Forbidden Desire (Closed for me and cnuveau)

[cnuveau]

I was crushed that I was hurting her but I knew it was something that needed to be done. It wasn’t going to be easy by any stretch of the imagination. I wanted her but putting this conversation off was only going to make it worse.

“I’m sorry”. Was all I could manage to say as I wrapped her in my arms and gave her a hug. Probably a mistake but I did it anyway. Her body pressed against me made me almost instantly go back on what I’d just said.

Damn this was going to be hard. I didn’t want to retreat to my room and hide so I sat down on the couch and scanned the channels for something to watch.

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

I hugged him back and clung to him for a few moments. Not wanting to let go just yet. But when we did...I didn't know what to say. So I quietly started on dinner while he watched tv. Over the next could of days, I went back to work. A barista by day on the weekdays...and my weekends...They were a different story.

The music blared loudly from backstage as I moved past the other girls to my vanity. I said my hellos and gave out some hugs, helped with hair and make up (and the occasional wardrobe malfunction) before getting myself ready. The place was packed for a Saturday. Not an uncommon sight. Our boss, the sleaze ball he was, came backstage to remind us that, "If the gents want a private show, give 'em a private show! You want that money, you do as they say!" I waited till he had left to roll my eyes. A couple of the girls looked nervous at the idea of being led to the backrooms for a 'private show'. Those were far and few in between, and they were mostly unsatisfied or overworked CEOs, Doctors, Lawyers...rich bastards getting off by being able to dominate us for sexual pleasure. If you did it...you came away with a bigger payout than being in a cage or on the pole.

 

[cnuveau]

The next few days were difficult. There was an awkwardness between Liz and I that we just couldn't get passed. It was made even more difficult because she kept walking around the house in her panties without a bra. I couldn't be sure if this was habit or if she was intentionally trying to temp me. Maybe a little bit of both.

My coach had called me and asked me to help with an unofficial visit for a player, Joe Wilson, from Southern that was considering transferring to play with us. Since i was unable to play I guess this was my new role. I accepted and showed him around campus, the training facilities and some of the other highpoints around campus. We grabbed a bite to eat at the bar where Liz and I had gone days before and I couldn't help but think about that night as we sat there having a couple beers and eating pizza.

As we wrapped up Joe looked across the table and asked "So where's the fun really at around her?" I wasn't quite sure what he meant specifically so I talked about some of the frat parties I'd been to before he stopped me. "so no strip clubs?" I guess he'd expected the full recruiting trip. I thought for a moment then remembered this place across town and suggested that. He agreed and we paid our tab and loaded into the car.

15 minutes later we pulled into the parking lot of Visions Men's Club. I'd never been there before, wasn't much for strippers but was curious to see what it was like. We walked in and it was moderately crowded. We were able to find a table toward the front, ordered a couple beers then turned our attention to the dancer on stage. She was cute if not a little plain. She moved from the stage and passed by tables collecting bills in her g-string and giving the occasional lap dance for larger tips as they announced the next performer.

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

I quickly made my way to the front as Chelsey, or Charity (yes, I aware if the irony and originality behind the stage name), rather, made her way back to the stage. Finishing her set. I gave her a smile and a thumbs up at the money, now in her hands. Chelsey was a good person in my book. Like me, she was still going to school and working another job. But where as I took care of me and Steve...she was taking care of her mother, who was in out of the hospital a lot because of chemo, and her kid sister who was 12 and in middle school. Because of this, it wasn't uncommon for the girls and I to sometimes add to her 'tips' st the end of the evening by slipping our combined money into her bag while she changed. I was sure Chelsey knew it was, but she also knew we were looking out for her and her family. We knew that, God forbid, anything happen to her mom...Chel would be all her sister had left in this town. And being over 18 with any remaining family states away...Chel was the best option.

So lost in my head at these musings, I almost didn't hear them call me. Luckily, Melissa (or Melody as she was known here with her very adult Little Mermaid get up) had nudged me and nodded at the stage. I blushed and grinned at her, mouthing "thank you!" before stepping out onto the stage. The light hadn't hit me yet as I seductively made my way over to the pole while Playground by Bea played, but as I scanned that crowd I nearly faltered in my steps as I was seized with panic. Steve was here!! He knew I worked as a Barista but I never spoke about this job and things were weird enough right now without adding to it!

 

[cnuveau]

As the next dancer came on stage I wasn't paying much attention. I was talking to Joe about the program and what he could expect. I'd noticed that he'd tuned me out though as he gawked at the stage. I turned my head to see what was so appealing when I noticed it was Liz. My jaw about hit the table as I fought through the urge to run up there and drag her off the stage.

