So difficult...

[Lord_Kallorian]

no need to thank Me girl.. it is all true and is being totally honest about you

 

[mschmidt13579]

tcbyron,

I woud not get this worked up about this tool... As I stated off line, there are a lot of "keyboard warriors" on line.

It's refreshing to talk to a person of your demeanor...

Hell yea, I've given it a lot of thought. Do I feel I've had a hand in it? To an extent yes. But was he open about the way he felt or say a damn thing about it? Nope. Therefore I DO place ALL the blame on him. We had a 24/7 Master/slave relationship that was getting a bit too much for him. I, literally, scared him. How? Well, the "label" that most people put on it is because I'm a "pain slut"... It was too much for him. More than he could deal with. So what did he do? He went and had another entire life. A second home, a second set of friends, a girlfriend who nurtured the "Daddy" inside of him. So yes, I have an idea. I never said that I didn't. Did I share this though? NO! I didn't know that just because I choose to not share something means that I have no "idea about the why."

And not for nothing, who in the hell are you, who just joined today and decided to make me the subject of your first post and first bashing, to say that "Nobody here" anything?!? Hell, you couldn't even be bothered to fill out your profile or introduce yourself before you decided to bash me. Not that I've been on here since forever, but hell, at least I don't generalize people like you.

Good luck in your life. Somehow I really don't see you sticking around too long.

 

[ladance]

I hate nighttime.

Right now I should be basking in the afterglow of some good, rough sex.

The pain from my whipping fading into a pleasant tingle.

His arms wrapped tightly around me as exhaustion takes ahold of my body from my subdrop.

Even as I drop into the void right before sleep, I'm still wanting more of Him.

Alas - I'm off to bed. Alone. The only way it's warm is if I use a heated blanket..... *sigh*

Ahh me too. Already missing the touch of his hands so much. Damn hate cold beds and even more hate not having arms wrapped round me after play.
Want to be back feeling serene after giving pleasure, feeling safe and chersihed just for a few more hours.

 

[ladance]

After reading your initial post and then the subsequent ones, these are the words that came to mind, which have to be said.

A fantasist, a narcissist, highly critical, unstable, insecure and possibly quite desperate and finally, very dangerous.

Even though there are some interesting things you've said, the manner of your writings suggest one will probably not know what they have with you, even once they have been with you for 20 years.

Nobody here has any idea about the "why" of the moment that you were "dumped in the middle of nowhere" and while we have all read about or heard about people who seemingly had a great life, they nevertheless, and suddenly, just gave up those lives and never went returned to them.
Like their spouses/BFs/GFs, I am sure you have given the matter lots of thought and examination, but I think you will find that you had a hand to play in that event, even if you can't think of what it is.

You will not make many friends here if you attack people in this manner. Don't jump in and be judgemental, and certainly don't name call, it is not pleasant. What each of us reveal of ourselves here we do so from a desire to share in an environment where people understand our feelings and desires.

 

[tcbyron]

tcbyron,

I woud not get this worked up about this tool... As I stated off line, there are a lot of "keyboard warriors" on line.

It's refreshing to talk to a person of your demeanor...

Thank you. For the compliment and calming words. Yes, there do seem to be many, many keyboard warriors here. lol

Ahh me too. Already missing the touch of his hands so much. Damn hate cold beds and even more hate not having arms wrapped round me after play.
Want to be back feeling serene after giving pleasure, feeling safe and chersihed just for a few more hours.

I'm so with you ladance. There is a certain, peace(?), that comes with serving and giving everything, opening yourself up entirely and entrusting them with every part of your being. That is what I feel I miss the most.

 

[tcbyron]

You will not make many friends here if you attack people in this manner. Don't jump in and be judgemental, and certainly don't name call, it is not pleasant. What each of us reveal of ourselves here we do so from a desire to share in an environment where people understand our feelings and desires.

Thank you ladance

So very, very true. People like this have no clue what it takes to open up and put ourselves out there in this sort of manner. Thank you again.

