All Lucinda could remember, was those final moments. The arguement that had gone so horribly wrong. From being mildly annoyed, to full out yelling. The hateful things he'd said. The revelation that he'd been cheating. Their impending nupitals, now a shattered dream. How could he do this? She'd roared at him. He'd pushed her back to get her away from him. That final and lingering moment, as she watched him in slow motion as she'd decended the stairs backwards. The look of horror on his face as she'd fallen.
Then nothing.
There were other things she remembered too. Not such unpleasant things. Lucinda seemed to have retained all of her memory. Child hood things like playing at the park with her friends. First boyfriends, and puppy love. The feel of the sun on her skin in the summer. The taste of icecream and chocolate. The summer grass between her toes. All things that she mourned, now that she fully understood. She was stuck here. To live out that awful 10 minutes, over and over again.
Lucinda didn't know how long she'd been stuck here. Or how long she was supposed to stay. What she needed to do to end this eternal reminisence. Apparently this limbo wasn't met with someone holding instructions. It seemed like years. Though it could have been months. Time had ceased to exist, and she'd stopped counting the nights, when she lost track and got so horribly tangled up in them. And then it would start again. Her accusing words, the hate in his eyes. His confession and her reaction. His arm shooting out towards her, and her descent. Falling, always falling. Only to start again.
When she wasnt' falling, Lucinda had taken to exploring. Looking at her things, cherishing the ones that remained. One day, two men she didn't recognise came to take a large amount of stuff away. She'd been scared then. Hiding in the shadows. Then indignant as they'd taken her cherished belongings. Trying to stop them, only to have them walk right through her. Oblivious to her cries. Then they were gone again. With little consequence. Leaving the house empty. Leaving her all alone. With nothing but her torturous memories.
She had to have died. it was the only logical explanation. She couldn't seem to leave. Try as she might. Lucinda had spent an entire day trying to push herself through the door, or the windows. Even the walls.. that was what ghosts did wasn't it? But to no avail . She simply was stuck.. to wander around aimlessly. With no need or wants. But she craved. Oh how she craved! Connection. Contact. She missed talking and laughing. Missed walking outside.
Missed living.