As she trilled on the pole Joe made a comment about wanting to fuck her and I quickly took a sip of my beer to mask my rage in the moment. As much as I tried I couldn't take my eyes off her though as some of her more suggestive moves churned up memory after memory. I watched her with wrapped attention until she finished her number.

As she walked off the stage Joe was busy fishing what cash he had in his wallet out and waving it towards her trying to get her attention. Again, I fought back the urge to drop him where he sat.

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

My heart raced the whole time I was on that stage. Moving up and down and around the pole. Spreading my legs and bearing myself the way I did. I had tried, and failed...horribly, to keep my eyes off Steve. At the end of it, I nearly ignored all the eager tables waving their money around in favor of rushing backstage for my dressing gown...and maybe a Xanax. Just get the money, brush your fingers on the shoulder, and move on. It's no different than any other night! I fought with myself. Descending those stairs. You don't have to talk. Flash that smile and move on with the money. Plenty of tables to work... I kept thinking, beginning my rounds. My hands trailed shoulders and chests, a lap dance here and there. But I didn't linger once I had snagged the offered money. I hesitated when I got to Steve's table. I eyed the guy with him and moved to him. Letting my hand brush over his chest and up along the arm to take the money from him so I could hurry off.

 

[cnuveau]

As she walked up and traced her finger over Joes arm and chest I was still deciding what to do. Without thinking I fished a $20 from my pocket and quickly held it up before she moved on. As she turned to me I could see the discomfort all over her face. I gave her a reassuring smile and without much other thought tucked the $20 under my belt.

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

I was just about to step away when Steve suddenly held up a 20. I looked at him in disbelief and I knew he could see me debating walking away. "Damn it..." I muttered to myself and walked over. I came to stand behind him. Brushing my hands over his shoulders and sliding them down his chest for that damn 20 tucked under his belt. "This isn't funny!" I hissed in his ear, pressing my chest to his head. Fingers teasing at his belt as they inched towards the money. "What are you doing!?" I asked him.

 

[cnuveau]

When she asked what I was doing I didn’t have a clear answer in my mind. Joe and I had had several beers at that point and there was an awkwardness to the whole thing that I was desperate to put aside. In addition to all that seeing her dance did, in fact, turn me on. What was I doing? No idea. What came out of my mouth? “I’m entertaining but you are much better at it.”

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

I blushed a little and was grateful that it couldn't be seen in the dimly lit room. I didn't know what to say, so I snagged the 20 and brought my hands back along his chest before turning and walking off. Quickly making my escape to backstage. I would be sure he got the 20 back later.....at home. My heart was racing and my limbs felt a little shaky by the time I made it backstage to my vanity. I hastily set all my money down on the vanity and shook my hands out. Anxiety and Panic together in one attack wasn't new to me. I'd had them my whole life. I'd get so worked up, usually just from being nervous or worried, that I'd trigger an attack. Usually Steve helped me through them. But I had learned how to get myself through one. He couldn't always be there after all. I gripped onto the back of my chair and closed my eyes. Taking deep, calming breaths. This was never how I had wanted him to find out. What he must think of me now... If only he knew about you sleeping with the Dean and your TAs. My treacherous thoughts said. Making me bite my lip. What would Steve think of his baby sister, who not only slept with him and was definitely in love with him, if he knew just how much of a slut she really was? I winced at my own harsh thought.

 

[cnuveau]

Her hands stroking down my chest to retrieve the $20 seemed to set in motion a series of decisions that my drunk, horny mind couldn't derail. After all, the coach did say spare no expense showing Joe a good time and I wasn't in a position to just leave him there by himself. Besides, I thought to myself, it's just a private lap dance. It's not going to get out of hand.

I waved the manager over and as he leaned in to hear me I asked for a private show with Liz. He nodded enthusiastically then led us down a hall and showed us into a dimly lit room with a plush sofa. The music from the club, though muffled slightly, echoed through the room as he told us to wait while he retrieved her.

As the door closed Joe turned to me and offered a high five shouting "This is what I'm talking about!" We took a seat on the sofa and waited for her to arrive. I knew Liz would probably be a little nervous about the whole thing but I figured she'd relax quickly enough.

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

I wanted to be sick with my anxiety then and there when my boss came in to tell me that the gentlemen at table 6, my brother's table, wanted me for a private show! I was shaking badly. If it had been just Steve, I could get through it. He would help, he always helped. I almost started crying once my boss walked off. How could he do this!? How could I do this!? He said we couldnt....I told him I wouldn't push. So what the hell was he thinking!?

