Drow's General OOC-We're Back Babee!~

[Poprockz]

Maybe you should! Post a Christmas song or something in here like the Naughty or Nice song.

Yeah, I think the making the whole poly-thing work in practice was kind of new for everyone, so it makes sense that there might be a few bumps or periods of reevaluation. I’ve been single for a while and can say that it can get lonely, but it’s nice to be independently yourself. I think in order to really get what you want, you gotta try different things and figure out what you don’t want as well.

Quint basically had Sarah the whole time, so that makes a lot of sense.

 

[Drobabes]

 

[Poprockz]

 

[Drobabes]

Maybe you should! Post a Christmas song or something in here like the Naughty or Nice song.

Yeah, I think the making the whole poly-thing work in practice was kind of new for everyone, so it makes sense that there might be a few bumps or periods of reevaluation. I’ve been single for a while and can say that it can get lonely, but it’s nice to be independently yourself. I think in order to really get what you want, you gotta try different things and figure out what you don’t want as well.

Quint basically had Sarah the whole time, so that makes a lot of sense.

This song is fucking amazing XD Top tier, going on my christmas songs list XD

Yea, been a ride. Still feels like a worthwhile ride though.

Alright! *claps hands*

The holidays are finally over, Drow's trying for an apartment on tuesday AND a new job because they fired the one boss that was trying to help us and didn't tell us why, dentist and doctors stuff is getting figure out, and I need to get a new therapist. All things considered, pretty fucking excited for this next year. Nothing truly bad happened to me this last one, and I feel way more calm and zen than I have in years.

How did everyone elses year go? Ups, downs, crazy sexy rides?

 

[Poprockz]

Oh shit, they probably got rid of him because he was trying to stir things up. That’s real unfortunate. :/ So I see new apartment, job, health opportunities, and developing romance in your future. All-in-all I’m hoping 2023 treats you well.

As for me, no crazy sexy rides to share, but I’m also hoping to get a new place soon, and for my job to develop into something worthwhile. I’ve been neglecting my health, so this is the year for healing! Mental and physical health are my main goals and I know I have the resources now to achieve them. Huzzah!

 

[HornyIsh69]

No crazy sexy rides but workaholicism for this guy! Maybe some ups and downs, but mainly Ups from here on out!

 

[Poprockz]

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

 

[Drobabes]

@Poprockz

Happy New year! This year is going to be a pretty badass year! I predict it, therefore it shall be!

*rubs hands together*

I go look at an apartment today, but when I get back I'm going to try and sit down and work strictly on rp stuff for my night off. Legit excited to just sit and calm down from life for a bit and catch up on things

Did you make any new years resolutions? I got:

Apartment
Dog by the end of the year (hopefully)
Therapy/better mental health in whatever form that takes.

 

[Poprockz]

Ah, it shall be, shall it? Then I suppose I have no choice but to have an awesome year. Damn you and your optimistic powers! XO I’ll try my pessimism again then in 2024!

Cool. I know you were really wanting to get Hard Knock planned a bit more, so that’s great! You’re going to have to let me know how the apartment visit goes.

My Resolutions are:
Improve self-esteem
Take risks
Healthier Habits

Alsoooo, I want to look into what it takes to buy a house someday.

 

[Drobabes]

That's right! >:O You take that pessimism! You take it, and you put it on its shelf! D:<

Well it was a much longer day then expected...a very very good day actually, but long and I'm kind of beat and need a good nap T_T Didn't get to do rp things like I originally planned, but in all fairness most of my day was spent on apartment things. Got to meet the landlord and she seems pretty cool for a landlord -was very upfront about things and only charges first month and deposit, and she's looking for a good match as far as tenants go so she's been willing to wait. Just very good vibes from her all around, and I LOVED the apartment. Small but like really nicely spaced, in a culdesac, and upstairs so I imagine the crime rate won't be as easy or often back there. I spent a good chunk of my time after that going and gathering paperwork from my storage and then game planning with my peeps over dinner. It was just a good day but long and I'm way off my schedule cause I had to stay up Dx

Worth it though! If I get my own place I'll have so much more freedom to be my own person again

Those are good resolutions! I love seeing the improve self esteem and taking risks I'm terrible for healthier habits, but I can for you all day and night for the other two

Ooh? :O yas! Do it Popz! Don't let your dreams, be dreams!~ Get it guurl!