 

[Lord_Kallorian]

so tc,

you think you might have found Someone that you want to throw yourself at Thier feet? hehehe

if you have, They are and will feel that they have been blessed and honored to have you.

 

[FluteMaster]

After reading your initial post and then the subsequent ones, these are the words that came to mind, which have to be said.

A fantasist, a narcissist, highly critical, unstable, insecure and possibly quite desperate and finally, very dangerous.

Even though there are some interesting things you've said, the manner of your writings suggest one will probably not know what they have with you, even once they have been with you for 20 years.

Nobody here has any idea about the "why" of the moment that you were "dumped in the middle of nowhere" and while we have all read about or heard about people who seemingly had a great life, they nevertheless, and suddenly, just gave up those lives and never went returned to them.
Like their spouses/BFs/GFs, I am sure you have given the matter lots of thought and examination, but I think you will find that you had a hand to play in that event, even if you can't think of what it is.

Wow, so you have known her how long?

Or maybe you are the ex who left her?

Or maybe you are just a bully who thinks that by tearing someone apart they will become more vulnerable to you? How dare you pick on someone in such a way, in such a manner, and try and present yourself as some sort of Literotica Guardian.

Your words portray you as a bitter, twisted, self centered uncaring man who fears the world and the responsibilities it brings, who blames others for his insecurities and hide behind fear rather than embracing risk.

As for TCByron, I hear the truth in your words, and I know that there are Men who are also loving Masters and Daddies who will appreciate the life you offer. There is One who will embrace your intensity and not run from it, who will nuture your desires and delight in them all, and just when you least expect it, he will enter your life.

Peace to you

 

[tcbyron]

Wow, so you have known her how long?

Or maybe you are the ex who left her?

Or maybe you are just a bully who thinks that by tearing someone apart they will become more vulnerable to you? How dare you pick on someone in such a way, in such a manner, and try and present yourself as some sort of Literotica Guardian.

Your words portray you as a bitter, twisted, self centered uncaring man who fears the world and the responsibilities it brings, who blames others for his insecurities and hide behind fear rather than embracing risk.

As for TCByron, I hear the truth in your words, and I know that there are Men who are also loving Masters and Daddies who will appreciate the life you offer. There is One who will embrace your intensity and not run from it, who will nuture your desires and delight in them all, and just when you least expect it, he will enter your life.

Peace to you

Thank you for your wonderfully kind words. It is much appreciated.

I too, was debating if it was an ex. To make a profile, not fill anything out, come to this post and belittle me only to disappear. Yeaaaa. Kinda fishy.

 

[1sickbastard]

After reading your initial post and then the subsequent ones, these are the words that came to mind, which have to be said.

A fantasist, a narcissist, highly critical, unstable, insecure and possibly quite desperate and finally, very dangerous.

Even though there are some interesting things you've said, the manner of your writings suggest one will probably not know what they have with you, even once they have been with you for 20 years.

Nobody here has any idea about the "why" of the moment that you were "dumped in the middle of nowhere" and while we have all read about or heard about people who seemingly had a great life, they nevertheless, and suddenly, just gave up those lives and never went returned to them.
Like their spouses/BFs/GFs, I am sure you have given the matter lots of thought and examination, but I think you will find that you had a hand to play in that event, even if you can't think of what it is.

Don't feed the troll, folks.
tc-Fear not the troll, he knowns nothing of what he speaks.
You have my affection and support, my friend.

 

[tcbyron]

Don't feed the troll, folks.
tc-Fear not the troll, he knowns nothing of what he speaks.
You have my affection and support, my friend.

Thank you Sick.

 

[tcbyron]

Ok........ I need to, I don't know, get this out..........

Now, I have not been in a bdsm relationship for at least 4ish years now. All vanilla since. I am a -very- needy slave.. Anyhow...

I've been able to read and discuss almost anything. While I may get turned on, that's about it. Til now...

I was pointed in the direction of a particular thread. Wanting to read the whole thing (50-ish pages) I started at page 1. A few pages in, a posting hit me and stopped me dead like I ran into a brick wall...........

