still beautiful, and right now I'd fuck her senseless. Passionately and not with masses of concern for her enjoyment.
 
ICT I can’t watch pornstars who have died. Case in point: August Ames. She used to be a go-to for me when I felt like a nice pornwank, but since she died, I can’t do it to her vids anymore.

I never know when they pass. I guess I am not a true fan but I have my favorite(s?).
 
ICT having a quiet pee in the garden was a better solution than scrubbing my dirty feet to cross my still wet clean floors

when you got to go you have to go and at times just pull the panties to the side and go. Can't get that floor dirty for sure.;)
 
ICT I just sat in my car and ate fast food for lunch. It felt shameful. I guess I’ll follow the advice I often give and “do better tomorrow.”
 
ICT I put up a good facade and appear strong on the outside
IACT on the inside I’m feeling empty
IFCT I hope this passes soon
 
ICT I spend the large part of today in my office not being productive in the least and when asked about it, I totally gave a false answer.
 
Ict when I’ve felt ashamed of buying fast food, I’ve gone to a empty car park to eat so less likely to be judged. Feel like I have to secret eat chocolate as a diabetic 🙄
 
ICT I have been diagnosed with what is called high-functioning depression.
IACT I never heard of that until 2 weeks ago
IFCT I do not know what’s next
 
In very basic it’s a form of depression that doesn’t fit the typical idea of what depression should be like. Or another way of describing the bs ways for how they missed a depression dx. But quite a lot of people can be somewhat functional during the day and then crash in the evenings, or function well u til they’re suddenly suicidal.

It’s treatable. If you’re able to engage in the treatment the therapist is a good fit, then recovery is most definitely possible. Also good meds out there
 
I confess

these daily migraines are wearing on me. Some days it is hard to be cordial to others, my nature, let alone smile. Here lately even getting to the gym is difficult with them. Without the gym the weight loss slows to a crawl. I worry sometimes if I do get these migraines under control, will I know what to even do. I have had them almost daily for like 5 years, maybe longer but my mind is dull from pain and the years blur together.
 
Ict when I’ve felt ashamed of buying fast food, I’ve gone to a empty car park to eat so less likely to be judged. Feel like I have to secret eat chocolate as a diabetic 🙄

Judged by whom?

I confess I've read your explanation of high-functioning depression with personal affection. I am strictly against the modern way of reducing the understanding and solving of each and every economic-social conflict to the victim's treatment with meds though. I know on the other hand that in certain situations psychotherapy and meds are life-saving.

I further confess I feel like you performed some secret and hidden sexual act when eating chocolate hided away from the public.
 
ICT I can't wait for my girlfriend to become my wife. I love her and my hubby more each day.
 
ICT I spend the large part of today in my office not being productive in the least and when asked about it, I totally gave a false answer.

ICT I do this too for about 50% of my working week. My job is very feast or famine. When there's budgets, we have more work than men/machines/hours.

When budgets are gone/rescinded, and we're in the final 1/4 of the FYni could probably do my whole job in 2x 8hour days a week at work and work from home the rest. Dealing with issues.


However, that's not allowed. So I spend my days on here, Kik or simply floating around the offices "looking busy".
 
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