literary_goblin
Really Experienced
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Astarte couldn't help but picture the scene. Herself, but human, her eyes having lost that strange glow. Dressed and with a life of her own, out walking a dog, and running into Ethan. They'd hit it off, and he'd take her home, and then, later, maybe they'd go out for drinks...
It was such a foreign idea to her. But, at the same time, she found she wanted it. Deeply. Now that it was being offered to her? Now that it was possible? Maybe it was cruel of him to have offered in the first place, because if it didn't work, if she went back, she would never be satisfied with feeding again. Eternity stretching before her looked blacker than usual in the face of that. And with that came the fear of upsetting him. Of breaking it off, of this relationship not working, and being sent back to that yawning nothingness to wait until someone wanted to use her again.
"Is it, though?" she asked softly, her head bowed as she wrung her wrists in her lap. "Is it really two-way? If it doesn't work, you go on with your life and meet someone else and be happy, while I lose my identity and become a formless hunger that knows there's more, and knows she will never touch it again. Forever." She looked up at him, her eyes sad. "I don't have a choice in this. Either I make you happy, or I become nothing. That's not a choice."
It was such a foreign idea to her. But, at the same time, she found she wanted it. Deeply. Now that it was being offered to her? Now that it was possible? Maybe it was cruel of him to have offered in the first place, because if it didn't work, if she went back, she would never be satisfied with feeding again. Eternity stretching before her looked blacker than usual in the face of that. And with that came the fear of upsetting him. Of breaking it off, of this relationship not working, and being sent back to that yawning nothingness to wait until someone wanted to use her again.
"Is it, though?" she asked softly, her head bowed as she wrung her wrists in her lap. "Is it really two-way? If it doesn't work, you go on with your life and meet someone else and be happy, while I lose my identity and become a formless hunger that knows there's more, and knows she will never touch it again. Forever." She looked up at him, her eyes sad. "I don't have a choice in this. Either I make you happy, or I become nothing. That's not a choice."