Neighborly Love (Closed for rpashley)

[rpashley]

I pause at John's confession & I swear to god my I lost all color in my face & turned beet red at the same time. My inner voice was screaming at me,"HOLY FUCK HE SAW?! WHAT DID HE SEE?! HOW DID I FUCK THAT UP?!"

I couldn't tell you how long it was before I stammered something like,"Ah, uhm, well, I, didn't...," then a deep swallow.

"I'm so sorry John."

I try to compose myself with the mixture of panic, embarrassment, curiosity, & that familiar tingle of excitement coming from my pussy, emanating to the rest of my body, resisting any effort of keeping myself remotely put together at the moment.

"I didn't know, & I just...I don't have a great excuse...I love my husband too, but, he's just so wrapped up with work & I am very very lonely too...It felt good to have someone who is as handsome, strong & kind as you give me a semblance of attention instead of apathy...." I put my head in my hands as I tried to stop myself from talking but the subconscious word vomit continued,"And it just, I think you're sexy too & I couldn't help myself...it felt so good...better than it normally does when I touch myself to porn..."

My inner voice piped in finally,"Hey Ash, you're telling him about how it feels when you're fingering yourself, right after he just told you that he didn't want you."

I pause,"Oh fuck! I'm talking about it, you don't want me & I'm not trying to put you in a compromising position, especially one that you don't want."

I back away even more,"I'm so embarrassed. I'm so sorry John. I shouldn't have let you see that."

 

[such_a_bad_man]

My eyes widen. To hear my neighbor talk so openly about porn and then to hear her say how good it felt to think of me, it was quite the rush of mixed emotions. I wouldn't lie about the good feelings at the thought of being wanted by such a beautiful woman. I've always thought Ashley was gorgeous, but I never thought of her that way since she is my married neighbor.

Okay, maybe an idle fantasy here or there, but never a serious thought.

She turns around too fast and slips from my grasp, retreating from me even quicker. I'm too stunned to stop her at first, but eventually, I get myself together and realize what she is saying. I walk up behind her and bite my lip. She looks so amazing in her bikini and my body doesn't know any better. It's already responding to being so close to her all this time. I step up beside her, sliding an arm around her shoulders.

"I can honestly say that I'm flattered that you think about me like that at all. I always thought the admiration was one-way; I never thought you'd think of me like that," I say, turning to look at her as I speak. "I can't be mad at a fantasy I wasn't meant to see. To be honest, I had to make myself leave when I was watching. You have a gorgeous body and it was like watching something out of a porn video." I say smiling.

"And don't feel back about mentioning that you watch porn. Believe me, I watch a ton. Danielle is gone so long and I have a big appetite; I probably go through 2-3 a night." I admit, glad I can share that we do in fact share something. "It's hard not getting your needs met, isn't it?" I say, empathizing.

 

[rpashley]

I melt into John's arm as he puts it around me. His strong body was so comforting to be around & it only made the tingling stronger.

"2-3 a night? What do you mean?"

I grinned as the compliments he showered on my body & seeing me play with my pussy for him, comparing it to porn.

"And Me? Look like porn video? No way. haha." And I give him an elbow nudge.

"It's the worst. I do believe in being faithful & I do love Kurt...but, I honestly have almost asked Kurt for an open marriage so I can...uhm...not just watch porn multiple times a day," I bashfully say.

"It's not like he's really interested in fucking me, he just wants me to suck his dick & be a cum receptacle. And, don't get me wrong, I don't hate that in the right context, but I deserve to be appreciated, wanted & worshipped, he just likes to show me off & fuck once every month or so."

My heart racing as I let my guard down some.

 

[such_a_bad_man]

"2-3 a night? What do you mean?"

I nod. "Yeah, it usually take two or three videos to satisfy me every night. Like I said, big appetite." I say casually. "And don't sell your body short. You could definitely do porn if you wanted. Guys would absolutely pay to see you fuck on camera if what I saw upstairs is a sneak preview." I add, feeling strangely at ease talking with Ashley like this.

