Apollo Wilde
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1945
Most Americans could tell you where they were when they heard Captain America died. And Elizabeth Simone was one of them.
She was in jail.
Had been there overnight, amid the leering of the white, drawling police officers, that hadn’t offered her or her friends any sort of privacy or modesty when they went to the bathroom in that dirty, cold, stinking cell. Had laughed at them and made sure that they overheard their disgusting remarks. She’d been terrified - there had been nothing that would have stopped those officers from coming in and doing what they wanted with her, her friends - and there wouldn’t have been any justice for them. Not here - not anywhere. And as much as she had wanted to believe in that shining symbol of American justice and righteousness, beating back the Nazi menace, it was a bitter reminder, her ship crashing back down to earth, when she finally realized that Captain America wouldn’t save her. Not now, not ever.
And as she sat on the thin cot covered by a threadbare blanket, knees pulled up to her chest, her skirt pulled down as far as she could to cover her legs, the faint flash of her garters and panties, she swore that she would never believe in another hero again. From here on out, she would be her own savior. And though America was great and strong and powerful and ready to help the rest of the world, they couldn’t give a damn about the people suffering on their own streets.
1955
The country had pulled itself together, neatly mopping up the remnants of Nazis: either putting them to trial or secretly absorbing them into their ranks of scientists, or looking the other way as they flocked to South America. The men returned home, the women vacated the factories, and the American Dream was firmly baked into every picture perfect cake and tract home out in the suburbs. Life was good, people were prospering, and nylons were in every store. There had been another war, yes, but nothing like the greatness of World War II - this had been quieter, with a more vague enemy, but people still signed up, still went, came back with the same thousand yard stares and nightmares of horrors that language hadn’t caught up to explain yet.
And yet, in the South, life still continued as it had - nearly 100 years earlier. It had been fooled into accepting its antiquated nature, resting back on the laurels of a past that never was, an antebellum myth of shining dresses and expansive plantations with happily singing negroes and blushing Southern belles. Now it was but a shell of those memories, the jobs going north, or to California, with the great munitions factories exploding into being behind the first War effort, and, finding more warmth in a distant sun, folks that left didn’t come back.
Elizabeth was one of them.
A few years older, a few years wiser, when she left the verdant cane fields of Louisiana first, then the stagnant humidity of Houston later, she’d been moving with a mission. That mission was not lessened as she stepped off the Greyhound bus into the sunshine of California, where it never rained and the stars shone even in the daytime. She’d packed with her in her beat up suitcase not just her meager possessions, but the hopes and dreams of all she’d left behind. Through her own bargaining, wit, and the occasional act she didn’t like to think of, she’d begged, borrowed, and stolen her way here, and by God, she was going to make it count.
The Communist Party of America hadn’t promised her the world; she knew that, but they were where like minds could meet. They hadn’t forgotten that she’d gone to jail for them; didn’t seem to care that she was a woman, and a black one at that; never saw her lesser, or her personal sacrifices as something that was a given, because that’s what women did, they were givers, and every grassroots movement could be traced back to their blood, sweat, tears, injuries, their murdered sons, brothers, fathers, their raped daughters. They gave her something to believe in, a something that over time, she could feel, was starting to be twisted by her hatred, something she knew all too well, its bitterness keeping her alive and slowly poisoning her. Once upon a time, when Captain America was alive, she’d believed in holding hands and true equality, in that great war where black, brown, yellow, and red blood had been shed as easily as white.
Looking up, shielding her eyes from the sun, she took in a deep breath of exhaust and decay that each city had, unique only in how rapidly it’d spread, and felt resolution billow in her chest. Here, she’d have more money, more support, more organization. To others, her being chosen to go would be an honor; to her, it was her rightful due. She’d worked hard to be here, and was going to keep working hard. When she left, she left behind the legacy of the first black union in her town, job securities, a framework for improving schools for faces that looked like hers.
And now, walking into the lion’s den, her name a recognized one in the Party, she knew her life was always in danger, and if she were killed, that it would mean little. But she was here now.
196X - The Present
“Betty, please!”
“Frankie, you call me ‘Betty’ one more time, I’m going to skin you alive.”
“We have to be more cautious now - we just barely survived the 50s and that zealot McCarthy; now you’re threatening to bring the whole of the government down on our heads. Some of us have families to consider now. We can’t be cowboys like we used to.”
