JenniferO

[sammy 2006]

Please, please, please... don't worry about me. I'm not suicidal or anything. I'm just in a funk is all. It really is an artist thing and has plagued me my entire life. The highs are fantastic, but the blues are just brutal sometimes. I don't know why it is that way, but just lately all I feel like doing is lying in my bed and crying. I know it stupid, I really do. I have a great life and should be thankful for it and I am. It's just that I'm throwing my own little pity party for myself.

My birthday is in a couple of weeks and I just really miss my family this time of year. I have no family to celebrate with and so it just gets a little lonely sometimes. Both my parent's passed within a year of one another of different forms of cancer and even now 7 years later, it's still very hard this time of year. Some years are worse than others. Last year wasn't bad, but this year the blues are back worse than ever. I just feel like I'm not special to anyone in the world and not loved by anyone. I find that it's a very sad feeling. I understand that this is something I totally bring upon myself, but it's still very painful.

The worse part is that it's not true. Rachel loves me as much as any sister and more. I have other friends who love me to death too, I just don't want to bother them with my blues, As I said, it's just me being stupid and I can't help it.

So please, please... don't worry about me. I'll be fine soon enough, I just need to work my way through it and stay away from the sauce. That only makes it worse.

I'll be fine.

I'll be fine..

I'll be fine...

Don't be down girl, chin up, arse in gear, knock em dead wherever you are!
And i got a flat for rent if you wanna escape it all and visit little old England
xxxx
sammy

 

[albertaboy]

I hope you come back, I went in here last night to show this thread to my wife and you were gone.

It was a great adventure and you made us feel like we were there.

 

[SamFrench]

I've told you before that you're the only reason I check the BB anymore. You're the only reason I started coming back. I remembered your stories and couldn't believe my luck when I found the pics to go along with your sexy stories. In reading your posts I've come to know you as a very sensitive and caring person, just the amount of time you take to post your experiences and pics is proof of that. You're not an attention junkie, otherwise you'd be on here way more often. You really make my day when I see you've posted, and not just a story or pic, but even if you just come by to say hi. I hope this period will pass quickly for you, I've been thru episodes like this myself, so I know there may not be anything any of us can say to change your mind, but just know I'll be thinking about you and hoping you're okay, and maybe you'll come back and realize that we're not just fans, we're friends too. Feel free to email or PM anytime you need someone to vent to, I really do know what this feels like and it's always easier to go thru it with friends for support.

All my best to you, S

 

[george55]

Jenn

I think your boys are trying to say that you've given so much and collectively we are trying to give what we can in this limited manner to give you a little boost...........

 

[debrandy]

Share it.

Jenn, share it with friends. That's what they're for. You'd do it for them and they'll appreciate that you thought enough of them to share with them. I can empathize with you, I've been there.

 

[JenniferO1]

Ok guys, I've got it now...

I don't know who it was that emailed me, but thankyou so much! This is Rachel, some of you may remember me. Jenno and I have been best friends forever and she posted some pictures of me a few months ago.

I got the email telling me to check out her thread, I haven't even talked to Jenno in a couple of months. That just happens with us, especially since I'm such a stupid flake and just don't appreciate my friends as I should. I checked the thread and saw what was going on. I tried calling Jenno and she wouldn't even answer the phone the first three time I called. But screw that... I left messages and kept calling. I finally got her and it was all tears. She couldn't even talk to me she was so unset. I got in the car and drove the two hours to her house, I have a key and I found her curled up in her bed just weeping her heart out. Iclmbed into bed and just hugged her. It was like she was a child and she just cried in my arms as we lay there in the dark.

She gets like this, this time of year. She really, really misses her parents, they were the best and she lost them too young. She really is good at being brave and stuff, but sometimes... this time of year, it's just like a hurricane or something and it just overwhelmes her. She was good last year and so I just thought she was over it all. I should've called to check in, I know how she can get and I didn't. I'm really a pretty poor example of a friend I guess.

I'm with her now and she's sleeping. She just needs a friend right now and probably some family. She has an uncle and an aunt, but neither seem terrribly concerned about her. I guess they figure she's rich, so what else could she possibly need.... maybe a little love wouldn't be too much to ask. All she needs is to feel loved a little bit. I feel so bad that I didn't get to her before this happened and thank whoever it was that emailed me. I'll thank you personally when I get back home and check my email again.

Jenno is the sweetest person I'm ever known and it breaks my heart to think that she didn't want to bother me. She's closer than a sister and she never called. I don't even know what to think, I'd call her in a second and have. I can tell you that she's in for a series bitch session from me when she's had some time to rest

I know that she's going to be seriously embarrassed that she said what she did on this thread. She doesn't like anyone to see her softer, emotional side. She's probably the smartest, most creative person I know, but just tries so hard to be the tough girl.