I listen as she talks about her love life with her husband. It's immediately concerning to hear that he doesn't even bother to reciprocate when he is home the few times he is. "Wow, what a selfish lover. At least Danielle puts me through it when she is home and feels horny. I wish she was in the mood more often on top of being home." I confess.

I sigh and look over at Ashley. "Maybe this is more serious than we both realized when we were talking at the store. I didn't realize how neglectful he was to your needs." I say, this new realization making me rethink some things.

 

[rpashley]

"Sorry, I didn't know if you meant uhm...finishing 2-3 times a night. Haha, that's usually what I go for at least. Haha."

I look up at John, & rest my head against his chest for a quick moment,"You...you really think people would pay to see me fuck on camera? Or even just play? Or just naked? I've never had someone say something that kind about me...I kind of like it...and the idea...but...if Kurt's not going to fuck me I'll have to be solo. If you're even right at all. Haha."

I look back at the pool & nods to it, & goes back to talking about our spouses,"Well, yeah, I mean people change after marriage, rightfully so. I just hoped that it would have included more enamored & desire for me. At least for you you're getting something...Joking, I don't think your situation is really all that better. I'm so sorry that you have to go through that too."

I nod to the patio & house.

"Do you want to go back to the pool? Or patio? Or cool off inside?"

 

[such_a_bad_man]

I smile at Ashley's thoughts about being on camera. "You'd have one customer at least if you ever went onto a Cam site." I admit, chuckling lightly. But as the talk turns to life after marriage, my face clouds again. "Danielle used to love sex, but it's gone away, piece by piece. Sounds like Kurt shut the door completely which feels dishonest. If that's all he wanted, he should have been straight up with you before the wedding. Pulling the rug out and leaving you wanting is a shitty thing to do..." I weigh in.

I look at the house then back at the pool. "We've hardly put the pool to use. Let's at least enjoy it." I say, smiling as I step back. I turn and dive in, swimming a lazy easy length down to the end. Mostly, I want to wake up my body and enjoy the feel of a pool again. It's been ages since I went swimming. Running and free weights have always been enough for me. I can see how Ashley keeps her figure though after so many laps in these waters. It only took one and I'm already feeling the resistance.

 

[rpashley]

I smile as I see the water splash & then fall off of John's rugged body. Such a handsome devil, it's shame that Danielle has seen him as something ancillary, it's a shame that both of our spouses has done this to us.

As I walk to the pool, I say,"Wait. You'd really pay?"

I dive in & as I come up from the water, I pull my hair behind my shoulders, now it's my turn for the water to fall off of me, my chest pushed out as I fix my hair.

 

[such_a_bad_man]

"Wait. You'd really pay?"

Ashley asked the question before diving in so it gave me a few seconds to think it over. I can't count the number of times I've watched her swim or do yoga on her deck. When she surfaces, she arches back, pushing out her gorgeous breasts toward me. She uses it to get her hair out of the way, but it still puts them on display for a moment. I wait for her to collect herself before answering.

"Yes, I absolutely would. You're beautiful and I've ogled you enough in your yoga outfit or swim suits. I'd love to see it all." I answer honestly.

 

[rpashley]

I react in 50% authentic shock & the rest knowing that John has indeed checked me out...

"Well...You've...already seen most of my goods..." I laugh & splash John a little, this time my face blushing as I embrace the truth that my hot sex starved neighbor has seen me rub my pussy about him.

"I'm flattered, really, thank you. That makes me feel good in ways that I haven't felt from a man I cared about in a long time."

 

[such_a_bad_man]

"Well...You've...already seen most of my goods..."

I chuckle and guard against the splash, but blush a little. "Well, yeah, but that was on accident so I'll always feel like I intruded a little on that moment. It will always be colored by that. And you should feel cared for. Life's hard enough without it."

I want to keep saying that I'm married, but it's so obvious that Ashley is in need. She's starved for affection and sexual desire that her husband won't give her. It's not right... I turn and float, resuming my swimming, but keeping my head up to keep chatting with Ashley. "Maybe you need to take your mind off of it for a bit during each day? Spend your time with hobbies that are meant for you and not the man who doesn't appreciate you." I offer, wondering what Ashley likes besides keeping fit.