it's almost been 3 months..

[lickerish]

Since my mom passed away. I still don't feel like she's truly *gone*.. it feels more like she went somewhere and will be back soon. When I'm at my dad's, I keep turning around on the couch, expecting to see her sitting at her chair at the table. When I'm blue, my hand still reaches for the phone to get my mom/daughter 'feel-better' talk.

Today kinda put things in perspective, they finally put her headstone down at the gravesite.

I miss her.





I love you mom. Hug Grandpa and Jay Jay for me.

 

[Jewelz]

*warm hugs*

 

[red_rose]

Oh, honey... you got me all teary eyed there...

damn damn damn...

I will not cry...I will not cry...

I don't know what I'd ever do without my mother...



*hugs*

Time heals all wounds....

 

[SkAoUt]

I'll offer my condolences

I'm terribly sorry for your loss lickerish. My nan passed on a year and 2 months ago. My mom misses her something awful. I didn't even shed a tear. Its odd how some people deal with death.
Sorry I'm not good at condolences.

 

[Sillyman]

Now I'm gonna cry...

Sorry your mom died. Hope you can feel better soon.

 

[Avery_Chisholm]

big HUGGGGGGGGGGGGS!!

sry 2 hear about your loss

 

[*bratcat*]

I refuse to hug you in this thread.

 

[Siren]

Time marks the loss Lickerish

 

[lickerish]

if you are emotional, don't read this...

Thanks you guys. It's okay to cry y'know...



I keep thinking about when I was sitting there holding her hand, and she started moaning.. I made them get my dad, because I think she was signaling that she was ready to go. So there we were sitting around her bed, holding her hands and telling her how much we love her, when we turned off the oxygen and she took her final soft, shallow breath. I can't help but wonder if she was able to think properly, and if so, what it must be like.. to have to 'let go' because your body refuses to let you stay on.

Life is.. so. cruel.

 

[Siren]

You were strong enough to let her go

 

[lickerish]

Thank you Sirenita

It's not so much being strong enough to let her go. It's not like I could have stopped it, right? My birthday was hard, 2 weeks before my 25th. And Mothers Day was really hard, I couldn't bring myself to take her flowers.. I felt like I was cheating her, but not being able to hug her.. just lay flowers down.


Did I mention that we planted like a hundred daffodils over my mom, grandpa and brothers gravesites? The graveyard is kinda neglected, so next spring at least the flower lady will get her pretty flowers. (my mom was a nursery-woman by trade, and plant grower by love)

 

[Svedish_Chef]

Hey mom, take care up there.

 

[Siren]

try this at next important milestone

 

[LRC]

One day

thoughts of your mom will come with a smile not tears.


****huggggs****

 

[Latinababe]

It's been along time since my father has been gone, but till this day I still think he is here with us. I don't think I would ever be able to except it.

Huggggsssss to u. I know how u are feeling.

 

[Juspar Emvan]

I have nothing to say really. But I want you to know I came, I read I cried, and I sent you my love.

 

[sexyspank]

Since my mom passed away. I still don't feel like she's truly *gone*.. it feels more like she went somewhere and will be back soon. When I'm at my dad's, I keep turning around on the couch, expecting to see her sitting at her chair at the table. When I'm blue, my hand still reaches for the phone to get my mom/daughter 'feel-better' talk.

Today kinda put things in perspective, they finally put her headstone down at the gravesite.

I miss her.





I love you mom. Hug Grandpa and Jay Jay for me.

lickerish time passes and that love will always be there but the pain will fade with time although the memories will always be with you. You know where I am..




Wendy

 

[freakygirl]

A~

It's ok if the pain never fades, even 6 years after my brothers and fathers death I still feel the pain.

I hear my father yell my name, late at night when I'm asleep. I hear my brothers truck pull into the drive way. I see someone on the streets, from behind, that reminds me of them. Everywhere I look I see them..

It's ok to cry..

I'm crying with you

 

[Raina]

I just had to say...I am so sorry for your loss.

 

[Guest]

Lickerish,

Love, I don't doubt you'll always miss your Mother. But, she isn't gone from your heart. She is imprinted upon your soul map. As time goes by, there will be more smiles than tears. I promise.

 

[lickerish]

I love you guys. I have to say that.