Apollo Wilde
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Despite herself, and her better interests, she couldn’t stop the small, muffled laugh at Sir Stefan’s quip. He had a point.
“I forgive you for all - except for being handsome. That, I simply can’t abide by. You must do something to stop it, or I’m going to be upset with you.” It felt so ungodly good to just be able to say it! A part of her still nagged, still reminded her that it was a compliment that he was not only used to hearing, but perhaps expected. All the same, it didn’t make it any less true. She forced herself to look at him, nerves making her uncharacteristically shy. She hadn’t felt so out of depth, so utterly inadequate, since the days of Sir Yudah. His presence had made her feel like a little girl, so completely out of her depth. And, as she looked into Sir Stefan’s bright eyes, forced herself to hold his gaze, she could feel that same flicker in the pit of her stomach. She’d given in before, though all of the bluster, that day in her office’s library. She’d let herself get carried away, only to find how unbalanced she still was at the end of it.
But he’s not comparing you to others, a soft voice pointed out in her mind. You’re the one that’s been constantly saying that you weren’t good enough, based on assumptions. Not once has he compared you to the Countess, or anyone else.
“Somehow,” her voice dropped, quieter, “I think we could stay here, apologizing to one another, for nights on end. But I don’t think that’s what you really want, is it?”
His face, the shyness in it, was…restorative to her. Unlike with Drago, where she felt the need to nurture, to guide…this, this was shaping to be something easier. Both of them on equal footing.
“Well, what do you know…? Neither have I.” A shy smile, sealed by an equally soft, chaste kiss. She wasn’t lying - she couldn’t remember opening herself up to anyone enough to have it be considered “making love.” “Fucking” she could deal with - that was quick, dirty, fun, if she let it. And nothing was attached, to get in the way, to feel guilty about. No commitment, other than the frustration at having to finally give into what her body was desiring. Even with Drago, that hadn’t felt like so much as making love as giving in; not in a bad way. Something to finally take the edge of, so that maybe they could move around each other in a more…understanding manner. Or make Drago a little less slavish in his devotion. She wasn’t entirely sure - and if she were being honest with herself, there was still a shadow of doubt that she’d done the right thing by him.
Deeper kiss was accepted, responded to - but before she could let herself truly start to stoke a fire, she took a deep breath. “I…I want this to mean something, Sir Stefan. For the both of us.” Fingertips against his lips, slipping to press against his lower lip. “I don’t want this to be something just for the sake of it, for trying something new. For just a distraction. I…” A swallow. “We,” realizing that Drago was there, that perhaps Sir Stefan wished to pull the younger man into their whirlpool, “deserve more than that.”
She knew she couldn’t speak much for Drago; wouldn’t allow herself to - but she felt confident, at least, in insisting that the young man deserved more than an orgasm and a Kiss. “If…” Another swallow. Time to be brave. “If you want me to open my heart - then…” She couldn’t find the words to finish her sentence.
So she closed the gap, her lips soft against his. Questioning. Fearful, a bit, too, but with a newness that couldn’t be mistaken for confidence. “There’s no show here, Sir Stefan. Just three bodies. Three hearts. Yours, mine, and Drago’s. No audience. No performance to be had.” Shifting again, so that she freed her good hand from under his body to run down the lines of his shoulders, his upper back. No salacious heat in her touch, but an idle curiosity, the desire to simply want to feel him. “And there’s no rush.” The last, she made sure to underscore with finality, even as her own heart railed at her to hurry up, to give him what he wanted. That would be too easy, and not allow for any sort of connection. And after all of this…if not Drago, then didn’t she owe herself this much, at least? She’d been “good” in by doing the best that she could to subdue her feelings, and now he was asking her to bask in them. She’d tried her best to question, to reason her way out of love at first sight. Lust, maybe, she could’ve given herself that, and maybe that’s what it was. With his easy smile and bright eyes and confident air - but then, the wanting to give. And give and give and give - money, time, tea. Whatever he could. And, again, she’d just assumed he was that way with everyone, instead of opening herself to the possibility that beyond an attraction, he was just…trying to be nice. And she’d done her best to shove him away because of her own attraction.
“Well, I’ve made a fine mess of this all so far,” apropos of nothing, it would seem, but there was a smile in her voice. “So…I’d like to take this opportunity to start over a bit. I like you, Sir Stefan. I think you’re handsome and kind, even if you annoy me sometimes. I don’t want to be just a distraction. I want to be someone…” Now it was her turn to blush. “I would like to be someone that you could find a home with.” Another muffled snort. “And now I’m making matters worse by treating you like a stray instead of a person. But I’ve a habit of collecting strays.”
Somehow managing to angle herself, she now lay on her back between the two men, the arm in a sling against Drago, lightly, her good arm draped across Sir Stefan’s chest. “A trio of strays."
