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[normal jean]

I'll talk to the squirrels. Well one squirrel. Remember when we had that conversation about what sounds squirrels make? I said I wasn't even sure what they do because I've only known city squirrels who hang around Burger Kings. Well that is no longer true. There was a fat little fellow (or girl, who knows?) who sat right outside my window this morning as I was having my morning coffee. He was chucking and clucking madly, so I said "what's the matter little squirrel?" I swear he put his little face right by the screen and looked at me and said, "chuck chuck chuck chuck chuck." And the song from West Side Story popped into my head, so I sang "Have you met my good friend, Maria?" to him and he chucked and clucked right along with me! I couldn't believe he was doing it and I called eagleyez, who was in the living room, to come see. He came in and we both watched the squirrel watch us. I said "What's he trying to tell us?" and ee said "He's saying he's pissed he has to spend another Maine winter in this damn old barn." (Our apartment is on the second floor of what was originally a barn.) I know just how he feels, and apparently so does my boyfriend.

Or maybe he was just telling me to tell you hello.

Ohhh, Sis!! Thank you for thinking of me, you have no idea how that makes me feel...very loved


You tell that fat lil guy or gal I said hello. and, if you look closely, there's no way you could mistake a female for male, they have huge nuts, lol. We currently have a family of them- five juveniles. I don't know about Maine squirrels, but the ones we have here have 2 litters a year, and they are so adorable scurrying around and chasing one another up and down the old pines in our yard.

 

[UnderYourSpell]

Only time I have known squirrels to chuck chuck is when they are agitated (almost swearing lol)

 

[normal jean]

obviously not, but i try to find a little joy in even the most mundane things. Maybe you should try it.

 

[Senna Jawa]

Comfortable

(In a narrow context) I have defined comfortable as sharp + unbalanced. What do you say?

 

[normal jean]

anti-nekkidness and wondering WHY?

and so.... wasnt last night Halloween?

I remember giving out candy to some sweet lil darlings who were much to friendly to be going about by themselves....thats the last thing I remember..and no, I dont drink except on a blue mooon.

Wednesday I woke up sick.my chest hurting body aching, I toughed it out at work till 10:30 and hubby brought me home. Dr appt the next day consisted of antibiotics and some kinda cough syrup and all I can figure is , wel...I didnt take too much, buy why did I wake up with all my clothes on, even my jacket?

Nowe, I am sicker than I was when went to the doctor. I cant breathe and it s...u...c...k...S...cough cough. My fever is 102. ( pretend like I borrow a degree symbol from Tzara cuz I dont feel like looking for my charmap.

I love you guys, be swweet to each oger, and hey, Senna? I love you too. Hugs to you and BOOS for all the meanies ranting and all iinsecure about you, you've always been kind to me even if my poem sucked and well, most of them have. and you told me that too and I didn't wig out. You are too intelligent not to pay attention to and the others are missing out.

I always ALWAYS wanted YOU to like my work, but you never did and that gave me a thing to strive for, so thank you for your urging me on. I love you for that. The ones that get upset, haven't have not learned to appreciate your wisdom yet and cant accept that you don't kiss ass just to get attention. You don't have to! all I'm really saying is---Don't change, be you, if you aren't you, you would be someone else,. and I don't generally love random strangers.

hugs, im gone back to bed with my Hycodan, doxycycline and a thick blanket.


hugs all around,

~ NJ

ps, senna, your turn to make me some potato and onion soup, pleeease?//

 

[UnderYourSpell]

I feel there is a slight difference between not kissing ass and being downright obnoxious ... but there you go we can't all be the same or like the same things or life would be terribly boring

 

[champagne1982]

I feel there is a slight difference between not kissing ass and being downright obnoxious ... but there you go we can't all be the same or like the same things or life would be terribly boring

Speaking of boring; did you know I am the nicest person you'll ever meet browsing this particular website, sitting at this particular keyboard in this particular room, in this house on this particular street here on this particular spit of land stuck between 2 large lakes on the border of my particular province and Saskatchewan?

How's that for being nice without kissing ass... (mainly because there aren't any asses I'd like to kiss, in particular)?

 

[Angeline]

and so.... wasnt last night Halloween?