“If you want to call this ‘surviving,’” Elizabeth waved a hand around her office. It’d seen better days; open windows with views into the expanse of downtown LA. Now, this office, if it could truly be called that, was little more than a janitor’s closet, lit by a naked lightbulb, distorted shadows scattered by its timid pull string. Her desk was a second hand thing from some sympathizer years ago, purloined from a school. There were still ancient wads of chewing gum stuck to the bottom of it, and initials carved into the once butter colored wood. On her worst nights, Elizabeth would run her fingers across it and wonder if Mary-Ann was really a whore, or if Jimmy and Janey were still together.
“That’s just my point, Elizabeth,” sighed Frank, pushing his thick black framed glasses up his nose. Anywhere else in the world, a covert meeting between a white man and a young black woman would have been cause for alarm, but California always was a bit different, a bit warped in its sensibilities. “We just don’t have the funds that we used to. People have moved on. People don’t care anymore.”
“They got their tv dinners and autos and that’s all she wrote.” She leaned up against the desk now, careful not to push it. Crossing her arms, she stared at the creeping bloom of a water stain on the ceiling. “While folks down south are still worried about being strung up from trees. This world is fucked.”
“What do you want, Elizabeth?” Frank sighed. It was a long argument, stretching into its second year, and he was growing weary.
“Some of Howard Stark’s money.” A peace gesture, an attempt to lighten the mood.
“You’re not blonde enough for it.” The peace gesture accepted; all was forgiven. Tentatively, Frank spoke again, turning to walk out. “Look, I know you want the best for everyone. But nowadays, we gotta count our blessings, no matter how small they are. You implemented that school lunch program down in those housing projects, and you made sure there was transportation to get them there and back again. And the book mobiles. You’ve done more than enough. Every tub’s got to rest on its own bottom, and every man has to sit under his own vine. Sit back, Elizabeth. Enjoy the fruits of your labor.”
She sat back down with a sigh. “I’ll try, Frank.”
A wan smile from the older man. He knew a dismissal when he heard one. “You wanna come over Saturday night? Midge is making brisket.”
A wave of her hand of dismissal. “I appreciate it, but I’ll probably pass. Send my regards to her and the kids.”
“Levi’s been asking about you - wanting to know when you’re going to come over again.”
She laughed now, the tension finally broken, though her shoulders were still heavy, still weary. “Levi just wants my beignets.”
“He’s a man of good taste. Goodnight, Betty - be careful on your way home. Call when you get in; Miriam worries.”
“Frankie, Miriam is 3 years old.”
“Ya got me, chief.” A friendly smile, a wrinkling of the fine skin next to his brown eyes, and he was out the door, his footsteps heavy on the stairs. Elizabeth waited till the tell-tale creak of the second to last step on the landing before she allowed herself a heavier sigh. Standing up, she walked over to the lone window in the whole of the room, a meager thing lop-sided in the old red brick of the building, an afterthought. Pulling up the broken blinds, her eyes automatically looked past the familiar sight of the ever changing billboard right outside (this month was advertising Maxwell House Coffee), past the ever rising skyscrapers, to the murky blue of the night sky. Something about nights in the city - it was never truly dark outside. Not like the pitch black of home. Regardless - it was still the night sky; still a window into something wider, greater, bigger than she could ever hope to be, and that alone was enough to give her hope. Leaning against the window now, she rested her forehead against the glass, and sighed again, her breath fogging it.
Home was something of a creature comfort, in the barest of meaning. It was furnished comfortably enough, enough for a single woman, and the apartment was equally safe, a melting pot in a city that still wasn’t sure how it felt about it. Her neighbors were friendly enough without being nosy, and somehow, all the children in the building knew just when she’d caught a wild hair up her ass about home and was making beignets.
As the key slide effortlessly into her lock, she was thankful that it was late enough that she didn’t have to talk to anyone. She wasn’t in the mood. Inside, the dull red light she kept on to keep her apartment from being in total darkness was still cheerily going, throwing warm light across immaculately polished wooden floors and crates of records, haphazardly piled here and there. Tossing her keys to the table just inside, she kicked off her heels with a reassuring clatter and, as her usual ritual, slid in her stockinged feet across the entryway into her living room. Flopping down on her couch, she threw an arm over her forehead - huh. Her fingernail polish was chipped; she’d have to redo it sooner than later.
Tilting her head back across the arm of the couch, she waited until the familiar strain in her neck started, and then stretched her legs out, pointing her toes as delicately as a ballerina. “Money, money, money. Gimme gimme gimme.” A strange ritual, but one that brought her some sense of comfort. Maybe if she kept asking the void, someone would hear her.
