Millie's terrible day thread. You can post any and of your disappoints for the day, week, month, year, or your life.

[cw5523729]

Likewise - and I *still* get told to watch for them as a precursor to my migraines and to stop them from turning into nasty migraines by paying attention to have have one that's worse than usual and try my meds for breakthrough migraines. My flabbers were gasted when they told me that.

When I was younger I got what they diagnosed as migraines but it wasn't a headache. I lost complete vision in one eye for 10-15 minutes, then it would return. I had them for 10 years or so, then they went away inexplicably.

 

[SamanthaBehgs]

When I was younger I got what they diagnosed as migraines but it wasn't a headache. I lost complete vision in one eye for 10-15 minutes, then it would return. I had them for 10 years or so, then they went away inexplicably.

I had that when I was pregnant except it was my visual field instead of my eye - neurologists (I saw more than one) insisted you could have migraines without headaches and I'd never heard of anyone else ever saying they had. You're literally the first ever other person I've ever heard say that. Either we have the same neurologist who likes to call everything a migraine, or suddenly I'm more likely to think it's a thing.

 

[SamanthaBehgs]

It's been a rough year!

I hope folks here can help make it a little bit better.

 

[MillieDynamite]

My adoptive father's mother had terrible migraines starting after a heat stroke when Dad was 12 or 13. They got worse as she grew older. After Dad's dad died, she got worse. By the time they brought me into the family, she was in an old folks' home suffering dementia, but it was really Alzheimer's. She literally forgot how to breathe. She was the first person I saw die.

 

[MillieDynamite]

My time here is always one of my more enjoyable parts of the day.

I hope folks here can help make it a little bit better.

 

[WestCoastBBW]

I had that when I was pregnant except it was my visual field instead of my eye - neurologists (I saw more than one) insisted you could have migraines without headaches and I'd never heard of anyone else ever saying they had. You're literally the first ever other person I've ever heard say that. Either we have the same neurologist who likes to call everything a migraine, or suddenly I'm more likely to think it's a thing.

When I was a kid I was diagnosed with migraines in my stomach. I did not get a headache and was told that I would grow out of them. The MD also said you can get a migraine anywhere in your body including your elbow! Most people think I'm bonkers when I say this. Glad to meet another believer!

 

[MillieDynamite]

A pain in the funny bone isn't amusing.

When I was a kid I was diagnosed with migraines in my stomach. I did not get a headache and was told that I would grow out of them. The MD also said you can get a migraine anywhere in your body including your elbow!

 

[SamanthaBehgs]

My adoptive father's mother had terrible migraines starting after a heat stroke when Dad was 12 or 13. They got worse as she grew older. After Dad's dad died, she got worse. By the time they brought me into the family, she was in an old folks' home suffering dementia, but it was really Alzheimer's. She literally forgot how to breathe. She was the first person I saw die.

I'm so sorry you had to go through that - it's never easy no matter how many times you've watched it happen.

 

[cw5523729]

I had that when I was pregnant except it was my visual field instead of my eye - neurologists (I saw more than one) insisted you could have migraines without headaches and I'd never heard of anyone else ever saying they had. You're literally the first ever other person I've ever heard say that. Either we have the same neurologist who likes to call everything a migraine, or suddenly I'm more likely to think it's a thing.

My neuro called it a "retinal migraine" - and you are literally the only other person I've heard of getting that either!

 

[SamanthaBehgs]

When I was a kid I was diagnosed with migraines in my stomach. I did not get a headache and was told that I would grow out of them. The MD also said you can get a migraine anywhere in your body including your elbow! Most people think I'm bonkers when I say this. Glad to meet another believer!

Really?! I wonder if it's actually in that part of the body or if it's in the part of the brain that controls or detects pain in that part. Did they say?

 

[SamanthaBehgs]

My neuro called it a "retinal migraine" - and you are literally the only other person I've heard of getting that either!

Mine was an occipital migraine because it happened after the messages from the two eyes combined so that the information from the right side of the world was on the same side of the brain (both eyes get info from the right side of the world - and the left - and there's a spot where it splits so the two sides of the world end up in the same place. I ... don't think I'm explaining it well. I had to take a med that's messing with me.)

 

[WestCoastBBW]

Really?! I wonder if it's actually in that part of the body or if it's in the part of the brain that controls or detects pain in that part. Did they say?

If they said I can't remember as I was younger than 10. The comment about anywhere in the body including your elbow really stuck with me.

 

[SamanthaBehgs]

If they said I can't remember as I was younger than 10. The comment about anywhere in the body including your elbow really stuck with me.

Yea - that's really cool. I mean, it's not cool, but it's neat knowledge to have.

 

[MillieDynamite]

@SamanthaBehgs, I didn't really know her. She was in the rest home when I moved in, and it was something we did several days a week. Visiting her, I mean. She got it all screwed in her head and believed I was the daughter of one of my Dad's girlfriends from 30 years or so before. A black girl that his mom didn't want him to marry, which they didn't, but liked a lot, despite her being black. And Dad kept telling her, No, we're adopting her, she isn't (insert any black girl name you wish here) and my kid. We didn't have any kids, Mom, you know that. She'd answer him, "I do?"