I remember giving out candy to some sweet lil darlings who were much to friendly to be going about by themselves....thats the last thing I remember..and no, I dont drink except on a blue mooon.

Wednesday I woke up sick.my chest hurting body aching, I toughed it out at work till 10:30 and hubby brought me home. Dr appt the next day consisted of antibiotics and some kinda cough syrup and all I can figure is , wel...I didnt take too much, buy why did I wake up with all my clothes on, even my jacket?

Nowe, I am sicker than I was when went to the doctor. I cant breathe and it s...u...c...k...S...cough cough. My fever is 102. ( pretend like I borrow a degree symbol from Tzara cuz I dont feel like looking for my charmap.

I love you guys, be swweet to each oger, and hey, Senna? I love you too. Hugs to you and BOOS for all the meanies ranting and all iinsecure about you, you've always been kind to me even if my poem sucked and well, most of them have. and you told me that too and I didn't wig out. You are too intelligent not to pay attention to and the others are missing out.

I always ALWAYS wanted YOU to like my work, but you never did and that gave me a thing to strive for, so thank you for your urging me on. I love you for that. The ones that get upset, haven't have not learned to appreciate your wisdom yet and cant accept that you don't kiss ass just to get attention. You don't have to! all I'm really saying is---Don't change, be you, if you aren't you, you would be someone else,. and I don't generally love random strangers.

hugs, im gone back to bed with my Hycodan, doxycycline and a thick blanket.


hugs all around,

~ NJ

ps, senna, your turn to make me some potato and onion soup, pleeease?//

Feel better sweetie. I'm sending a cuddly down blanket's worth of hugs your way. And if I were nearby, I'd bring ya some Jewish pennicillan. Oh well. Soon enough I hope.

It's cooold here today. The high is 44, but it's windy so it feels as if it's in the 30s. And for some reason I've been very tired for the past few days. I'm not sick; just catching up on the sleep I seem to miss out on so many nights. I made up a nice fresh bed this morning and ee and I have been snuggled in with the newspapers and tv, just being delightfully lazy. I made pizza dough this morning and went out early and got all my errands done, and that included picking up my favorite dessert in the world: pumpkin pie ice cream. I'm addicted to the stuff, so I guess it's a good thing it only comes out once a year.

Oh, I don't know if you saw me mention this elsewhere (I think I said something about it in the Hangout), but I had an email from Karmadoggie this morning! He's doing fine though he was laid off, poor guy--he's in Michigan when the economy is particularly bad now as you know. He seems ok with it though--for a crazy man, he's very centered lol. And he's still bitching about not meeting the right women, which is my barometer of how he really is. When he doesn't bitch, I worry about him. Anyway, it put a big smile on my face to see his name in my message list.

Take care of your sick little self there sis, and remember I'm thinking good thoughts of you. Always.

xxxxoooo,
S.

 

[UnderYourSpell]

Speaking of boring; did you know I am the nicest person you'll ever meet browsing this particular website, sitting at this particular keyboard in this particular room, in this house on this particular street here on this particular spit of land stuck between 2 large lakes on the border of my particular province and Saskatchewan?

How's that for being nice without kissing ass... (mainly because there aren't any asses I'd like to kiss, in particular)?

Huh you'll never be boring you've got guts enough to say what you think without being obnoxious about it, you're crazy and rude and I don't see you taking hissy fits. I see you laughing at life even though you have very right to have a down right moan. I am proud to call you friend oh and if this is kissing ass I don't give a toss !!

 

[normal jean]

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[normal jean]

OOOHHHH!!! guess what?

hubby and I returned from work yesterday and discovered that Darwin and Bella had made a nest!@ They were both inside their little wicker "house" and jjust chirping away.

does this mean baby finchettes someday soon? I will be a finch grandma before a human baby gramma. lol.

It is a glorious day today, and I have mums to plant and poppy seeds and some spices to scatter about before it's too late.

love you guys

ps, Senna, hope you''re ok. I know you are busy and all, but it is nice to read your entries now and then. I feel comfortable here, at home. This is almost like MY blog too, thanks to you, the other one is all clicky an d since I dont have several husbands and am not bi, and not perfect, well, this is my kinda place because you dont have to kiss butt to be loved in here.

thank you again-

 

[champagne1982]

On blogs and cliques and sarcastic digs at the rest of the world versus satire...