Closing her eyes, she allowed herself a warm smile. "Who, somehow, despite all odds, have managed to find each other."
“I forgive you for all - except for being handsome. That, I simply can’t abide by. You must do something to stop it, or I’m going to be upset with you.” It felt so ungodly good to just be able to say it! A part of her still nagged, still reminded her that it was a compliment that he was not only used to hearing, but perhaps expected. All the same, it didn’t make it any less true. She forced herself to look at him, nerves making her uncharacteristically shy. She hadn’t felt so out of depth, so utterly inadequate, since the days of Sir Yudah. His presence had made her feel like a little girl, so completely out of her depth. And, as she looked into Sir Stefan’s bright eyes, forced herself to hold his gaze, she could feel that same flicker in the pit of her stomach. She’d given in before, though all of the bluster, that day in her office’s library. She’d let herself get carried away, only to find how unbalanced she still was at the end of it.
But he’s not comparing you to others, a soft voice pointed out in her mind. You’re the one that’s been constantly saying that you weren’t good enough, based on assumptions. Not once has he compared you to the Countess, or anyone else.
“Somehow,” her voice dropped, quieter, “I think we could stay here, apologizing to one another, for nights on end. But I don’t think that’s what you really want, is it?”
His face, the shyness in it, was…restorative to her. Unlike with Drago, where she felt the need to nurture, to guide…this, this was shaping to be something easier. Both of them on equal footing.
“Well, what do you know…? Neither have I.” A shy smile, sealed by an equally soft, chaste kiss. She wasn’t lying - she couldn’t remember opening herself up to anyone enough to have it be considered “making love.” “Fucking” she could deal with - that was quick, dirty, fun, if she let it. And nothing was attached, to get in the way, to feel guilty about. No commitment, other than the frustration at having to finally give into what her body was desiring. Even with Drago, that hadn’t felt like so much as making love as giving in; not in a bad way. Something to finally take the edge of, so that maybe they could move around each other in a more…understanding manner. Or make Drago a little less slavish in his devotion. She wasn’t entirely sure - and if she were being honest with herself, there was still a shadow of doubt that she’d done the right thing by him.
Deeper kiss was accepted, responded to - but before she could let herself truly start to stoke a fire, she took a deep breath. “I…I want this to mean something, Sir Stefan. For the both of us.” Fingertips against his lips, slipping to press against his lower lip. “I don’t want this to be something just for the sake of it, for trying something new. For just a distraction. I…” A swallow. “We,” realizing that Drago was there, that perhaps Sir Stefan wished to pull the younger man into their whirlpool, “deserve more than that.”
She knew she couldn’t speak much for Drago; wouldn’t allow herself to - but she felt confident, at least, in insisting that the young man deserved more than an orgasm and a Kiss. “If…” Another swallow. Time to be brave. “If you want me to open my heart - then…” She couldn’t find the words to finish her sentence.
So she closed the gap, her lips soft against his. Questioning. Fearful, a bit, too, but with a newness that couldn’t be mistaken for confidence. “There’s no show here, Sir Stefan. Just three bodies. Three hearts. Yours, mine, and Drago’s. No audience. No performance to be had.” Shifting again, so that she freed her good hand from under his body to run down the lines of his shoulders, his upper back. No salacious heat in her touch, but an idle curiosity, the desire to simply want to feel him. “And there’s no rush.” The last, she made sure to underscore with finality, even as her own heart railed at her to hurry up, to give him what he wanted. That would be too easy, and not allow for any sort of connection. And after all of this…if not Drago, then didn’t she owe herself this much, at least? She’d been “good” in by doing the best that she could to subdue her feelings, and now he was asking her to bask in them. She’d tried her best to question, to reason her way out of love at first sight. Lust, maybe, she could’ve given herself that, and maybe that’s what it was. With his easy smile and bright eyes and confident air - but then, the wanting to give. And give and give and give - money, time, tea. Whatever he could. And, again, she’d just assumed he was that way with everyone, instead of opening herself to the possibility that beyond an attraction, he was just…trying to be nice. And she’d done her best to shove him away because of her own attraction.
“Well, I’ve made a fine mess of this all so far,” apropos of nothing, it would seem, but there was a smile in her voice. “So…I’d like to take this opportunity to start over a bit. I like you, Sir Stefan. I think you’re handsome and kind, even if you annoy me sometimes. I don’t want to be just a distraction. I want to be someone…” Now it was her turn to blush. “I would like to be someone that you could find a home with.” Another muffled snort. “And now I’m making matters worse by treating you like a stray instead of a person. But I’ve a habit of collecting strays.”
Somehow managing to angle herself, she now lay on her back between the two men, the arm in a sling against Drago, lightly, her good arm draped across Sir Stefan’s chest. “A trio of strays."
Closing her eyes, she allowed herself a warm smile. "Who, somehow, despite all odds, have managed to find each other."