I stumbled across this particular posting approximately an hour and half ago...

I am still shaking, like I've have a serious chill that I cannot shake. It is visibly noticeable it is that bad.

Even though I had never done what was discussed in the post, I easily pictured myself in that position with a faceless Master (who I've yet had the pleasure to meet). I'm feeling the *full* range of emotions that would occur if that actually happened. Humiliation. Arousal. Degradation. Adornment for Him for knowing me so well. And so much more that I cannot put a finger on from my insides being all knotted up................................. I really cannot even speak outloud I'm so shaken to my core.....

GAWD! I miss it... I need it... I want it.............................

 

[ladance]

Ok........ I need to, I don't know, get this out..........

Now, I have not been in a bdsm relationship for at least 4ish years now. All vanilla since. I am a -very- needy slave.. Anyhow...

I've been able to read and discuss almost anything. While I may get turned on, that's about it. Til now...

I was pointed in the direction of a particular thread. Wanting to read the whole thing (50-ish pages) I started at page 1. A few pages in, a posting hit me and stopped me dead like I ran into a brick wall...........

I stumbled across this particular posting approximately an hour and half ago...

I am still shaking, like I've have a serious chill that I cannot shake. It is visibly noticeable it is that bad.

Even though I had never done what was discussed in the post, I easily pictured myself in that position with a faceless Master (who I've yet had the pleasure to meet). I'm feeling the *full* range of emotions that would occur if that actually happened. Humiliation. Arousal. Degradation. Adornment for Him for knowing me so well. And so much more that I cannot put a finger on from my insides being all knotted up................................. I really cannot even speak outloud I'm so shaken to my core.....

GAWD! I miss it... I need it... I want it.............................

waiting is so very hard and vanilla never matches those feelings. finding words that can awaken desires so strongly and touch your soul in such a way ...i can understand the way you must feel now.

holdonto the good feelings and I hope they can be translated into real experience with your one soon. x

 

[ladance]

Wow, so you have known her how long?

Or maybe you are the ex who left her?

Or maybe you are just a bully who thinks that by tearing someone apart they will become more vulnerable to you? How dare you pick on someone in such a way, in such a manner, and try and present yourself as some sort of Literotica Guardian.

Your words portray you as a bitter, twisted, self centered uncaring man who fears the world and the responsibilities it brings, who blames others for his insecurities and hide behind fear rather than embracing risk.

As for TCByron, I hear the truth in your words, and I know that there are Men who are also loving Masters and Daddies who will appreciate the life you offer. There is One who will embrace your intensity and not run from it, who will nuture your desires and delight in them all, and just when you least expect it, he will enter your life.

Peace to you

well i don't know about Tcb( although i can pretty much guess) but I sure wish the ones who would embrace us would find us and begin the nurturing ownership we desire. Do we have to stop searching before we get found? or just give up hope.

 

[Lord_Kallorian]

well i don't know about Tcb( although i can pretty much guess) but I sure wish the ones who would embrace us would find us and begin the nurturing ownership we desire. Do we have to stop searching before we get found? or just give up hope.

Is ok and to be honest, I have been searching for over 15 years unsucessfully.. amd is still looking sadly. Many just want a toy to use for a lil bit then toss away for something better.. then there are a VERY few like Me that wants more and has much more to offer..

and that is My heart....

 

[ladance]

Is ok and to be honest, I have been searching for over 15 years unsucessfully.. amd is still looking sadly. Many just want a toy to use for a lil bit then toss away for something better.. then there are a VERY few like Me that wants more and has much more to offer..

and that is My heart....

Very few with hearts to offer ...how true that is. Well maybe hard as it is I'll stop hoping ...if the real Ones are so rare it seems a hopeless quest.
Giving and being tossed aside is harder to endure than being alone and waiting.

May your heart be seen by one who will accept it openly and honestly and bring joy to you both. x

 

[Lord_Kallorian]

Very few with hearts to offer ...how true that is. Well maybe hard as it is I'll stop hoping ...if the real Ones are so rare it seems a hopeless quest.
Giving and being tossed aside is harder to endure than being alone and waiting.