Harmony can be bought at a price,
If it cost a pair of lips to gluteal flesh,
So be it.
Sometimes, fun can be woven into paddles;
Yet the sting remains to remind.

Forget the estimation of the crowd,
Instead, keep perspective
To the front and always in view.
Silliness rules the day.

p.s I am not polyamorous, bisexual, perfect or whatever. A clique only exists as a name because someone gives it that identity. What's wrong with friendship, fellowship and flirts? I guess they don't sound as exclusionary as "clique". I don't suck up, either.

p.s.s I love the beauty of your story of the garden and the birds, nj. Why couldn't you have sent your jibe towards someone else to senna in a PM? It definitely spoils your loveliness this morning.

 

[Safe_Bet]

Anger, sadness and sorrow. Tears for friends held apart by words. I grieve over hurts that do not mend, but fester from lack of care, compassion and forgiveness. My anger is at myself for my own impotence, my sadness is for the loss of what could have been and my sorrow is for pain dealt because of pain felt.

 

[Angeline]

Anger, sadness and sorrow. Tears for friends held apart by words. I grieve over hurts that do not mend, but fester from lack of care, compassion and forgiveness. My anger is at myself for my own impotence, my sadness is for the loss of what could have been and my sorrow is for pain dealt because of pain felt.

I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I am supremely pissed off about the passing of Prop 8 in California. And I can't put together in my head how it is that the people who were so moved by the election of the country's first African American President, at the same time would vote to take away a recently passed civil right for another population, one that is now more discriminated against than any other. It makes me sad, really sad. The only criterion for marriage, to my thinking, should be that the people involved love each other. What else matters? When we voted, eagleyez and I both signed petitions against Prop 8. I'm not even sure why I'm telling you this except to say that I'm sorry and what they passed seems unconstitutional to me and I'll do what I can in my own small way to work for civil rights for all citizens.

 

[WickedEve]

I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I am supremely pissed off about the passing of Prop 8 in California. And I can't put together in my head how it is that the people who were so moved by the election of the country's first African American President, at the same time would vote to take away a recently passed civil right for another population, one that is now more discriminated against than any other. It makes me sad, really sad. The only criterion for marriage, to my thinking, should be that the people involved love each other. What else matters? When we voted, eagleyez and I both signed petitions against Prop 8. I'm not even sure why I'm telling you this except to say that I'm sorry and what they passed seems unconstitutional to me and I'll do what I can in my own small way to work for civil rights for all citizens.

I was thinking about her, too. And I was thinking about my friends. One is a great guy, living with his partner. It's just so out-dated and silly for anyone to think marriage is only for a man and a woman. Like big deal. Let straights and gays get married. Personally, I'm against marriage. Hey, I'm straight and I have a right to marry and I don't want to. So I'm giving my right to someone else. Hey, SB, you want it? You can have it.

 

[UnderYourSpell]

Cliques? I wander this board at will dabbling here and there and I don't think any of my sexual inclinations have anything to do with the good friends that talk back to me in the different threads. I don't give a damn either if those friends live with a hundred men (or women) they are supportive if I am down and they make me laugh what more could be asked of friends?

 

[UnderYourSpell]

Poppies at her feet mighty London
in stillness bows her head
in remembrance
for the fallen.
The 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month

They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old:
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning
We will remember them.

 

[normal jean]

On blogs and cliques and sarcastic digs at the rest of the world versus satire...

Harmony can be bought at a price,
If it cost a pair of lips to gluteal flesh,
So be it.
Sometimes, fun can be woven into paddles;
Yet the sting remains to remind.