 

[Poprockz]

Well, small means easier to clean, so at least you've got that going for you. Small places can become really homey if you're able to manage the space well, so I'm optimistic (yeah, you heard me right!) that you'll be able to make the most of it.

Haha, Thanks. I'll let you know if I hit any milestones or anything. Though it might be a while before I do. I'm going to Shia Leboufe my way through 2023! >:O JUST DO IT!

 

[HornyIsh69]

@Poprockz stalker me much lol? I see you in that office thread too. Jk it's fun to see you in a thread outside this one too.

Also glad you're being optimistic towards the new year!!!

 

[Drobabes]

@Poprockz

 

[Poprockz]

@ish: lol well, it seemed like an interesting and short RP, so I thought I’d dip in for a brief bit and let the next person go.

Well, I feel like the new year will have a hard time being worse than the last one. XD

@Drobabes: RIGHT?!

 

[HornyIsh69]

@Poprockz: Love how you said no to the guy who tried to see if you needed help tho haha.

Also don't worry, it's the start of the new year. It'll get better this year.

@Drobabes: Imma steal the vid for a chatroom I'm in hahaha

 

[Drobabes]

@Drobabes: RIGHT?!

"Well it's gonna take a lot to get me there!"

"Oh I hope so..."

*sits in my corner and laughs while simultaneously being turned on as hell*

 

[Poprockz]

@ish: my office lady is a strong, independent woman who don’t need no butt plug. Lol

@Drobabes: hilarilust? XD

 

[Drobabes]

Yes

Duckin hell I got insomnia >:c

Welp, time for exercise. Because surely that won't hurt me at work later xD

Oh! Oh! Doctor was finally able to diagnose me yesterday, and it's Hashimoto's Disease. Makes a lot of sense, everything matches except the easily catching colds. Or maybe my body is just hardcore at fighting colds quickly.

She's getting me some info and trying to get me over to a specialist, which will take a while but at least I can actually do things about it now and treat it.

 

[Poprockz]

<_< Insomnia is a very rude guest. Hopefully exercise won’t be the spider being swallowed to get the fly.

Holy shit, that’s great! Now that they finally know what the fuck it is, maybe they can start getting you back up and running in a healthier body! At the very least they have a point of reference to go off of. Super fucking happy for you.

 

[Drobabes]

<_< Insomnia is a very rude guest. Hopefully exercise won’t be the spider being swallowed to get the fly.

Holy shit, that’s great! Now that they finally know what the fuck it is, maybe they can start getting you back up and running in a healthier body! At the very least they have a point of reference to go off of. Super fucking happy for you.

Yea, got it under control after a second round and got myself this nutrition tracking app, cronometer. It's helping quite a bit cause I can add exercise to it and supplements as well.

God I hope so T_T just having an official diagnosis (finally!!!) helps in so many ways. She can actually treat me for it now! And I can see the specialist! And if I have to take time off work,ya know, I HAVE A DIAGNOSIS! Dx

 

[Poprockz]

Hmmm. Perhaps I too might try one of those apps. I’ve feeling… weird at times. Like something between nausea, hunger, anxiety, and a headache. I’m not sure what it is, but it’s not fun. :/

Indeed! Irrefutable proof that you’re not just fucking off or being lazy!

By the way, I’ve been meaning to talk to you about MCASS. I’d like to keep it on ice until we can both commit to posting once a week. I feel like you probably need more time to get in a better headspace/body space, and I don’t want to commit to it until I know we can both do it regularly. What are your thoughts?

 

[Drobabes]

That doesn't sound good, I'm sorry Poprockz maybe you can get into the docs and get things checked out? If there's nothing directly stressful in life causing that, there might be something more physical going on :/ But yea, a nutrition tracker couldn't hurt. Honestly this apps been super helpful, I thought I was eating healthy enough but turns out I've been lacking in some certain vitamins. I've been getting like, enough, but could be doing better.

Lol yea... didn't like to think about it, but I did feel that way some days...