May your heart be seen by one who will accept it openly and honestly and bring joy to you both. x

Same times it's not just you that gives and gets tossed aside.
I have had that happen so much that I lost count.

Sometimes it was for someone else even before giving Me a chance.

 

[ladance]

Same times it's not just you that gives and gets tossed aside.
I have had that happen so much that I lost count.

Sometimes it was for someone else even before giving Me a chance.

I do know it happens far too often, on both sides, I'm far from thinking it is only men who behave in hurtful ways. I wish with all my heart that we could become a more careful, compassionate people who treat each other as the precious beings we are and are considerate in our handling of peoples emotions.
Waiting and hoping is hard when all it seems to bring is more hurt.
But I do, in the world is someone who will see my heart and treasure it, who will accept my love and not trash it, who will value all i offer, like wise for you and all others who desire something rich and meaningful. we just need to find their hiding places ..or create a place they can find us. x

 

[1sickbastard]

Bump for the lovely Miss TCByron.

Hope you're having a nice day, tc.

 

[johnjamesg]

PM Me!

 

[tcbyron]

Okey dokey...

First of all, let me address something here. Folks, this is a forum. My life does -not- revolve around it. Which means that I'm not constantly on here... I have a real live life going on.
One that involves 2 teenagers; a full class load in college (18 credits worth this semester alone); my writing career under 2 names (ya know one for the 'nilla stuff); my expanding line of condiments which recently got a big break locally that I'm trying to catch up with; and my art. That's not to mention other elderly family members who require me to take them to dr appts and such. Or "down" time - whatever the hell that is... Oh, and should I mention it's midterm exam time?!? Or what about time to take care of my veggie garden where I get a lot of food from?
Yea... Come and walk in my shoes for a week and let me see how much time and patience you have to reply to pm's like the examples below.

So, with that said, I am -not- ignoring anyone. Unless you have sent me one of those laughable pm's telling me that I'm "in trouble" for not responding or am "due punishment" in which case - Yes, I AM ignoring you... Really? Are you freakin' kidding me?

Take a look at my posting history. The last time I was on here was on the 5th... A week ago. So, I'm apologies if that's not good enough for you. And not for nothing but you can't really go by the 'last activity' because I don't log out or close out browser windows...

Which leads me to my second thing. You know when you happen to stumble across someone and everything just seems to click? Well, guess what, that's happened to me during this past week. And yes, I'm grinning from ear to ear, while we are both trying to figure out times to see each other.

So, that's where I am at this point in time.

 

[FluteMaster]

Which leads me to my second thing. You know when you happen to stumble across someone and everything just seems to click? Well, guess what, that's happened to me during this past week. And yes, I'm grinning from ear to ear, while we are both trying to figure out times to see each other.

So, that's where I am at this point in time.

Need I say more?

 

[tcbyron]

Need I say more?

Thank you Flute. It's nice to have those who are honestly happy for you when something goes right.

Hope things are all good in your world! and you got that story you were waiting for.

 

[ladance]

Thank you Flute. It's nice to have those who are honestly happy for you when something goes right.

Hope things are all good in your world! and you got that story you were waiting for.

Hey hunni really glad something good has happened for you, it's so lovely to know surprising things can sneak into ours lives. Hope it brings you much delight. xx

 

[tcbyron]

Hey hunni really glad something good has happened for you, it's so lovely to know surprising things can sneak into ours lives. Hope it brings you much delight. xx

Awww. Thank you hon!

I swear I've been walking around this past week in a sort-of daze with a big grin on my face the whole time. When my cell goes off, I literally skip across the room to go snatch it up. I like happy places. lol

Face time, when it comes, will make this all the more real. Not that it's not now. I mean hell, what would you call pages and pages of pm's and im's. More texts than I can count. And more than 15 hours of phone conversations in the past 5 days...

*sitting here like a kid in a candy store with a huge smile on my face*