Forget the estimation of the crowd,
Instead, keep perspective
To the front and always in view.
Silliness rules the day.

p.s I am not polyamorous, bisexual, perfect or whatever. A clique only exists as a name because someone gives it that identity. What's wrong with friendship, fellowship and flirts? I guess they don't sound as exclusionary as "clique". I don't suck up, either.

p.s.s I love the beauty of your story of the garden and the birds, nj. Why couldn't you have sent your jibe towards someone else to senna in a PM? It definitely spoils your loveliness this morning.

~~~ My post was happy and cheerful. I found a place where I am accepted. I think Bijou can take well care of herself. I had no intent to single anyone out, especially her, I waste little time thinking of people I so extremely find self absorbed and fake. You brought her up, your only intent to answer my post was to obviously stir some stuff as you brag you enjoy doing in the authors room Was it good for you so far?: I loved you girl, tou had been so kind to me.. is that what YOU think about hert?

i was only trying to be politically correct. just because many of you don't like him, doesn't mean I have to join the group. I too, have been the target of his what ever you wanna call it, but I wasn't crushed, my whole self esteem didn't depend on it. i WILL TELL YOU THIS, NO ONE WILL TELL ME WHO I MAY OR MAY NOT ADMIRE or address in a public forum. you dont like my posts, put me on ignore. I have many on ignore here, makes it a more pleasant place.. bj COULD LIVE TO 1000 AND NEVER COME CLOSE TO SENNAS WORK. MOST OF US COULDNT. someones looking for a squable , and dearie, it aint me.
Whether you realize it or not, there are folks here just to seek worship, they are chameleons, they see what a person needs and feeds on them

There have been many times I stood up and said, Hey, wait! This is not nice, be GOOD to one another. All it got me was called names, shunned, disrespected, and when I ONE time give a newbie my honest FB, I was practically run off the place.

See, its okay to voice anyone's opinion around here as long as it agrees with bijou, and now you. I AM SORRY i RUINED YOUR DAY,. THE FEELING IS MUTUAL AND HURTFUL. that was the intent, wasnt it? bj hates senna, so she wants him gone. look how many have gone since she arrived. the backroom is an excellent place for the filth and beastiality. enjoy yourselves in there, you belong together.

ps, t he "jibe" was a generalization from the threads I peek in at times. are you referring to BJ? is she all those things? Good for her! she must have clones to get so much done and to still have time to tell the entire world how great she is. KUDOS< BJ, kudos.

and yes, t his place has changed. NO ONE has the right an more to say what they want, and it seems to be directed to anyone that doesn't kiss up to your kween. and it sucks. or maybe, its just me that ye high and mighty have chosen to censor. most of you are a bunch of pathetic sheep. I just realized , there arent enough good poets, i.e., Eve, Ange, 1201, jd4george, sp, lauren, OT, Annaswirls, to make it worth while. Its all just a place for drama. I have been gone for days, weeks, working, so you cant blame the shit on me, i have been kind and respectful.


ps. did ya know the bitch gave others ultimatums that if they spoke to me, they couldn't be HER friend anymore? Yeah, you know who you are. she is still twisting in that HS mentality. I feel so badly for her. told a dear friend from day 0one, she was insecure and selfish. She proves herself everyday. Senna got a thread stuck, and she didnt...and so it goes....

 

[loststar]

~~~ My post was happy and cheerful. I found a place where I am accepted. I think Bijou can take well care of herself. I had no intent to single anyone out, especially her, I waste little time thinking of people I so extremely find self absorbed and fake. You brought her up, your only intent to answer my post was to obviously stir some stuff as you brag you enjoy doing in the authors room Was it good for you so far?: I loved you girl, tou had been so kind to me.. is that what YOU think about hert?

i was only trying to be politically correct. just because many of you don't like him, doesn't mean I have to join the group. I too, have been the target of his what ever you wanna call it, but I wasn't crushed, my whole self esteem didn't depend on it. i WILL TELL YOU THIS, NO ONE WILL TELL ME WHO I MAY OR MAY NOT ADMIRE or address in a public forum. you dont like my posts, put me on ignore. I have many on ignore here, makes it a more pleasant place.. bj COULD LIVE TO 1000 AND NEVER COME CLOSE TO SENNAS WORK. MOST OF US COULDNT. someones looking for a squable , and dearie, it aint me.
Whether you realize it or not, there are folks here just to seek worship, they are chameleons, they see what a person needs and feeds on them

There have been many times I stood up and said, Hey, wait! This is not nice, be GOOD to one another. All it got me was called names, shunned, disrespected, and when I ONE time give a newbie my honest FB, I was practically run off the place.