I nervously made my way to the backroom where they were. Tried to play it cool. Tried to not shake. I took deep breaths as I pauses at the heavy blackout curtains that sectioned off the room before I pushed it aside enough to step inside. Still clad in my dressing gown as I looked at them.

 

[cnuveau]

I could see the nervousness written all over her face as she stepped inside. At that moment I regretted putting her in this situation but I couldn't see any clear way out. What was I thinking? I stood and extended my hand towards her as I looked into her eyes trying to reassure her as much as I could She stepped towards me to take it and I awkwardly raised her hand over her head and twirled her completing the twirl with her back facing me. I sat down and guided her hips to my lap. Instinctively she began to move to the music as I parted her robe and ran my hands over her breasts. She arched her back and moaned a little as she ground harder into me causing my cock to strain against the zipper of my jeans.

Joe reached over and began rubbing her thigh as she straddled my lap.

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

I was grateful when Steve took my hand and initiated things. It calmed me almost instantly. His steady breathing against my back helping me to focus and calm my racing heart. He guided me to sit in his lap as his hands caressed my body. Brushing over my breasts and making me moan as I arched into his touch. My hips grinding down hard against his cock as I moved to the music. My legs were parted from straddling his lap, inviting his friend to reach over and stroke my inner thighs. But I was more focused on my big brother. On Steve and his touch. On the way his breathing kept me focused and calmed my anxiety in the way only he could ever do.

I gave his hand a squeeze, a silent thank you, as my other hand reached up to cup the side of his face.

 

[cnuveau]

I slid her robe over her shoulders then with a lift of her hips slid it free and discarded it to the side. Her hair brushed against my cheek and chest as she slowly gyrated on my lap. I cupped her breasts with my hands again pinching her nipples lightly between my fingers. i could feel them stiffen as she let out another moan. I hadn't even noticed Joe scooting closer to her or his mouth replacing my hand as it slid from her breast, down her stomach and between her legs. Her head fell back on my shoulder as I kissed her neck. Had my eyes not been closed I might have seen Joe take her hand and place it on his crotch.

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

Slowly, my robe was undone and pulled off my shoulders. Exposing my breasts as the silky material fell to the floor. My hips still gyrating, grinding needily into his hard cock while his hand cupped my breasts. Skilled fingers pinching my stiffening nipples as I let out a soft moan. Mt head falling back to his shoulder as his lips found my neck. I wanted to moan his name but I couldn't. I couldn't let on that I knew him, his friend couldn't know. I could only hope Steve knew my moans were from his touch alone despite his friend moving closer and taking my nipple into his mouth. Lashing at it with his tongue. Joe's hand took mine and placed it over his crotch where I could feel his hard cock...while Steve's hand slide down my body. Caressing my toned stomach till it was between my legs. My brother's skilled fingers rubbed at my wet pussy, pinched and teased my clit as I bucked and arched against him. Whimpering with needy pleasure for him.

 

[cnuveau]

Though I knew those moans escaping her lips were for me, I don't think Joe had quite the same understanding. He heard her moans to mean she was into both of us. As I drove my fingers into her a throaty groan came from deep within her.

Joe pulled her thigh towards him shifting her enough so that she was half on his lap and half on mine then slipped his hand under mine and started to stroke her clit. Now sitting on my thigh her moved to stroke my cock through my jeans leaving her rubbing both our cocks while we both played her her pussy.

She leaned in to kiss me and I heard Joes zipper lowering the he freed his cock and wrapped her fingers around its thickness. Liz began to work my zipper lower then wrapped her fingers around mine as well. Her moans were getting louder as my fingers drove deeper while Joe stroked her clit.

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

A deep, throat moan left me as Steve's fingers dove into my pussy. Pushing in deep as my hips bucked for him. I bit my lip as Joe started stroking my clit while he still sucked my breast. My hand still on his crotch over his jeans while my other hand now did the same to Steve. My head turned, desperately seeking my brother's lips for a greedy kiss. As my lips found his, I heard Joe grunt as he got his jeans undone and pulled out his cock. He wrapped my fingers around it and I began stroking him. Moaning into Steve's kiss, pushing my tongue past his lips as I began to get his pants undone. Eagerly seeking out his cock. My moans, though muffled by the kiss, grew louder as my body was teased and worshipped.