So... I don't know what else to say other than that expect that she'll be back before you know it. She loves this place, it's the one place she can truely be herself. She is as sweet, smart and sexy as she comes across. She just loves people, it's just that sometimes, she needs some of that love back.

I'm going to stay with her as long as needed. I've already made plans for next week. This is probably one of the worst times I've seen her since her parents died. She was inconsolalable then and it's kind of like that now. But I know that if I just lie with her, she'll feel better. I'm not even bothering to call her family, but I have put in a call to Philly and a few other friends who treasure as I do.

I'll keep you posted as I can, but don't worry, I've got her now and she's going to be fine.

Rachel

 

[MCPW]

You've proved to be a wonderful friend, Rachel, oh, that we all had someone like you to lean one at such times.

Take care of her, she deserves much more love and attention than we can possibly give her through the medium of the internet.

Many thanks for taking the time to follow up the e-mail - and thanks to whoever sent the e-mail.

 

[snake0067]

Glad to hear it.

 

[coasting]

You are a great friend Rachel.

 

[enfield71]

I have interacted with Jenn over email last year and I thought the world of her. She replies to emails promptly and was always very kind and patient. I do not know her personally but nevertheless I have to agree with everyone (specially Rachel who really knows her) that Jenn is GREAT!

Hope you feel better soon. I know that a lot of people on this thread love Jenn and we have not even met her!!

 

[RawHumor]

Thank you, Rachel.

I just have one question.

Can we see some Rachel/JennO sappic pics?



Yes, I am an ass. Thank you for asking.

 

[george55]

I don't know who it was that emailed me, but thankyou so much! This is Rachel, some of you may remember me. Jenno and I have been best friends forever and she posted some pictures of me a few months ago.


Rachel

oh...the cute blonde!!!!!

bound to cheer her up!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Macdaddy23]

If Jennifer is with that beautiful blond that will help her.

 

[bigbananna]

So glad to hear that our favorite Lit girl is in such good hands. Jenn, we will all miss your stories and photos, but you must do what is right for you.

 

[ezweler]

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[sammy 2006]

Rachel,
Seems you are the friend that can reach out to her, be with her, comfort her and see her right.

On behalf of the ones of us that care about her as a person, and not just someone with pictures on lit, give her a friend hug form me.

Please keep us posted on how she is.

Sammy
x

 

[Snow Snake]

Hi Rachel,

Thanks for taking care of our Jennifer for us.

You're obviously too hard on yourself. As soon as you found out what was going on, you dropped everything and went to her, prepared to stay for the duration. That means that you're a terrific friend, by any definition.

When Jennifer feels well enough to come back into the thread, I hope you'll come back in with her. I'm sure I speak for everyone in here when I say that we'd love to have you.

Be well, sweetie, and please give our best to Jen for us.

Snow Snake

I don't know who it was that emailed me, but thankyou so much! This is Rachel, some of you may remember me. Jenno and I have been best friends forever and she posted some pictures of me a few months ago.

I got the email telling me to check out her thread, I haven't even talked to Jenno in a couple of months. That just happens with us, especially since I'm such a stupid flake and just don't appreciate my friends as I should. I checked the thread and saw what was going on. I tried calling Jenno and she wouldn't even answer the phone the first three time I called. But screw that... I left messages and kept calling. I finally got her and it was all tears. She couldn't even talk to me she was so unset. I got in the car and drove the two hours to her house, I have a key and I found her curled up in her bed just weeping her heart out. Iclmbed into bed and just hugged her. It was like she was a child and she just cried in my arms as we lay there in the dark.

She gets like this, this time of year. She really, really misses her parents, they were the best and she lost them too young. She really is good at being brave and stuff, but sometimes... this time of year, it's just like a hurricane or something and it just overwhelmes her. She was good last year and so I just thought she was over it all. I should've called to check in, I know how she can get and I didn't. I'm really a pretty poor example of a friend I guess.

I'm with her now and she's sleeping. She just needs a friend right now and probably some family. She has an uncle and an aunt, but neither seem terrribly concerned about her. I guess they figure she's rich, so what else could she possibly need.... maybe a little love wouldn't be too much to ask. All she needs is to feel loved a little bit. I feel so bad that I didn't get to her before this happened and thank whoever it was that emailed me. I'll thank you personally when I get back home and check my email again.

Jenno is the sweetest person I'm ever known and it breaks my heart to think that she didn't want to bother me. She's closer than a sister and she never called. I don't even know what to think, I'd call her in a second and have. I can tell you that she's in for a series bitch session from me when she's had some time to rest

I know that she's going to be seriously embarrassed that she said what she did on this thread. She doesn't like anyone to see her softer, emotional side. She's probably the smartest, most creative person I know, but just tries so hard to be the tough girl.

