Today I .........

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There is no such place, o yes I have seen it too
Just a little different from how you do,
A river winding blue among the dunes and a marble bed
A sun that doesn’t set but settles.
There is no such place.
If I lower mine to yours would you kiss me on the face?
If you’re looking for an unmarked place,
There is no such place -

There Is No Such Place
:: Augie March ::



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Would, if I could, find a place that echoes only the whispers that my tortured soul coos to woo my restless heart. A place that rings of love songs and happy endings; where bad triumphs over worse, and good, never tainted by the wretched state of humanity in suffering.

A place that drenches the skin only in wild summer rain, and blows of a cooling autumn breeze; that deafens with the explosion of springtime’s blooms, and then slips into the perfect stillness of a cloudless winter night . . . that lures only but dreams that are hazy with breathlessness, and the fatigue of gasping lungs, tired from laughter.

I’ve searched.

I walked along empty stretches of highway in my mind this very stunning twilight, leaving barefoot footprints in the dust brushed intermittent white lines as behind me the blue sky bled into pink and orange.

Walked the miles and miles, as reels and reels of black and white film, accompanied me on my journey. The closing walls a canvas upon which the slideshow of a lifetime of Polaroid moments flashed and then faded, trickery of light and the fickle nature of time.

And I searched.

For a place in those recesses of history written and rewritten, where I didn’t feel your presence hidden in the darkened corners and reflected prisms of colour threading through time, as I gazed in shallow rockpools, studying the minutiae of life forms linked to mine only by the same fate that joins us all.

I searched the childhood playgrounds, the beachside fairs. The sidewalks, the side alleys, the plane rides, the mountain hikes. The moments of utter hopelessness, and the dizzying heights, when clouds were the only things that floated between me and the reality of the world.

Searched for a place when I didn’t breathe your breath, where I didn’t hear your heartbeat; where I couldn’t scent your skin, where I couldn’t feel your caress.

And as I sat, the slow cooling asphalt searing the skin under my bare legs, at the cross roads between here and now, and before and after, counting back to the day when I began to see myself through your eyes, I realised…

That place, that place where you don’t walk my footsteps.
That place where you’re immune to my cold.
That place where you’re deafened to my whimpers for silence.
That place where you can’t join in with my laughter.
That place where you can’t piece me back together after my helpless screams shatter my own fragile disillusions of joy.
That place where you aren’t there to hold me so close that the happy glint dancing in my dark eye is reflected in your own.

That place…I needed to stop searching for.

Because, that place? That place where you’re not with me, even for a split moment in our forever?

Today I realised -

:: There is no such place.

It doesn't matter where you're going. Or for how long.
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