That's totally fair with MCASS, honestly. I was a little worried I kinda screwed up if I'm being transparent...I really thought I would be all good and up and running, back to normal, but I just haven't been able to get there. I'm sorry for having dragged it out like that Poprockz :/

It's still important to me, mostly cause we built it together and I want to do right by you and the story we started. So yea, I think that might be a good idea. I'm going to...not touch it until I can consistently do other posts on the other rp's for a time; really know I'm in a good enough spot to get back to my hobbies. Does that sound fair?

 

[Poprockz]

Yeah, I'm planning on it soon, because there's nothing that triggered it as far as I'm concerned. :/ As far as nutrition, I know I eat like shit, but it'd be great to have a bit of guidance on how to eat less like shit.

<_<" Maybe I'll get a diagnosis too. Not sure whether to be excited or to dread it.

That sounds fair- let's reconvene on it in a couple months then. Let's say March.

Well, part of the reason I haven't posted in two months was to give you room to breathe. I figured if the ball was in your court, you'd keep thinking about it and it would nag at you more than it would if I had it. Plus, I can get obsessive at times, so it helps me to know that I have it on my side so that I don't get the compulsion to check it.

And the thing is, I really don't want you to do it out of obligation to me or because of how long we've built and developed it just because of that fact. When there's no joy or excitement for it, then what's the point? All I ask is that if you decide to discontinue it someday, that you allow me to write an ending post- one that sends them off toward an optimistic future. Might be dumb and kinda silly, but it would be important to me for closure.

 

[Drobabes]

*crashes into the ooc and falls on the floor, breathing hard* That was...a long fucking week. I don't know why, nothing particular terrible happened, but aaaahh!

Well, I hope it goes well or at least constructive when you do. Feel better Popz :<

Eating less shitty is a habit I've found >_> I started adding healthy things to my not healthy things, and then I started liking the healthy things more over time. But yea, having a little app that you can ask for a suggestion on certain foods to meet certain nutrition needs is really nice. I don't have to go looking, and then get stuck in the rabbit hole of the internet.

Alright, putting a pin for that in my calender

As far as it being on your side, I...actually really appreciate that. I wasn't thinking of it like that, but no, you're totally right. I would have just obsessed and stressed over posting... Thank you Poprockz.

No, I'm definitely not doing it out of some sense of obligation. I guess I've had a bit of a, not wanting to do to someone else, what happened to me, streak going. For a little context, over the years I got into like three really, really, good fucking story arcs with a few different people at different times that I super enjoyed. And maybe it's just that wannabe author part in me, but I got VERY invested in those rp's and when life inevitably had to take my rp partners away, for one reason or another, it always made me really fucking sad for a long time. Not that I was bitter about them going-I'm happy that they found careers or more fulfilling meaning in their lives, and kind of put the toys away so to speak. But man, I was always messed up when the rps would kind of peter out, or I would end up never seeing that person again (which, ya know, some of those people I felt really close to and it was a little like when you lose friends switching school or careers). I don't know, but I do know what you mean about wanting closure from an rp, and yes of course I would do that if it ever comes to that. Maybe if I had asked for closure posts myself back in the day I wouldn't have gotten so sad about never finishing the story.

As far as MCASS goes though, I don't WANT to stop it until we are ready to close it, and it definitely does not feel in anyway like an obligation to me. If anything, it's almost always on the back of my mind and I want to build that story with you. I'm just... Well, to be blunt, I'm getting my shit together and it's taking much longer than I thought it could. It's frustrating as fuck and disheartening some days, but I just hope I can get there. I feel like I'm so close, just a few steps away. If I could just get my own place I feel like that would literally be the key to everything and just, taking that full deep breathe and finally being able to relax and start living how I want to. So I've been going at that full force this last month, basically putting in an application to every place I know I can afford.

Bleh...anyway, went off on a tangent there. I think I got my point across lol...

 

[Poprockz]

<_<" Yeah... I'm ready for the weekend, I tell you what.

You're welcome.

Alright... As long as I don't have you figuratively leather-tied to a post, smacking your ass with the paddle of obligation. XD That's just one of my insecurities, you know? It's really nice to hear that the narrative my anxiety makes for me isn't true. Thanks for bearing with my insecurity and giving me a bit of reassurance.

Even if you don't get to do MCASS right away, I'm really rooting for you with the apartment hunt. It's SO nice to have your own place and I feel like you really deserve it.