See, its okay to voice anyone's opinion around here as long as it agrees with bijou, and now you. I AM SORRY i RUINED YOUR DAY,. THE FEELING IS MUTUAL AND HURTFUL. that was the intent, wasnt it? bj hates senna, so she wants him gone. look how many have gone since she arrived. the backroom is an excellent place for the filth and beastiality. enjoy yourselves in there, you belong together.

ps, t he "jibe" was a generalization from the threads I peek in at times. are you referring to BJ? is she all those things? Good for her! she must have clones to get so much done and to still have time to tell the entire world how great she is. KUDOS< BJ, kudos.

and yes, t his place has changed. NO ONE has the right an more to say what they want, and it seems to be directed to anyone that doesn't kiss up to your kween. and it sucks. or maybe, its just me that ye high and mighty have chosen to censor. most of you are a bunch of pathetic sheep. I just realized , there arent enough good poets, i.e., Eve, Ange, 1201, jd4george, sp, lauren, OT, Annaswirls, to make it worth while. Its all just a place for drama. I have been gone for days, weeks, working, so you cant blame the shit on me, i have been kind and respectful.


ps. did ya know the bitch gave others ultimatums that if they spoke to me, they couldn't be HER friend anymore? Yeah, you know who you are. she is still twisting in that HS mentality. I feel so badly for her. told a dear friend from day 0one, she was insecure and selfish. She proves herself everyday. Senna got a thread stuck, and she didnt...and so it goes....

Look you psychopathic bitch, I have seen you lash out at my friend countless times now. You don't like her, put her on ignore, but do not lie about her character or skew what she says or does. Yes she is like a chameleon, she likes to blend into the background, and to watch others. When people feel low she FEEDS them, that is part of being a good friend, to give people attention, thats what the bistro is about, thats why it is a restaurant. She never once has ever told me, a real life friend that I should not interact with you, in fact if you wonder why people are weird to you look at your own posts where you needlessly attack other people. I know bijou in real life and she is just as generous and giving in person. I happen to know first hand that she has a great deal of respect for Senna. I am generally a very passive person, but I am fucking sick of your shit, and I'm sure that this post will put me at the top of your shit list, but at least you attacking me will add some variety to your posts.

 

[GuiltyPleasure]

I think I'll leave again. This placed used to be about poetry - how times have changed.

 

[normal jean]

Look you psychopathic bitch, I have seen you lash out at my friend countless times now. You don't like her, put her on ignore, but do not lie about her character or skew what she says or does. Yes she is like a chameleon, she likes to blend into the background, and to watch others. When people feel low she FEEDS them, that is part of being a good friend, to give people attention, thats what the bistro is about, that's why it is a restaurant. She never once has ever told me, a real life friend that I should not interact with you, in fact if you wonder why people are weird to you look at your own posts where you needlessly attack other people. I know bijou in real life and she is just as generous and giving in person. I happen to know first hand that she has a great deal of respect for Senna. I am generally a very passive person, but I am fucking sick of your shit, and I'm sure that this post will put me at the top of your shit list, but at least you attacking me will add some variety to your posts.

psychopathic bitch?.. When did I address a post to either you OR BJ, today, huh? and I have never left you a message except I liked your banana poem. You are the one that is delusional .

please, put me on ignore, it pains me to think that you know anything about my life, you twit..

p.s.s, a spelling and reading comprehension class would help you immensely.

 

[Tzara]

I think I'll leave again. This placed used to be about poetry - how times have changed.

Now, Tessie, don't you dare leave just when we've finally got you back, especially when you just wrote five good poems in the 5/5 thingie. This is just your basic Internet (note: properly capitalized) flame war. People get angry with each other and write things that they later regret, or at least should regret.

I have, and I know.

Like, regretted stuff. Well, actually I was right, of course (where's that smug emoticon?), but I regretted it anyway. 'Cuz it upset people. Maybe. Hmmmm.

Times haven't changed, either. I mean, think of 1201 v. MET, or Andy v., well, you. Anger (and I admit I've been made very very angry by this place at times) is an easy emotion. Tolerance is hard.

Your presence is one of the things that will make this work.