So... I don't know what else to say other than that expect that she'll be back before you know it. She loves this place, it's the one place she can truely be herself. She is as sweet, smart and sexy as she comes across. She just loves people, it's just that sometimes, she needs some of that love back.

I'm going to stay with her as long as needed. I've already made plans for next week. This is probably one of the worst times I've seen her since her parents died. She was inconsolalable then and it's kind of like that now. But I know that if I just lie with her, she'll feel better. I'm not even bothering to call her family, but I have put in a call to Philly and a few other friends who treasure as I do.

I'll keep you posted as I can, but don't worry, I've got her now and she's going to be fine.

Rachel

 

[salami101]

God I love your ass

it is godly

 

[merlyn224]

Hello

Ok... so my test over the last few days went really well. I wasn't sure if there would be any interest in a big nippled scrawny hen like me, but apparently there are a few of you out there who enjoy torturing their poor eyes. They must've done something very wicked in a past life that warrented such cruel punishment.

So... I'll continue now in this post. I hope you all enjoy.

Jenno

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OUTSTANDING!!!!

 

[slapsht25]

Rachel,
glad you're there for our Jenno, give her my best

 

[MrHotnspicey]

" Big Nippled , One of the Sexxiest, talented, and intelligent Women" on lit. Now, that is the JennO we all know and love on here.
Damn!!! Lit is full of awesome Jennifer's. lol.
Rachel? I am very appreciative of you for going to our friend in Her time of need.
I always believed in the "Friend in need is a Friend in deed . "
Thank You for being there for our Friend , JennO.
Huggzzzz to you both.
Spicey

 

[cshaks]

Love and hugs

Jen, I have been an avid watcher of your thread for quite some time now, although I have not been a significant contributor.
You have many friends in all parts of this massive world for one reason.
You are a Beautiful person.
Your posts and writings show an honesty and a love for life that few of us can convey. Yes I must admit that I love the pictures that you have posted in the past, but without the thoughts behind them , they are just pixels.
Please, take all the time that you need, be with your friends, laugh, cry, scream, yell, but at least let them and us help you with what ever you need.

Lotsa love from the other side of the world

Chris
xxxxoooo

 

[littlebaldguy]

As with what most have said--the most important thing is to take care of yourself first--Rachel must be one helluva person and she must really think a lot of you. We will all be waiting patiently for your return--on your own terms and in whatever time it takes.

Rachel--I think it is great that you are such a real FRIEND to take the time to help our friend in need--Sorry to say I never saw you in earlier posts as they were already gone. Take care of Jenn as that is the most important thing. Thanks for being there x 100's

 

[Salvor-Hardon]

leaving what token of support and appreciation I can for Jenn.

 

[JenniferO1]

Guys... thankyou so much

I'm sorry!

I shouldn't have come on here and posted, that was really, really inconsiderate of me. It made everyone worry and there's really nothing to worry about. I'm feeling much better with Rach here, I guess I just needed to talk to a friend but didn't want to bother any of them.

I got a pretty good talking to from Rachel yesterday and I don't blame her. It seems I'm fine at helping others, I just have a problem asking for that help when I need it. I've always been like that, I just try to do things myself, I don't want to put anyone out. Rachel pointed out that being freinds is a give and take proposition and I should be thinking about how much I deprive my friends when I don't give them the chance to return those favors that apparently I dole out so well. I don't think of myself as being overly helpful, but based on what she's said and what a few others have said, I've been selfish.

Anyway, I will be back at some point, I'm just still feeling kind of run through the wringer worn out right now. I thought my recent road trip would help out and it did to an extent, but when I got home, I still had the work and all the commitments to deal with and no one to talk about it with. Things just piled up with the time of year is all.

I'm not crazy... well maybe a little. If you've followed this thread at all, then you'd have to agree. I just get the blues sometimes and am stupid about them. I feel really badly that I worried all my friends, Philly is even flying in from Iceland. I told him that he doesn't need to do that and I got another talking to. To be honest though, it's going to be so good to see him, I worry about him and his adventures and we haven't seen each other in over 8 months.

So... no more worrying, I'm in capable, loving hands and will be back to play again before you know it. Thankyou so much for your concern. When Rachel returns home, she's going to find out who it was that sent the email and I want to thank you too. I really, really needed her and was too stupid to even know it.

Sorry about all the concern and fuss I created. I may have to close this thread down and start a new one to wash this blemish away. I wouldn't want new visitors to think me as this big, stupid nutjob.

Jenn