 

[SamanthaBehgs]

@SamanthaBehgs, I didn't really know her. She was in the rest home when I moved in, and it was something we did several days a week. Visiting her, I mean. She got it all screwed in her head and believed I was the daughter of one of my Dad's girlfriends from 30 years or so before. A black girl that his mom didn't want him to marry, which they didn't, but liked a lot, despite her being black. And Dad kept telling her, No, we're adopting her, she isn't (insert any black girl name you wish here) and my kid. We didn't have any kids, Mom, you know that. She'd answer him, "I do?"

I can see that. It would be hard to form a relationship with someone who had already stopped being able to form new memories and therefore couldn't remember who you were. Still, not something I'd wish on anyone.

 

[MillieDynamite]

Well, she made the man who took me in and gave me a home and love. So, I have to love that about her. No matter how weird it was. And it was very strange.

I can see that. It would be hard to form a relationship with someone who had already stopped being able to form new memories and therefore couldn't remember who you were. Still, not something I'd wish on anyone.

 

[sirhugs]

Yeah, been a fucking brutal year so far.

I can identify with that

 

[MillieDynamite]

Sorry, it isn't anything I want anyone to identify with me about! At least I've lost weight and now have a healthier diet.

I can identify with that

 

[SamanthaBehgs]

My head is killing me today and I have all tasks that require I leave the lights on instead of hiding in darkness. I have things I want to type up and submit but I'm afraid if I submit too many too soon then I'm going to end up backlogging myself just by jamming up the words. I wrote a story by hand that somehow once typed ended up in 10K words and now I gotta figure out the editing process for a story that is 3x longer than anything I've ever produced (and I have NO CLUE how many Lit pages that's going to be) very quickly because I wanted it published for the Winter Contest, and towards the beginning if possible. AND like an idiot I have at least one plan every day for the next week, meaning I can't just hide all day without coming out of my cave until over a week from now, which is only going to make my headache progressively worse until something snaps. And crying about these and all the other things piling up just makes it hurt worse.

Sorry, y'all. Just had to vent.

 

[NuclearFairy]

My head is killing me today and I have all tasks that require I leave the lights on instead of hiding in darkness. I have things I want to type up and submit but I'm afraid if I submit too many too soon then I'm going to end up backlogging myself just by jamming up the words. I wrote a story by hand that somehow once typed ended up in 10K words and now I gotta figure out the editing process for a story that is 3x longer than anything I've ever produced (and I have NO CLUE how many Lit pages that's going to be) very quickly because I wanted it published for the Winter Contest, and towards the beginning if possible. AND like an idiot I have at least one plan every day for the next week, meaning I can't just hide all day without coming out of my cave until over a week from now, which is only going to make my headache progressively worse until something snaps. And crying about these and all the other things piling up just makes it hurt worse.

Sorry, y'all. Just had to vent.

Well, I can't help with most of that, other than to offer my sympathies, but 10k words is around 3-4 lit pages, depending on word length, coding, and how long the last paragraph per page is.

 

[iwatchus]

My head is killing me today and I have all tasks that require I leave the lights on instead of hiding in darkness. I have things I want to type up and submit but I'm afraid if I submit too many too soon then I'm going to end up backlogging myself just by jamming up the words. I wrote a story by hand that somehow once typed ended up in 10K words and now I gotta figure out the editing process for a story that is 3x longer than anything I've ever produced (and I have NO CLUE how many Lit pages that's going to be) very quickly because I wanted it published for the Winter Contest, and towards the beginning if possible. AND like an idiot I have at least one plan every day for the next week, meaning I can't just hide all day without coming out of my cave until over a week from now, which is only going to make my headache progressively worse until something snaps. And crying about these and all the other things piling up just makes it hurt worse.

Sorry, y'all. Just had to vent.

I can answer one thing for you -- 10K words is about 3 full lit pages.

 

[MillieDynamite]

I feel for you. Made my head hurt just reading.

My head is killing me today and I have all tasks that require I leave the lights on instead of hiding in darkness. I have things I want to type up and submit but I'm afraid if I submit too many too soon then I'm going to end up backlogging myself just by jamming up the words. I wrote a story by hand that somehow once typed ended up in 10K words and now I gotta figure out the editing process for a story that is 3x longer than anything I've ever produced (and I have NO CLUE how many Lit pages that's going to be) very quickly because I wanted it published for the Winter Contest, and towards the beginning if possible. AND like an idiot I have at least one plan every day for the next week, meaning I can't just hide all day without coming out of my cave until over a week from now, which is only going to make my headache progressively worse until something snaps. And crying about these and all the other things piling up just makes it hurt worse.

Sorry, y'all. Just had to vent.

 

[SamanthaBehgs]

I feel for you. Made my head hurt just reading.

And to @NuclearFairy and @iwatchus thanks for the intel. That's not too long - I can work with that. I was afraid it was going to be much longer which would make me sad.

 

[Five_Inch_Heels]

You may have bigger physical problems than I, but my mind is a mess and there is no out.

 

[SamanthaBehgs]

You may have bigger physical problems than I, but my mind is a mess and there is no out.

There is no suffering Olympics, only empathy and hugs <3