 

[cnuveau]

As she started to stroke my cock I lost whatever control I had left. I groaned as she kissed me then slid away slightly and guided her head down into my lap. She kneeled on the couch beside me than took my cock into ent mouth. “God, that feels good.” I leaned my head back and closed my eyes.

There was a shift on the sofa beside me that drew my attention. I turned to find Joe positioning himself behind her. I was about to say something to stop him when he drove into her and she moaned around me cock and took me deeper. She didn’t seem to mind so I let it go.

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

I brushed my hair over my shoulder as I sunk to my knees beside him on the couch. Head lowered to his lap as I greedily swallowed him down my relaxed throat. My cheeks hollowed as I bobbed my head up and down his cock. My tongue rubbing at him as I moaned and sucked him off. My eyes looking up at him...least until his friend's cock had pushed into me. My eyes closed as I cried out around my brother's cock. Joe was nowhere near as big as Steve, and he didn't fill me the way Steve did...but I put up with this for both of our sakes. I was, after all, being paid to do this (though Steve would get his money back later at home) and it seemed Steve was tasked with showing this guy a good time. I knew that meant, despite how painful the realization for my brother, that this guy was taking his place now that Steve was benched.

 

[cnuveau]

I groaned as she each of Joe’s thrusts caused her to take me deep in her mouth. My hand found her tits, swaying back and forth as he fucked her and teased her nipples. After a few moments, out of the corner of my eye I saw Joe scramble to grab her robe then wrap it around his cock as he groaned, came into it then collapses on the sofa.

Rid of him Liz climbed back on my lap, wrapped her hand around my cock and guided it into her and dropped down taking my full length in one quick motion. She wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me as she rocked her hips slowly at first then allowed the momentum of her passion to bounce harder onto me.
her

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

I was not at all happy that my dressing gown was now ruined with some guys cum all over it, and I made a mental note to get it home and washed, before I let myself focus on Steve again. My strong, wonderful big brother guided me back to his lap. He had been teasing my breasts as his friend fucked me, causing me to take my brothers cock deeper into my mouth, and I knew my brother could tell his friend wasn't that satisfying of a fuck.

As I straddled his lip again, he drew me into a sweet kiss while his hand guided mine to his cock. I gave it a few strokes and together, we lined him up at my pussy before I sank down to the hilt on him. My arms went around his neck as I pressed my body into his. My breasts against his chest as I slowly rocked my hips, grinding against him before I gave in. I decided I needed my brother and his cock to satisfy me in the way his friend couldn't. Passion took over and I rode him harder, faster. My breasts bouncing against his chest as I moaned and whined into his kiss. Wishing I could tell him, no scream for him, to show me who this pussy really belonged to and would belong to from now on. I wanted nothing more than to beg my brother to fuck me senseless.

But I couldn't. Not here, not with this guy around. So I settled for hungry kisses and desperate needy sounds of pleasure as I clung to my big brother.

 

[cnuveau]

She rode me hard until I started to feel her muscles tightening around my cock. She pulled tighter and moaned into my neck as her body shook against me. Her wetness flowing down my inner thigh as she came hard. I wanted to fill her with cum so badly as my breathing started to become ragged. I managed to utter "cumming" not sure what I could really do at that moment to prevent that outcome as I held it back as long as I could.

 

[PlayfulDevil192]

In the way only he could, Steve pulled me down onto his thrusting cock. Fucking me as deeply as he physically could while I rode him harder. Ground down on him like the needy little slut I knew I was. I cried out into his neck as my body shook with my orgasm. My juices gushing out around his cock, soaking him. Because of this job and it's risks, I was on the pill and had even had the day after pill at home to take in the morning. So much as I wanted him to cum in me and fill me with it...I knew his little friend there may ask questions. And we couldn't have that. So with some reluctance...I slid off his cock and eagerly sank to my knees in front of him. I stroked and licked at his cock. My mouth open with needy moans for his cum. My eyes on him and him alone.

 

[cnuveau]

I watched as she stoked my cock, her mouth poised to swallow my load. She looked up at me and as I looked into her eyes it hit me. My head fell back and I could feel her lips wrap around the tip of my cock as I felt it jerk with each stream it released into her mouth. She took it all then licked the last droplets from the tip. I exhaled loudly as she stood then took her robe from beside Joe. Reaching into my pocket I pulled out 4 $100 bills and handed them to her as I leaned in and whispered "complements of the athletics department." With that she turned and vanished through the curtain leaving Joe and I zipping up our pants. We followed soon after and I dropped him off at his hotel before heading home and collapsing in bed.