It sucks to be me.

[tealsphynx]

I'm such a fucking procrastinator. I've got a test tomorrow and I haven't done more than take lecture notes, no reading, no notecards just unreadable notes. I've got a paper due tomorrow too, not that I've done anything but twist and turn in my ideas about it. Then on Teusday I've got two papers due along with 2 sets of annotated articles, that, oh yeah, are SITTING ON MY HARDDRIVE UNPRINTED. I don't know why I do this to my self. It's not that I hate school, I just hate having a goal and then working up to it. I want to see my goal and then be there. Someone once gave me an analogy using Angel Food Cake, that, I want to eat cake so I decide to bake one...but instead of choosing something simple, like chocolate or even hot milk sponge cake I choose angel food. Angel food has a long involved process to make it turn out right, but I don't care, I want my cake. I haven't reached the point of actually baking it yet, but I want it. Ugh. can't remember where the analogy goes from there. The school puts my graduation date at spring 2011....I'm determined to do it by Fall 2008 because by the time spring 2009 comes around we may be moving and I am NOT doing that transfer student bullshit again. Possible, maybe. Insane, of course. will my counselor even let me do it? I dunno I go in this week for academic counseling for re enrollment. <shrug> stupid goals.