 

[Angeline]

Look you psychopathic bitch, I have seen you lash out at my friend countless times now. You don't like her, put her on ignore, but do not lie about her character or skew what she says or does. Yes she is like a chameleon, she likes to blend into the background, and to watch others. When people feel low she FEEDS them, that is part of being a good friend, to give people attention, thats what the bistro is about, thats why it is a restaurant. She never once has ever told me, a real life friend that I should not interact with you, in fact if you wonder why people are weird to you look at your own posts where you needlessly attack other people. I know bijou in real life and she is just as generous and giving in person. I happen to know first hand that she has a great deal of respect for Senna. I am generally a very passive person, but I am fucking sick of your shit, and I'm sure that this post will put me at the top of your shit list, but at least you attacking me will add some variety to your posts.

lostar, if this bugs you so much the kindest, most tolerant thing to do would be to put NJ on ignore. I believe Bijou took my advice and did that with her. I'd recommend it to anyone who gets really annoyed at someone else's posts, no matter who. I know I'm on some peoples' ignore lists.

I agree that NJ has issues--so would she; I know she struggles with them and there are things she says that make me cringe sometimes. But I also know she's a good person who doesn't want to feel angry or hurt or in emotional pain. Who does? And personally, I don't want to take on the responsibility of pushing someone's buttons when I know I may be adding to the stress that could make them hurt themself or someone else. She comes here primarily because she loves poetry as I assume all of us here do.

Does that make her going after Bijou ok? No, but that's why Lit has an ignore function. And believe me if I ever thought that anyone here would actually try to stalk someone or hurt them in some real life way, I'd do everything I could to report them.

I know Bijou has a great deal of respect for Senna and has extended herself to help at least one friend of his. How she feels about his poetry is her business. I'm not implying she doesn't like it just saying that I'm a respecter of peoples' individual tastes.

As far as all the drama that has gone on here, that too is each person's business. Some here like drama a whole lot and it has always been that way though we go through our ups and downs with it. I am personally not comfortable posting in the Hangout because of all the drama right now. I don't like being compared to a Kluxer and I am still amazed that people I thought knew me (or that I knew) would believe I have any sort of ugly purpose for what I do here. I find it very sad that people seem to feel a need to take sides. Neither Eve nor I intentionally do anything to hurt anyone here, but if some want to make drama, for whatever purposes, that is also their business.

I'm going to focus on the good stuff and work on my poetry. This forum has been through drama storms many times and we've weathered them all.

I've never meant you or anyone here ill, but I did feel the need to speak my mind. I'll continue to support poetry here, not drama, and the people who appreciate that will, I hope, continue to benefit from being part of this poetry community.

I think I'll leave again. This placed used to be about poetry - how times have changed.

They haven't really Tess. You're doing some wonderful writing here now. Don't let the bs get to you.

 

[champagne1982]

~~~ My post was happy and cheerful. I found a place where I am accepted. I think Bijou can take well care of herself. I had no intent to single anyone out, especially her, I waste little time thinking of people I so extremely find self absorbed and fake. You brought her up, your only intent to answer my post was to obviously stir some stuff as you brag you enjoy doing in the authors room Was it good for you so far?: I loved you girl, tou had been so kind to me.. is that what YOU think about hert?

I never mentioned anyone's name but yours and senna's. I asked a simple question after I pointed out that your post sent me into a hissy fit. I hate the insinuation that my fun comes from being a part of a clique and that is why I merely used the terms that you discussed in your blog post in my first post script addition in my own reply.

How I feel about that single comment can't and won't change the respect I have for your writing nor the esteem I hold you in. I know you're forthright and open in all you say that's why I replied to your post the way I did. If you took it as an attack then maybe you should stop and consider what you said to provoke one?

Could you point me to the post I've made that brags about a practice I very rarely indulge in? And yes, I intended to stir the same pot you were dipping into with your comments, simply to bring you to the realization that you were being unneccessarily rude to more than one person. By calling the people who post to a different thread in an unasked for and misunderstood child forum of this board the members of a clique, you tarred us with the same disdainful brush.

Getting along doesn't mean anyone kissed anyone else's ass and that is why I made my post, I try to avoid sucking up and it bugs me that someone would think I was.

 

[normal jean]

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