Most Americans could tell you where they were when they heard Captain America died. And Elizabeth Simone was one of them.
She was in jail.
Had been there overnight, amid the leering of the white, drawling police officers, that hadn’t offered her or her friends any sort of privacy or modesty when they went to the bathroom in that dirty, cold, stinking cell. Had laughed at them and made sure that they overheard their disgusting remarks. She’d been terrified - there had been nothing that would have stopped those officers from coming in and doing what they wanted with her, her friends - and there wouldn’t have been any justice for them. Not here - not anywhere. And as much as she had wanted to believe in that shining symbol of American justice and righteousness, beating back the Nazi menace, it was a bitter reminder, her ship crashing back down to earth, when she finally realized that Captain America wouldn’t save her. Not now, not ever.
And as she sat on the thin cot covered by a threadbare blanket, knees pulled up to her chest, her skirt pulled down as far as she could to cover her legs, the faint flash of her garters and panties, she swore that she would never believe in another hero again. From here on out, she would be her own savior. And though America was great and strong and powerful and ready to help the rest of the world, they couldn’t give a damn about the people suffering on their own streets.
1955
The country had pulled itself together, neatly mopping up the remnants of Nazis: either putting them to trial or secretly absorbing them into their ranks of scientists, or looking the other way as they flocked to South America. The men returned home, the women vacated the factories, and the American Dream was firmly baked into every picture perfect cake and tract home out in the suburbs. Life was good, people were prospering, and nylons were in every store. There had been another war, yes, but nothing like the greatness of World War II - this had been quieter, with a more vague enemy, but people still signed up, still went, came back with the same thousand yard stares and nightmares of horrors that language hadn’t caught up to explain yet.
And yet, in the South, life still continued as it had - nearly 100 years earlier. It had been fooled into accepting its antiquated nature, resting back on the laurels of a past that never was, an antebellum myth of shining dresses and expansive plantations with happily singing negroes and blushing Southern belles. Now it was but a shell of those memories, the jobs going north, or to California, with the great munitions factories exploding into being behind the first War effort, and, finding more warmth in a distant sun, folks that left didn’t come back.
Elizabeth was one of them.
A few years older, a few years wiser, when she left the verdant cane fields of Louisiana first, then the stagnant humidity of Houston later, she’d been moving with a mission. That mission was not lessened as she stepped off the Greyhound bus into the sunshine of California, where it never rained and the stars shone even in the daytime. She’d packed with her in her beat up suitcase not just her meager possessions, but the hopes and dreams of all she’d left behind. Through her own bargaining, wit, and the occasional act she didn’t like to think of, she’d begged, borrowed, and stolen her way here, and by God, she was going to make it count.
The Communist Party of America hadn’t promised her the world; she knew that, but they were where like minds could meet. They hadn’t forgotten that she’d gone to jail for them; didn’t seem to care that she was a woman, and a black one at that; never saw her lesser, or her personal sacrifices as something that was a given, because that’s what women did, they were givers, and every grassroots movement could be traced back to their blood, sweat, tears, injuries, their murdered sons, brothers, fathers, their raped daughters. They gave her something to believe in, a something that over time, she could feel, was starting to be twisted by her hatred, something she knew all too well, its bitterness keeping her alive and slowly poisoning her. Once upon a time, when Captain America was alive, she’d believed in holding hands and true equality, in that great war where black, brown, yellow, and red blood had been shed as easily as white.
Looking up, shielding her eyes from the sun, she took in a deep breath of exhaust and decay that each city had, unique only in how rapidly it’d spread, and felt resolution billow in her chest. Here, she’d have more money, more support, more organization. To others, her being chosen to go would be an honor; to her, it was her rightful due. She’d worked hard to be here, and was going to keep working hard. When she left, she left behind the legacy of the first black union in her town, job securities, a framework for improving schools for faces that looked like hers.
And now, walking into the lion’s den, her name a recognized one in the Party, she knew her life was always in danger, and if she were killed, that it would mean little. But she was here now.
196X - The Present
“Betty, please!”
“Frankie, you call me ‘Betty’ one more time, I’m going to skin you alive.”
“We have to be more cautious now - we just barely survived the 50s and that zealot McCarthy; now you’re threatening to bring the whole of the government down on our heads. Some of us have families to consider now. We can’t be cowboys like we used to.”
