Lost Little Girl
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I'm all alone... *pout*
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Night GrifterGrifters said:
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Hehe. ^_~
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Interesting
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*Wiggles* Well I think I'll sign out for the day. Happy holidays to all...
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Arg! I'm back and bored...*teehee*
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I got it, but I'm tired so I will sleep now.
Happy murder of 4 million turkey day...lol.
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Happy murder of 4 million turkey day...lol.
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You know I sit thinking a lot and wonder why humans go through so much pain? Why do we have to endure this sickening thing called emotions?
My whole life I've been a silly girl, just bouncing around in hopes of making people laugh more so because if I can't laugh, if I can't be happy, then I could at least make other's feel good.
Like a window looking in, that's my life in a nutshell. I've always been on the outside; in those classic Christmas stories where the homeless bum is being beatin and tossed around by the harsh winter elements. The bum comes across a rural street with lavished homes and finds one home inparticular when he looks inside. The family is sitting at a table eating their meal and exchanging gifts things like that...
And despite their kindness of letting him inside their home to rest and eat, to enjoy the holiday festivities. The next morning he's gone. A lot of people would wonder why he leaves. I know why...
He knows deep down as kind as they were to him, there's nothing more than can do to help him. And in the end he does not belong there. So rather than stay for sad goodbyes he sneaks away; probably leaving a note or something of his presence.
And from that day forward he'll always be thankful for their kindness but he'll never belong...
Yeah that's how I feel. I just don't belong anywhere...its probably what gives my writing so much depth and character. Because I feel it so deep and cutting, I'm in a lot of pain right now and there's only one outlet for me to show it which is writing.
I just wish this pain would go away, that there was some way to relieve it. But no amount of writing or kind words, love or affection from strangers, friends or family can help me fill that void that cuts me so deep. All I ask is that somewhere down the line I can find some peace. Amen.
My whole life I've been a silly girl, just bouncing around in hopes of making people laugh more so because if I can't laugh, if I can't be happy, then I could at least make other's feel good.
Like a window looking in, that's my life in a nutshell. I've always been on the outside; in those classic Christmas stories where the homeless bum is being beatin and tossed around by the harsh winter elements. The bum comes across a rural street with lavished homes and finds one home inparticular when he looks inside. The family is sitting at a table eating their meal and exchanging gifts things like that...
And despite their kindness of letting him inside their home to rest and eat, to enjoy the holiday festivities. The next morning he's gone. A lot of people would wonder why he leaves. I know why...
He knows deep down as kind as they were to him, there's nothing more than can do to help him. And in the end he does not belong there. So rather than stay for sad goodbyes he sneaks away; probably leaving a note or something of his presence.
And from that day forward he'll always be thankful for their kindness but he'll never belong...
Yeah that's how I feel. I just don't belong anywhere...its probably what gives my writing so much depth and character. Because I feel it so deep and cutting, I'm in a lot of pain right now and there's only one outlet for me to show it which is writing.
I just wish this pain would go away, that there was some way to relieve it. But no amount of writing or kind words, love or affection from strangers, friends or family can help me fill that void that cuts me so deep. All I ask is that somewhere down the line I can find some peace. Amen.
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alone?
drops a pretty flower on your pillow hoping you find your needs
Sir
drops a pretty flower on your pillow hoping you find your needs
Sir
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While I feel much better today, the loneliness remains but I try not to dwell on it during times when I'm genuinely feeling good. And today is one of those days, I get to relax and spend time with myself...
No one home so I'm going to chill online for a while, watch a little tele, might even masterbate who knows. Then later go out probably buy a video game. If you haven't guessed by now I'm a gamer chick... ^_^
Lets see...
Soul Calibur III or Shadow the Hedghog?
I like fighting games but I grew up on a particular hedghog might as well give Shadow a go, neh?
On another note, I've realized there are lots of people out there that think they know who I am. It cracks me up when they are so set on what they think of me and later find out how dead wrong they are.
Like this one guy calls me childish. Namely because I play video games, and because I'm hella silly. So he has his mind set correct? Wrong. After we start talking about some political BS, he realizes just how smart and intellegent I am. Cause quite frankly his views were completely drowned out by my views and beliefs. From that day forward he tries to avoid me cause I'm intimidating to him... (his words not mine), but at the same time I'm still a gamer.
And why do people think that gamers are stupid. I think gamers are smarter than they like to let on. Hell we've played so many games in our lives based on fantasy and fiction that we should know more about life then a lot of other people. We just like to have fun and we don't generally wanna be bothered with the shit our parents call Adulthood. I say it blows to be an adult so rather than acknowledge it I use my cute little 16 year old body to trick folks. Oh don't get me wrong I'm 25 but you wouldn't know unless I told you. Slap my hair into some pigtails and you wouldn't even know the difference. Hehhe...
Well I'm going to go chill I shall return shortly. ^.~
No one home so I'm going to chill online for a while, watch a little tele, might even masterbate who knows. Then later go out probably buy a video game. If you haven't guessed by now I'm a gamer chick... ^_^
Lets see...
Soul Calibur III or Shadow the Hedghog?
I like fighting games but I grew up on a particular hedghog might as well give Shadow a go, neh?
On another note, I've realized there are lots of people out there that think they know who I am. It cracks me up when they are so set on what they think of me and later find out how dead wrong they are.
Like this one guy calls me childish. Namely because I play video games, and because I'm hella silly. So he has his mind set correct? Wrong. After we start talking about some political BS, he realizes just how smart and intellegent I am. Cause quite frankly his views were completely drowned out by my views and beliefs. From that day forward he tries to avoid me cause I'm intimidating to him... (his words not mine), but at the same time I'm still a gamer.
And why do people think that gamers are stupid. I think gamers are smarter than they like to let on. Hell we've played so many games in our lives based on fantasy and fiction that we should know more about life then a lot of other people. We just like to have fun and we don't generally wanna be bothered with the shit our parents call Adulthood. I say it blows to be an adult so rather than acknowledge it I use my cute little 16 year old body to trick folks. Oh don't get me wrong I'm 25 but you wouldn't know unless I told you. Slap my hair into some pigtails and you wouldn't even know the difference. Hehhe...
Well I'm going to go chill I shall return shortly. ^.~
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*wiggles*
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Bad boy...heel. ^_^
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https://forum.literotica.com/showthread.php?t=386671
I'm also looking for some players to participate in this thread of mine. While I'm playing my lovely golden eyed, black haired, egyptian queen; Vivi, she's a timid little thing looking for love. And if you think you can win her over then be my guest. Course she's been getting rather close to a few fellows though namely one...
How about giving him a run for his money, and making some sexual sparks fly. Woot!
I'm also looking for some players to participate in this thread of mine. While I'm playing my lovely golden eyed, black haired, egyptian queen; Vivi, she's a timid little thing looking for love. And if you think you can win her over then be my guest. Course she's been getting rather close to a few fellows though namely one...
How about giving him a run for his money, and making some sexual sparks fly. Woot!
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Numb. That's how I feel.