“If you want to call this ‘surviving,’” Elizabeth waved a hand around her office. It’d seen better days; open windows with views into the expanse of downtown LA. Now, this office, if it could truly be called that, was little more than a janitor’s closet, lit by a naked lightbulb, distorted shadows scattered by its timid pull string. Her desk was a second hand thing from some sympathizer years ago, purloined from a school. There were still ancient wads of chewing gum stuck to the bottom of it, and initials carved into the once butter colored wood. On her worst nights, Elizabeth would run her fingers across it and wonder if Mary-Ann was really a whore, or if Jimmy and Janey were still together.
“That’s just my point, Elizabeth,” sighed Frank, pushing his thick black framed glasses up his nose. Anywhere else in the world, a covert meeting between a white man and a young black woman would have been cause for alarm, but California always was a bit different, a bit warped in its sensibilities. “We just don’t have the funds that we used to. People have moved on. People don’t care anymore.”
“They got their tv dinners and autos and that’s all she wrote.” She leaned up against the desk now, careful not to push it. Crossing her arms, she stared at the creeping bloom of a water stain on the ceiling. “While folks down south are still worried about being strung up from trees. This world is fucked.”
“What do you want, Elizabeth?” Frank sighed. It was a long argument, stretching into its second year, and he was growing weary.
“Some of Howard Stark’s money.” A peace gesture, an attempt to lighten the mood.
“You’re not blonde enough for it.” The peace gesture accepted; all was forgiven. Tentatively, Frank spoke again, turning to walk out. “Look, I know you want the best for everyone. But nowadays, we gotta count our blessings, no matter how small they are. You implemented that school lunch program down in those housing projects, and you made sure there was transportation to get them there and back again. And the book mobiles. You’ve done more than enough. Every tub’s got to rest on its own bottom, and every man has to sit under his own vine. Sit back, Elizabeth. Enjoy the fruits of your labor.”
She sat back down with a sigh. “I’ll try, Frank.”
A wan smile from the older man. He knew a dismissal when he heard one. “You wanna come over Saturday night? Midge is making brisket.”
A wave of her hand of dismissal. “I appreciate it, but I’ll probably pass. Send my regards to her and the kids.”
“Levi’s been asking about you - wanting to know when you’re going to come over again.”
She laughed now, the tension finally broken, though her shoulders were still heavy, still weary. “Levi just wants my beignets.”
“He’s a man of good taste. Goodnight, Betty - be careful on your way home. Call when you get in; Miriam worries.”
“Frankie, Miriam is 3 years old.”
“Ya got me, chief.” A friendly smile, a wrinkling of the fine skin next to his brown eyes, and he was out the door, his footsteps heavy on the stairs. Elizabeth waited till the tell-tale creak of the second to last step on the landing before she allowed herself a heavier sigh. Standing up, she walked over to the lone window in the whole of the room, a meager thing lop-sided in the old red brick of the building, an afterthought. Pulling up the broken blinds, her eyes automatically looked past the familiar sight of the ever changing billboard right outside (this month was advertising Maxwell House Coffee), past the ever rising skyscrapers, to the murky blue of the night sky. Something about nights in the city - it was never truly dark outside. Not like the pitch black of home. Regardless - it was still the night sky; still a window into something wider, greater, bigger than she could ever hope to be, and that alone was enough to give her hope. Leaning against the window now, she rested her forehead against the glass, and sighed again, her breath fogging it.
Home was something of a creature comfort, in the barest of meaning. It was furnished comfortably enough, enough for a single woman, and the apartment was equally safe, a melting pot in a city that still wasn’t sure how it felt about it. Her neighbors were friendly enough without being nosy, and somehow, all the children in the building knew just when she’d caught a wild hair up her ass about home and was making beignets.
As the key slide effortlessly into her lock, she was thankful that it was late enough that she didn’t have to talk to anyone. She wasn’t in the mood. Inside, the dull red light she kept on to keep her apartment from being in total darkness was still cheerily going, throwing warm light across immaculately polished wooden floors and crates of records, haphazardly piled here and there. Tossing her keys to the table just inside, she kicked off her heels with a reassuring clatter and, as her usual ritual, slid in her stockinged feet across the entryway into her living room. Flopping down on her couch, she threw an arm over her forehead - huh. Her fingernail polish was chipped; she’d have to redo it sooner than later.
Tilting her head back across the arm of the couch, she waited until the familiar strain in her neck started, and then stretched her legs out, pointing her toes as delicately as a ballerina. “Money, money, money. Gimme gimme gimme.” A strange ritual, but one that brought her some sense of comfort. Maybe if she kept asking the void, someone would hear her.